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2023.03.27 02:59 xytek2k2 [Online][Free][Pulp Cthulhu][9pm Sundays CDT (GMT-5)][Looking for Players for Two Headed Serpent Campaign]
Do you hear the Call?
“The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far.” H.P Lovecraft, the Call of Cthulhu Call of Cthulhu is a classic role-playing game of mystery and horror in which ordinary people are confronted by the terrifying and alien forces of the Cthulhu Mythos. We are playing Pulp Cthulhu 7th Edition.
My role as the game moderator is known as the
Keeper of Arcane Lore (“Keeper” for short). Your role as players are the the Heroes of the story, which are to confront villainous cults, alien horrors, and outlandish monsters.
We are have started to play through the Popular and exciting Pulp Cthulhu Campaign,
Two Headed Serpent! This Campaign can take several months to complete, at about three hours each session.
The Campaign began in the country of Bolivia in the 1930’s, and will be traveling around the globe to investigate, and confront the Cthulhu Mythos.
Here are some elements of the game you can expect:
- Atmospheric ambient music
- Dynamic lighting
- Realistic field of vision for your tokens
We are playing in the FoundryVTT environment, hosted on Forge-VTT. All you will need is a Browser, Internet connection, and a FORGE-VTT account (FREE). We are also using Discord for Voice.
We meet on Sunday nights 9pm Central Time. We have already started the campaign, and are looking for others. We are only 4 sessions in so far, so you haven't missed anything!
So, answer the call! The
Call of Cthulhu! and join others and myself for a few hours of two-fisted adventure, weird science and madness!
Sincerely,
Your Keeper Terrelle
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2023.03.27 02:59 Defeliu DES Cipher cryptography
Hi, I was hoping someone could help me with my cryptography assignment. The goal of the assignment is to test your program using input 0b11100100110 (0x726) with master key 0b10011001 (0x99). If implemented correctly, your program should produce ciphertext 0b1111111000 (0x3f8).
Here's my python code:
def expand(x: int) -> int:
table=[1, 2, 4, 3, 4, 3, 5, 6]
expanded=0
for i in range(len(table)):
bit= (x>> (6-table[i])) & 0x01
expanded= expanded (bit <<(7-i))
return expanded
"""
Implements the expander operation from the algorithm.
Parameter:
x (int): 6-bits number
Returns:
Expanded version of 8 bits
"""
def s1(x: int) -> int:
assert x>=0 and x<=0b1111, "Invalid input to sbox 1"
sbox1= (
(0b101, 0b010, 0b001, 0b110, 0b011, 0b100, 0b111, 0b000), # row 0
(0b001, 0b100, 0b110, 0b010, 0b000, 0b111, 0b101, 0b011) # row 1
)
x1= (x & 0b1000) >> 3
x2= x & 0b0111
return sbox1[x1][x2]
def s2(x: int) -> int:
assert x>=0 and x<=0b1111, "Invalid input to sbox 1"
sbox2= (
(0b100, 0b000, 0b110, 0b101, 0b111, 0b001, 0b011, 0b010), #row 0
(0b101, 0b011, 0b000, 0b111, 0b110, 0b010, 0b001, 0b100) #row 1
)
x1= (x & 0b1000) >> 3
x2= x & 0b0111
return sbox2[x1][x2]
"""
S-box two for the DES-like algorithm
Parameter:
x (int): 4-bit input
Returns:
3-bit substitution value for the given x
"""
def f(x: int, key: bytearray) -> int:
#expansion & key mixing
lpt= expand(x) ^ key[0]
rpt= expand(x)^key[1]
#substitution
s1r= (lpt >> 3) & 0b1
s1c= lpt & 0b111
s2r= (rpt >> 3) & 0b1
s2c= rpt & 0b111
s1=0b10100100
s2=0b01000010
x1=(s1r<<2) s1c
x2=(s2r<<2) s2c
sbox= ((s1<<3) s2) >> ((3-x1) * 4)
sbox= sbox & 0b111
#key mixing & permutation
pmt= ((sbox ^ rpt) << 2) ((sbox ^ rpt) >> 1)
f=(pmt << 6) rpt
return f
def subkey(key: int, rnd: int) -> int:
subkey= (key >> rnd) & 0b11111111
return subkey
def round(x: int, key: int, rnd: int) -> int:
l0 = x >> 6
r0 = x & 0b111111
r1 = f(r0, subkey(key, rnd)) ^ l0
l1 = r0
return l1 << 6 r1
def encrypt(x: int, key: int) -> int:
assert x >= 0 and x<=0b111111111111, "Invalid plaintext"
assert key >= 0 and key<=0b111111111, "Invalid key"
y=x
for r in range(5):
y=round(y, key, r+1)
return y
# driver function with test cases
if __name__=="__main__":
assert expand(0b110011) == 0b11000011, "Expander failed"
assert subkey(0b101100101, 4) == 0b10010110, "Subkey function failed"
assert s1(0b1001) == 0b100, "S1 failed"
assert s2(0b1001) == 0b011, "S2 failed"
assert encrypt(0x726, 0x99) == 0x3f8, "Encryption failed"
print("Ok")
I keep on getting an error code with the subkey function not working, besides that though what else can I do to fix the code?
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2023.03.27 02:58 BelugaBilliam Authelia (auto-authelia) script updated: NPM & Caddy support!
Hello all! Thanks for all the support on this project! I was quite surprised on how well recieved it was!
Here is what has been recently added:
- Nginx Proxy Manager installation via docker-compose (Usage for NPM on github page. GUI based so I can't pre-configure it, unless I create a script to generate the "Advanced" section part).
- Caddy installation
- Automatic Caddy configuration (Caddyfile setup) for authelia
Github Repo
https://github.com/lordzeuss/auto-authelia
Previous Reddit Post
https://www.reddit.com/selfhosted/comments/11y2raa/authelia_autoconfiguration_script_v10/
How do I use this new addition?
Here is the short and high level view of it:
When you clone the repo, you will notice there is an additional script (proxy-setup.sh).
Once you run the script, it will prompt you to select NPM or Caddy to install.
If you choose NPM, it will create a docker-compose file, and ask if you want to start the container.
If you choose Caddy, it will install Caddy. It will then ask the auth root domain (auth.example.com), then create the base template Caddyfile.
All you have to do is edit the caddyfile, to add your service domain (service.example.com), and add the location of the service (EX: localhost:8080 OR IP:PORT if not a local service).
You can then just follow the pre-setup Caddyfile to add more services.
In the future, I will simply add any reverse proxy setups/configs to that script. Keeping it simple.
Thats it! Detailed instructions on how to use the new script, and the whole process, is on the github page. This is the short and sweet version. I have plans on including a demo/guide video, as well as adding additional proxies. I am just working one at a time, as I do not have much experience with raw nginx and traefik, so I am learning as I am going!
As always, please let me know what you'd like to see! I would like to see if I can create a small documentation site on github, so the README file on the github page isn't too long and hard to read.
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2023.03.27 02:58 ChromeShadows9 Volume 18: The One Who Failed To Be Eternal.
“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!"
Heith let out a scream full of anguish and fury, at the sky.
The barrage of thunderbolts continued to fall upon them. Healers and herbalists were electrocuted and blown away one after another, collapsing onto the ground. Heith trembled with rage, her emotions running amok.
"What are you doing, Hedin-sama?!"
She quickly casted “high-speed healing" on her burnt body and knocked away a lightning bolt with her staff before glaring at the person in front of her.
"Are you insane, targeting us, your allies?!"
As if expressing her anger, Heith’s long, light red hair, that had lost its hairpin, rippled. On the other hand, Hedin, who had fired off all seventy-eight of his magic bullets in one go, calmly answered.
"Of course I am sane. There's no way I could make a mistake with my aim.
"…?!”
"By my own judgment, I have decided to annihilate you all."
As if proving his words, new magical power rose from the magic circle at his feet.
There was no hint of madness in his coral red eyes behind those glasses. It was the same sage-like gaze that Heith knew so well. He proceeded with his "brutality" in a calm manner.
The girl’s fist trembled as hundreds of white lightning orbs floated in the air, aiming at her once more.
"Are you seriously saying that you, the loyal retainer, would betray Freya-sama?! Even if the whole world turned against us, I truly believed that you and the captain would always protect her!"
"Do not measure me by your arbitrary standards, fool. It makes me sick."
Hedin responded to Heith's passionate cry, with a tone of utter disdain.
"Besides, I have no intention of ensnaring Freya-sama in some scheme."
"What…!?"
"I'm saying that I am committing this crime for the sake of my 'loyalty.'"
He soon rephrased himself, in a way that even Heith could understand.
"Just like that woman... Horn."
"──────"
The name of Heith’s colleague.
She didn't know how Horn thought about her, but Heith had been annoyed by her clumsiness, had looked after her at some times, empathized with her at others, and considered her one of her few "friends"—the name of that "traitor."
"You too… Even you’re saying that?!”
The emotions Heith had felt when she had found out that her friend Horn had betrayed the goddess had revived.
A betrayer just like Horn, who committed the same crime.
When she realized that, Heith threw away her hesitation and accepted the raging fury inside of her.
"Have some shame, traitor! Freya-sama’s divine will is absolute! How dare you speak of loyalty when you defy it?!”
"Discussing with mad believers is tiring and a complete waste of time. ──Just sleep."
The relentless barrage of lightning mercilessly continued.
At this point, only Heith was left standing as a wave of thunder rained down upon her.
"I won't fall to something like this!”
Her body suffered through excruciating damage as she was struck repeatedly, with her skin burning and limbs nearly tearing apart. However, the patterns of light on her skin quickly eliminated all of the injuries to Heith’s body, as if she was never wounded in the first place.
"[Earth Gulleveig]! Even if you are a first-tier adventurer, you can’t kill me!! I am Heith Velvet─ the witch who received the blessing of gold from Freya-sama!”
As a pure, golden magical light emanated from her, Heith was continuously bathed in regenerative magic, endlessly healing her body.
The "Automatic Healing" ability that even the "Crozzo’s Magic Swords” could not defeat. Even though it was the spell of a Level 4 , its effect to withstand Hedin's fierce onslaught of Caelus Hildr was fearsome, and truly exceptional.
“As long as I'm here, the Einherjar and Andhrimnir won't fall! I will protect Freya-sama!"
Heith grew wilder, her fury turning her vision red.
Bathing in countless thunderbolts, with her body shaking, yet despite that, she continued to move forward.
“Silence, you pig.”
"Wha──"
Hedin's face showed clear exasperation, as he spoke.
"I can't kill you? You fool, your "magic" is not eternal, it has a limit.”
Even explaining this felt troublesome.
The annoyance was clear on Hedin’s face as he continued to speak while maintaining the barrage.
"Everyone knows that using magic requires Mind."
Heith’s Mind reserve was superior to that of other healers or mages who were at the same Level.
Her exceptionally high continuous recovery speed, that surpassed even the saint, Amid, was one of the reasons the faction alliance had been cornered.
However.
"Between my Mind and your Mind, which do you think is superior?"
"──────"
Hedin Selland.
The magic swordsman, who boasted the city's largest Mind reserve, so much so that even the city's strongest mage, Riveria Ljos Alf, had acknowledged it.
Heith froze, her blazing fury, suddenly growing cold, as if someone had thrown ice-cold water on it.
“It's clear who will run out of energy first."
The barrage continued to accelerate and intensify.
The raging volley of thunderbolts had surpassed Heith’s healing speed.
She healed, recovered, restored, before continuing to be pierced by lightning strikes and scorched by thunderbolts.
Heith’s golden magic echoed and moaned, her advance halting, and finally, her knees hit the ground.
As Heith was continuously attacked by the electric orbs, amidst the pain, she saw it.
In her fading vision, the beautiful elf looked down on her with a look of contempt.
"Your 'gold” is something that failed to be a goddess, making you inferior to Horn, the daughter of the gods."
Heith’s eyes widened as the elf mercilessly exposed the jealousy Heith had harbored deep in her heart for Horn, before letting out a scream.
"Uaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!"
Lightning roared.
Complete devastation ensued.
After the brutal bombardment ceased, what laid on the ground was the "golden wreck" that failed to be eternal.
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2023.03.27 02:58 GodGunCountry (WTS) Gun Cleaning Mat Rifle Size $27 Shipped
https://imgur.com/a/lKi25gc Let me know the color you want - blue , odg, or fde. I do not have black.
Blue 10
https://imgur.com/a/DfBp8VF Odg 13
https://imgur.com/a/LVBU6Wi Fde 14
https://imgur.com/a/D2Uhe3C More than 2x the thickness Gun Cleaning Mat Rifle
In the cover picture, it looks like it may not roll out to the same length of the other one but they are exactly the same size but this is more than 2x thicker.
You going to love it when you roll this one out, it feels solid.
$27 shipped for one
Or $45 for two
Free shipping most likely Priority and Insured for most
They are 2.5 pounds each, depending on where, shipping cost going to be a lot , I learned that lesson on selling those steel ak mags.
https://imgur.com/a/GE963ZZ Only ar layout, we used them in our gunsmith shop , just bought too many. Manufacture don’t make them anymore because it cost twice as much but they don’t sell for twice as much compared to the normal one.
Pp ff no note or you can do g&s but you pay the 3%
If you don’t a tracking at end of next day please contact me , sometimes pm will not work right some text don’t come through. Let’s just said it is a completely different conversation when that happens.
36x12”
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2023.03.27 02:58 ZetaMarlfox Been perpetually stuck in credit card debt since 2021
Current cards: PNC Visa Debit Card, Capital One Platinum Mastercard ($6000 limit)
FICO Score: 736
Oldest account age: Six Years
Income: $35,000-$40,000/yr
Average monthly spend and categories: -Rent: $975-$1000 -Groceries: $200-$250 -Gasoline: $100 -Telecomm Services (Cell Phone, Internet, etc.): $150 -Car Insurance: $95 -Electricity: $40-$60
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2021 was the last time I can remember having a credit card balance of zero. Back then I had $5000 saved for emergencies, and has just begun my 401k at work (which is now at around $4000). Fastforward to the present day, and I've been teetering at around $2500-$4000 in credit card debt for a good while now, and I can't seem to square it away no matter what I try.
I don't make late payments, and I always meet my minimums. Sometimes I even try locking my credit card in my firebox before I leave the house so that I'm not tempted to spend. By and large I don't make frivolous purchases, either.
Since COVID the $5000 I had saved has dried up ($1000 of that was for a trip abroad to visit friends that I had planned on LONG before COVID, and I made that happen back in 2022). The rest has all been spent on fixing my car or taking care of unforeseen circumstances that keep arising. I also have around $1700 in cash in the firebox that I took straight out of the bank to put in physical form so that it wouldn't be as tempting to spend purchases that I otherwise would have made by just withdrawing from savings.
I used to be able to pay everything in full on each statement and go back to zero before such trying times, but with my wages stagnated at a measly $19.25/hr and rarely making more than $1000 a paycheck every two weeks, it's become incredibly depressing to see one entire check go completely to rent, and the other go to all my bills other costs of living. Anything that's left over usually goes to paying off the card, only to see it go back up near or close to the original balance I had on the statement from the month prior. So much of that is compounded by the increased expenses or autopay on aforementioned bills.
Before extreme inflation and COVID, none of these problems had ever come up.
I'm just at a loss on what to do. There's not a single day that goes by anymore where I'm not worrying about this perpetual cycle. I'd always been warned about getting stuck in these types of issues, but in my case it doesn't seem like it's interest or APR that's killing me, because it only tacks on under $100 in interest charges on monthly statements these days.
Any advice? Consolation? Suggestions?
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2023.03.27 02:58 No-Break-2034 Pain medication suggestions?
Hi Y'all
I've been having increasing issues with pain and I was wondering if there were any meds that have worked for others. I use Ibuprofen and occasionally tramadol for my Endo and Migraines, but neither does anything for my muscle and joint aches and pains. My pcp thinks I have Fibromyalgia, but it seems strange to me that the tramadol doesn't help at all, because usually tramadol works for fibro at least a bit. I have also tried a dose of gabapentin, and I know it can take a while for the full effects to kick in, but I felt no difference when I took it. Has anyone else experienced something similar and found a medication that helps them? My pain isn't that severe, but has been increasing recently and I really think I need some treatment. It's also worth noting I regularly have abnormal reactions to medications, both over and under sensitivity depending on the drug.
Thanks so much!
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2023.03.27 02:57 cstraw83 The Komainu Army is coming out of the ashes
Komainu token was launched back at the end of May and was off to a good start. That is until the community members who were running things showed their less than 100% dedication, and long story short, abandoned the project for other interests. Luckily, a handful of members stuck around. And since the liquidity and contract control was sent to VB's wallet at launch, it didn't completely rug.
After much anticipation, we are launching a 100% community-owned project, KomainuX. This token will be a tax token that gives auto reflections of Ethereum on every buy, and do a true burn from the total supply on every sell. Also the remaining portion of the taxes will go to our community multi-cig wallet which will be used heavy for marketing. We've been here this whole time and we are not messing around. This is also the perfect time to be launching right when spring is starting. We know this is almost 10 months later now, but those of us who have stuck around are working stiffs, who were not able to make crypto our full-time job. However, as for me, back in january, sold the business I was running for 7 years. Since the end of the summer, I slowly made new socials and got a new website domain, etc. We finally partnered up with a technical team that can actually do the dev side of things for launch.
Our current token will still remain part of the community brand. We have special plans to get VB's attention so that he can renounce that contract to one of us. We will then update the profile on etherscan and do a full renounce of that token and keep it zero tax. For now though, we are moving forward with pushing our brand to the next level with this next launch of our fully community owned token
Our link tree has all the links you need for our telegram, twitter, etc. You can find it here:
https://linktr.ee/KomainuGuardianship Stop by our telegram sometime and you'll see the difference from 7-10 months ago. Condescending attitudes are not tolerated, positive vibes only!
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2023.03.27 02:57 toadstl PC review request: Pre-built MSI Aegis ZS 5DS-264US
What do you think about this pre-built I just bought?
System spec.:
Case - MSI Gungnir Tower w/ ARGB Fans PSU - 550W 80+ Bronze Motherboard - MSI B550M PRO-VDH WIFI Micro ATX CPU - AMD Ryzen 5 5600X RAM - 16GB ??? (MSI) DDR4 3200MHz (2 x 8GB) 16GB Corsair Vengeance DDR4 3200MHz (2 x 8GB) GPU - AMD Radeon RX 6700 XT SSD - 500GB M.2 NVMe SSD HDD - 4TB Seagate Barracuda (5400rpm)
Monitor - Acer Nitro XV272 27" 1440p 170Hz Keyboard - MSI Clutch GM08 (incl. w/ Pre-built) Mouse - MSI VIGOR GK20 Gaming Keyboard (incl. w/ Pre-built)
Pre-built:
https://www.newegg.com/msi-aegis-zs-5ds-264us/p/N82E16883151187?Item=N82E16883151187
Monitor:
https://www.microcenter.com/product/626571/acer-nitro-xv272u-27-2k-wqhd-(2560-x-1440)-170hz-gaming-monitor-170hz-gaming-monitor)
Added RAM
https://www.microcenter.com/product/637453/corsair-vengeance-lpx-16gb-(2-x-8gb)-ddr4-3200-c16-dual-channel-desktop-memory-kit-cmk16gx4m2e3200-black-ddr4-3200-c16-dual-channel-desktop-memory-kit-cmk16gx4m2e3200-black)
HDD
https://www.microcenter.com/product/476881/seagate-barracuda-4tb-5400rpm-sata-iii-6gb-s-35-internal-hard-drive
Total cost: ~ $1,490 (= Prebuilt+Monitor+RAM+HDD)
The pre-built arrived Friday and I installed the HDD and RAM and hooked up the monitor and played with it for a couple of days installing Maya, Unreal, and a few games and other apps and just seeing how it performed.
From this I discovered it was running warm (80+ c) when gaming with high graphics settings (easy enough to adjust down). I also learned that the DP cable wasn't carrying a signal (HDMI worked fine) and that the RAM was only running at a frequency of 2133 MHz.
So, foolishly, I tried to mess with the RAM settings in the BIOS and ended up with a black screen. After confirming that I needed to reset the CMOS I had trouble finding motherboard schematics (or even figuring out exactly what motherboard was in the machine) so I called MSI and when the rep. told me that the battery I needed to unseat was under the Graphics Card (so I would need to unseat that to get to the battery) I decided to just take it to Micro Center. The guy there was able to reset the CMOS and adjust my RAM settings in the BIOS so the RAM runs at 3200 MHz (<3 to that Micro Center employee). I haven't tested much with it since then, but the signal is being carried by the DP cable now (not exactly sure how that happened) and in general so far I've been pretty happy with the machine.
About me (as is pertinent):
I'm studying game design and through the program I'm in I have access to Autodesk Maya and Adobe Substance Painter (and various other applications).
I mention it because my goal is for this PC to be able to handle having Maya and the Unreal Editor open at the same time; I want to be able to adjust model geometry and see the effect it will have on the scene in real time (or at least without the delay of application opening and closing times, so the primary source of delay is just how quickly I can correctly re-import the models and make any necessary adjustments within the scene) and also to support the creation of larger or more complex scenes/models, though working with large amounts of geometry may ultimately necessitate exclusive use of either Maya or Unreal.
I have been using
this laptop and it mostly handled Maya and Unreal alright, only running out the RAM and crashing when I was calling upon it to do legitimately hard work, but I kinda need a machine to actually do that work rather than crashing so I got this new desktop.
So, what do you think? Will it serve my purpose? Anything I should consider changing?
Thanks for reading/sharing any thoughts!
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2023.03.27 02:57 technic666 Gained weight for the first time in my life
I'm 21 years old (m) and about 5'11 in height. I used to weigh between 170-175 for a few years until last year. During the pandemic I was extremely depressed and gradually gaining weight without myself really noticing. I've developed stretch marks and I weigh about 200 pounds which is nearly 30 pounds over weight for my frame. I haven't been to the pool in ages until today and I found myself getting anxious about the stretch marks and belly fat i've gradually developed. It made me feel so ashamed and sad because i'm a good looking man but since i've gained 30 pounds it's very noticeable. I've been trying to diet, i'm walking and running but it's been harder to burn belly fat and lose pounds than I thought.
I never thought i'd gain weight in my entire life and now that I have I know exactly what it's like to be constantly self conscious of about ones body and I already have horrible social anxiety. I feel so gross and sad. I guess it's a blessing in disguise because everyone has set backs and I care more about my body than ever now. I don't ever want to feel like this again, I wish it would all go away in an instant but I know I have to grind and try. My goal is to lose 30 pounds in the next 3 months. I gotta say though, dieting is so much harder than it seems, especially when you live in a foodie city like I live in (Austin). It's been harder for me to diet than it was to quit pot after 7 years of use and alcohol...I know I can do it though, just have to stick to it and stay disciplined.
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2023.03.27 02:57 Kammex WTB Any Cheap Daily Beater Knife $50 - $100 shipped
Hey guys, I want to get into the game and start with something cheap for my daily beater.
Will have to be shipped near Toronto. I have PayPal G&S ready. Let me know what you have!
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2023.03.27 02:57 moonwalker_shamoner should i change my subliminal playlist ?
i used kapelsu’s clear skin subliminal for 2 weeks along with MOAB booster . i check the mirror from time to time and i can see some results but when i check the mirror again after a few days , i observed that there are new pimples forming when it was supposed to disappear . i just want to have a clear skin again because i had a breakout after using makeup that wasn’t hypoallergenic 😭😭😭 so because of that , i am thinking of switching to beauty krystalized’s clear skin sub after 2 weeks . should i do that or should i wait until a month before switching ? please help me . tyia !
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2023.03.27 02:57 jhaasantosh A payment gateway filed a dispute of $25000 against me for selling prescription drug online.
I tried to sell modafinil (a prescription drug) online and I signed up with xxx(payment gateway) to collect payment online. I have received three payments on the platform (all three of them no more than $150 each). But their network service provider "Visa" have informed them about the ‘unlawful sale of prescription drugs’, as such, xxx suspended my MID and filed a dispute of $25000 against me.
Please find below the part of the email to get on overview of the matter:
We would further like to highlight that You onboarded on xxx platform by representing that
You were conducting business under the category of “E-commerce”. However, to our shock and
surprise, we were informed by our network service providers “Visa” that You have deviated from the
registered category of your line of business on xxx and were conducting business of ‘unlawful
sale of prescription drugs’. Upon such findings and intimation to xxx, xxx was left with no
option but to suspend Your MID on 20.02.2023. In this regard, please refer to provisions mentioned
under the section “Suspension & Termination” of the T&Cs wherein it is clearly mentioned that:
“16.1. Notwithstanding anything to the contrary, xxx shall have the right to immediately
suspend Services and settlement of any monies or payments to You, without any liability to You, in
the event of the following:...
(b) You facilitate any transaction which is unlawful or in contravention with ‘Prohibited Products
and Services’...
(c) xxx receives instructions from Facility Providers or governmental authorities or law
enforcement agencies to either suspend the Services, or part thereof, or directs to suspend the
Services or part thereof regardless of whether there is pending investigation/enquiry into any alleged
illegal/unlawful activities.”
Your actions have not merely violated xxx terms of use but also ‘Visa Core Rules and Visa
Product and Service Rules’ (“Visa Rules”) wherein You were found liable for “The sale of controlled
substances without a valid prescription” for an amount of USD 25,000/- (INR 20,67,995.50/- Indian
Rupees Twenty Lakh Sixty Seven Thousand Nine Hundred and Ninety Five and Fifty Paise Only) as
fine for the breach of the terms of Visa Rules. In furtherance, xxx would like to categorically state
that Your actions of non-compliance of Visa Rules makes you liable to make good the payment of fine
amounting to INR 20,69,290/- (Indian Rupees Twenty Lakh Sixty Nine Thousand Two Hundred and
Ninety Only) as agreed by You by subscribing to the Online T&Cs.
I realised it was a big mistake and I am really stressed out right now. Please help!
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2023.03.27 02:56 Zenandchaos87 Dry needling issue.
35 Female 158lbs 5’2”, non-smoker, non-drinker, use D8 for sleep
I have chronic epicondylitis, going on 5 years. I have had steroid shots, prolotherapy, Tenex, now in physical therapy because I cannot seem to shake this. I had dry needling done two weeks ago in my forearm, this was the second time, the first time worked so well! This time I haven’t had much relief and my doctor hit a nerve in my arm while needling. I alerted him to the pain and he moved the needle but did not seem concerned. When I run my hand over the muscle he dry needled, I still feel the same sensation (slightly less intense) I felt when he hit the nerve, like a tiny jolt of electricity that goes down my arm and into my wrist. Should I be worried that this did long-term damage?
-As a side note; unfortunately, I’m a cake decorator (For 15 years) who is actively in search of another job and I’m about 20 applications in, no one ever calls me. Who knew you had to have 9000 years of experience to be a receptionist 🙄 Not to downplay anyone’s work, but I truly find that it is very difficult to teach someone to cake decorate (especially if they don’t want to learn) and it just doesn’t strike me as that difficult to be a receptionist. Maybe I’m wrong? I have years of customer service experience, including management, and I can’t even get a chance at an interview. It’s so frustrating working a job that is causing me physical pain and I can’t seem to break out of it. I’m 35, live with my SO and have a mortgage and car payment, etc, so taking a pay cut is impossible. What’s a person to do?
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2023.03.27 02:56 maxwell737 Getting Started: Signing up and using GPT explained by GPT
Prompt: Write a tutorial on how to start using GPT for entertainment purposes, include some potential prompts and a link to openai where people can access the free public version of you, so people know how to get to you.
Response: Title: Getting Started with GPT for Entertainment: A Beginner's Guide
Welcome to this tutorial on using GPT for entertainment purposes! In this guide, we'll help you get started with GPT, provide some potential prompts for inspiration, and show you how to access the free public version of GPT.
Accessing GPT To begin, you can access the free public version of GPT by visiting the OpenAI:
https://openai.com/blog/chatgpt The OpenAI allows you to interact with GPT and experiment with different prompts for entertainment or any other purpose.
Understanding Prompts A prompt is a text input that you provide to GPT, which it will then use to generate a contextually relevant and creative response. You can use prompts for various entertainment purposes like generating jokes, stories, riddles, and more.
Potential Prompts for Entertainment Here are some example prompts to get your creativity flowing:
a) Jokes:
"Tell me a funny joke about computers." "What's a hilarious joke involving a pirate and a parrot?" b) Stories:
"Write a short story about a time-traveling detective." "Create a fantasy tale involving a dragon and a courageous knight." c) Riddles:
"Give me a challenging riddle about a mysterious object." "What's a clever riddle involving a king and his kingdom?" d) Conversations:
"Write a witty dialogue between a robot and a talking cat." "Imagine an absurd conversation between an alien and a superhero." e) Poetry:
"Compose a lighthearted poem about a day at the beach." "Write a humorous haiku about pizza." Remember, you can customize these prompts according to your interests and preferences to generate unique and entertaining content.
Using GPT in OpenAI Now that you have some prompts in mind, let's go through the steps to use GPT in the OpenAI Playground:
a) Visit
https://openai.com/blog/chatgpt and sign up or log in to your account.
b) In the text input field, type or paste your chosen prompt.
c) Click the "Generate" button and wait for GPT to process your prompt and return a response.
d) Enjoy the entertaining content generated by GPT!
Feel free to experiment with different prompts and settings to discover the full potential of GPT for entertainment purposes. Happy playing!
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2023.03.27 02:55 nayboyer2 The OTC Conspiracy - The Final Chapter? Presenting 135 weeks of GME OTC and ATS data, in pictures, including a pre-split / post-split analysis, some intriguing subplots (Citadel and Virtu, Robinhood and Drivewealth, Credit Suisse, UBS and the banks), and some forward-looking statements!
| I'm not much for long intros or shout outs to all the OG bros Just a simple ape who likes to rhyme, and keep tabs on all the financial crime Citadel, Virtu, Jane Street and G1, gonna send this rocket into the Sun So without further ado, here's some data, swing back through and thank me lata! My wife said she would leave with her boyfriend if I make one more graph... We've come a long way from FINRA ADF to Missing Bananas, OTC Conspiracy and the Infinite Banana Tree, to today. I've learned a lot through this journey and I hope you have too! OTC and ATS data - OTC trades are internalized retail trades, payment for order flow, odd lots (i.e. I purchase 10 shares through "Insert retail broker", which gets routed to Citadel, Virtu, G1 Execution (Sus), Jane Street, and doesn't impact the NBBO.
- ATS trades are dark pool trades
Here's a nice video by Dave on Off-Exchange vs. On-Exchange trading: https://learn.urvin.finance/content/on-exchange-vs-off-exchange-trading The Data: All information is taken directly from FINRA OTC Transparency website: https://otctransparency.finra.org/otctransparency/OtcIssueData Please refer to The Cooks Keep Cooking the Books series for additional information and details on Robinhood and Dirvewealth LLC 'adjusting' their reported OTC trades 8-12 months after they supposedly occurred: Volume 1 - Robinhood Volume 2 - Robinhood does it again Volume 3 - Robinhood and Drivewealth Volume 4 - Featuring Drivewealth LLC adding 3 million OTC trades See some of my previous OTC write-ups for additional context and explanation: 119 Week OTC Update 100 Week OTC Update 21 Month OTC Update 69 Week OTC Update This latest data represents 135 weeks (over 2.5 years). I started with August 2020, which is when RC bought in, but as we've all learned, the story starts even earlier. This data is especially important given the proposed SEC rule changes. Send in your comment letter! Citadel wants you to do Nothing Weekly GME OTC Shares traded This shows the total weekly shares traded OTC by Citadel, Virtu, G1 Execution, Two Sigma, UBS, Drivewealth, and Robinhood (and others) over the counter (OTC), as internalized trades from retail across 135 weeks. - The data ranges from 8/3/2020 - 3/3/2023
- The data is delayed by 2 weeks, so we will have the data from Week of 3/6 - 3/10 on Monday (3/27)
GME OTC shares 8/3/2020 - 3/3/2023 Weekly OTC Trades GME OTC trades 8/3/2020 - 3/3/2023 Weekly OTC Shares/Trades GME OTC shares/trade 8/3/2020 - 3/3/2023 So as not to weigh down this post, please see my previous posts for some in-depth analysis on this nefarious OTC trading activity. Besides an overall decrease in the OTC trades (which may reflect the change in share price after the split), we see increase in shares/trade has increased, and cyclical increases in volume. We'll dig deeper into the data further down. Weekly Range (split-adjusted) As you can see, we've had a lot of volatile weeks in terms of share price, but last week's adjusted Range of $43.00 doesn't really align with the significant increase in volume SHiTeR Score If we multiply OTC Shares * Trades * Range, we get a value that helps normalize the amount of OTC trading and weekly price volatility. The Range is adjusted for the split (closing price *4). Helps detect crime Who is responsible for all these shares and all these trades? https://preview.redd.it/9w197tz2gypa1.png?width=3385&format=png&auto=webp&s=07506782d31489591c8bfbc3e0bf225a69cb93b9 Let's compare pre-split distribution to post-split distribution for shares: https://preview.redd.it/84k5bsjanxpa1.png?width=3461&format=png&auto=webp&s=4ed763e23c20b519724cc4f2925c5c90b8e76008 Here, we can see: - A decrease in OTC market share for Citadel (from around 40% pre-split to 33% post-split)
- A slight decrease in market share for Virtu (from around 31% pre-split to 27.5% post-split)
- An increase in OTC market share by Jane Street (from 4% pre-split to just under 10% post-split). This is accentuated in the Shares*Trades (SHiT score), where they have increased from 1% to 6% post-split
- A decrease in market share for Two Sigma and UBS
- A significant increase in market share for De Minimis Firms (from less than 3% pre-split to almost 9% post-split)
- I'll try to add more later! What are your conclusions?
https://preview.redd.it/qoe6vfhf26qa1.png?width=5446&format=png&auto=webp&s=4d3791a06f2c8a34013e2218c0db663b0e2fd8c4 The biggest shift here is the decrease in OTC trading share by Robinhood, from over 16% pre-split to less than 6% post-split. GME OTC Leaderboard https://preview.redd.it/3azr3dusd3qa1.png?width=1237&format=png&auto=webp&s=426c9ff62dd390ca04b4f2fdd22ff7b960f87a60 ATS (Dark Pool) Trading https://preview.redd.it/5vujbwq0s4qa1.png?width=4107&format=png&auto=webp&s=bb375d999305836cf22058cc88084c959dca455e ATS Participants https://preview.redd.it/0nf4xznuw5qa1.png?width=3050&format=png&auto=webp&s=458805e224a6cb305b7ebfa0134bebfffd8fee9d This data includes the Top 12 ATS dark pools based on volume (although volume fluctuates week-to-week). The sample represents 87.46% of all ATS shares traded pre-split and 85.21% of shares traded post-split. When we compare pre-split and post-split distribution, we can see that: - USB's (UBSA) ATS market share has declined, from 20-30% pre-split (and an average of 25% of the ATS participants listed) to around 15% (17% of the ATS participants listed.
- Interactive Brokers (IATS) ATS market share has also declined from around 20% pre-split (22% of sample) to 13% post-split (15% of sample)
- Credit Suisse (CROS) has actually increased their ATS market share from around 7.5% to over 10% (12% of sample)
- Two Sigma (SGMT), Virtu (KCGM), and Fidelity (XSTM) have dark pools and are also OTC participants (convenient)
- JP Morgan has seen decreased market share, as has CODA (Apex)
- INCR has a significantly increased ATS market share since the split, from around 2% pre-split to around 12% post-split
- See ATS Raw Data at the end for additional highlights
- I'll try to add some additional analysis in a bit. The post took awhile to put together and I wanted to get it up (AMIRITE)
Short Volume Data The confusing part about this chart is that it's backwards from all the previous ones in that the dates go from present to past instead of past to present. I'm too smooth to figure it out, so just know that the data goes chronologically from right to left, with last week's data on the left. https://preview.redd.it/ry82y44jixpa1.png?width=2170&format=png&auto=webp&s=e15e9d21e515de2f7725dba0fe136e861681a58f Here's a better view across the same time period, from Chart Exchange 35,228,438 in short volume reported on 3/22, including 19.7 million off-exchange (OTC) So what happened last week? https://preview.redd.it/2spnshhv84qa1.png?width=1696&format=png&auto=webp&s=c239af6989e888716af5f81d9701699f9af5184f Whether the volume was due to delayed settling of all those shitty January 2023 Puts that were purchased on 1/27/21 (8 weeks / 40 something trading days / just under 60 calendar days), ETF rebalancing, killer earnings, or just finally an excuse to cover some shorts, it really doesn't matter. We traded 107,048,698 shares last week, including 66,764,648 on 3/22 alone. They reported over 35 million in short volume on 3/22 alone, representing 63.86% short volume. over 19.7 million was sent to FINRA ADF (OTC). All it does is reaffirm that the price of GME is determined by the same group of OTC participants. OTC Raw Weekly Data: Total OTC trading, Citadel Securities, Virtu, G1 Execution, Jane Street https://preview.redd.it/44w7vzk5j4qa1.png?width=1773&format=png&auto=webp&s=c515f917d3691bcba5ca587ed80099216684e8c4 Two Sigma, Weekly volume, %OTC, Weekly Change and Range, ATS, Robinhood Securities, Drivewealth LLC https://preview.redd.it/dm9050p7j4qa1.png?width=1875&format=png&auto=webp&s=a8182ce09d1b38b9a12c8743a40cce2ce4528cff De Minimis Firms, Comhar Capital, UBS, Drivewealth Institutional, Interactive Brokers, National Financial Services (NFS) https://preview.redd.it/kob0oj59j4qa1.png?width=1867&format=png&auto=webp&s=850bd299359a5f67a557debe15320ff9be0026d2 Comhar Capital meanwhile has been dipping in and out of the OTC like a Sybian. They show up when liquidity is needed, and are AWOL across the rest of the weeks. They first showed up in my dataset in 8/31/2020 when RC submitted his 8K. They were active during the high volume trading of 10/5 and 10/12/2020, before taking a hiatus until 12/21/2020. From 1/11/2021 - 7/5/2021, they were active in the OTC for 22 of 24 weeks (91.66%). They came back for the rally during the week of August 23, 2021, but were gone until 12/13/2021. They were active on 1/3/2022 and 1/17/2022, before taking another hiatus until they rally in March 2022 (3/21/22 and 3/28/22). They came back again in May 2022 for another rally and were gone again until after the split 8/8/22 and 8/15/22. They came back again for the high volume trading during the week of 10/31/2022. They've only been present for 3 weeks of OTC trading since the split, but I would be willing to bet we'll see them active again during last week's frenzy. Interactive Brokers stepped in for 5 straight weeks from 4/4/2022 through 5/6/2022 after previously being absent since the week of 3/8/2021 (the week of the big dipper). That's also the last week Wolverine participated in the GME OTC. They made a one week guest appearance on 1/16/2023, but haven't been back since. OTC Raw Monthly Data: https://preview.redd.it/k8829nayv5qa1.png?width=1889&format=png&auto=webp&s=f57f28bd3247a2a503c428340f1f47cbf39664c6 ATS Raw Weekly Data: https://preview.redd.it/lmsfefqbo4qa1.png?width=1876&format=png&auto=webp&s=d6500ec6555c3b807ca5c16249614683229a793f TLDR: - This is a lot of data, help me with interpreting it!
- Off exchange trading continues to be a significant problem for our beloved GME.
- 6,114,057,479 shares have been traded in the 135 weeks of data analyzed in this post
- 2,388,977,859 shares have been traded OTC (39.07%), in 44,925,888 trades.
- Another 444,739,974 shares have been traded in ATS dark pools.
- If we want to see positive change to our markets, we need to make our voices heard.
- First and foremost, send in a Comment Letter to the SEC regarding their rule changes. Here's a Link to Dave's Post on Ending Excessive Off-Exchange Trading and how to submit a Comment Letter to have your voice heard. The deadline to submit a comment letter is TOMORROW, March 27, 2023! Do it tonight!
- Second, if you are using a broker listed above, especially Drivewealth, Robinhood (bless your heart), Fidelity, Interactive Brokers, please ensure that your shares are held in a Cash account and not on Margin where they can be lent out.
- Ortex data shows that 92.48 million shares of GME are currently on loan, and takes over 20 days to cover those shares on loan. Almost 35% of the freefloat is on loan. Utilization has been 100% for 166 days. XRT short interest is 280% of the float.
- Please consider HODLING at least some of your shares in Computershare if you aren't already, where they are directly registered under your name, and these OTC participants can't use them against you. Brick by brick.
- And lastly, continue to shop at GameStop and keep this positive momentum going as we strive for full-year profitability!
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2023.03.27 02:55 IndecisiveTurtle- am i stupid to take my ex-boss’ behaviour personally?
I joined a job in December 2021. My boss at that time was the best manager I have ever had. We would talk about things like our hobbies, what we did over the weekend and she would be really open about it. She also invited me to vacations with another team ( I could not join as I had to take leaves a week after that and I could not afford the itinerary they were going for).
Anyways, the working environment wasn’t always ideal but we would still sit together weekly and try to navigate through stuff to make it better. She would also make plans to improve things in the future (tho her plans were delayed by the management).
Anyways, after a few months, she abruptly calls me one day to let me know she is moving to another team. I understand it was her decision and her career and no one owes anyone anything in the corporate world.
As she transitions to this new role, a lot of work gets dumped onto me. I communicate it to my new boss time to time that it is becoming unmanageable.
Now, she messages me over slack after every few weeks randomly, yet would abruptly stop replying altogether. She would ask me how am I doing yet won’t be as open as I am or would stop replying altogether.
Am I stupid to take this personally? I am thinking of switching up to her as well. It sucks because I really used to look up to her and turns out it was just her being a manager and could not give two shits. Lol.
Idk if this is relevant but I am a guy and she is a woman over 6-7 years older than me.
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2023.03.27 02:55 mwidjaja1 How bad is Ryan Homes anyway?
The internet is pretty loud and clear, Ryan Homes isn't the greatest builder (and that would be putting it mildly based on what other folks have said) in terms of building durable and reliable housing. The problem I'm facing though is how bad are they anyway?
With the budget and in the neighborhood(s) I'm interested in, if I don't pick Ryan Homes, I would be picking a used house built in the 60s-80s. I am unfortunately neighborhood locked because I'm taking care of folks with special needs and it's important for them to stay in certain areas to get the care they need.
I could splurge in an extra 50-100k to get a newer and seemingly more well maintained used home. But I can't help but think, this seems like a lot of money to run away from Ryan Homes, towards a home that won't necessarily have its own defects either.
So my question is: Ryan Homes is bad, I know that. But is it so bad that I'm better off buying a substantially older home (that may not be perfect either) versus getting people on my side to monitor my Ryan Home construction and advocate for me?
Thanks!
(and thanks to this lovely lovely housing market🫠)
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2023.03.27 02:55 TheCrowWhispererX Remote jobs turning into On-site jobs
Twice now I’ve gotten right up to the final stage of interviewing (multiple interviews, flying me out for in-person interviews, glowing feedback, recruiters telling me an offer is likely imminent) only to have employers suddenly change a remote position to an on-site position. One was pre-pandemic and the other just happened. I’ve been fully remote for nearly a decade, and remote roles are not uncommon in my field, so this isn’t limited to any Covid trends. I think this has just been terrible luck, but I wish there was a way to suss this kind of thing out before pouring so much of my limited time into a job opportunity.
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2023.03.27 02:55 Icy-Kick4085 The last couple years have been ROUGH
I've been through . A marriage breakup , not by choice. . Him getting with someone else less than a week later, despite living with me for a further 9 months after our split. . Him making me entirely to blame, in the eyes of our kids, whilst they see him as perfect. . Several suicide attempts last year, wrong meds. Being an idiot. Thinking everyone was better without me here. . An ill fated dating attempt with an alcoholic for six long months . Being raped last November, mostly due to my own innocence and stupidity . Health scares this year, still ongoing . Being thrilled I finally got into uni st my advance age, then having to withdraw a few months later due to again bring an idiot and thinking I could do it all . Being put in last chance at work due to burnout . Wondering if boss is suddenly going to sack us all as he's been in south africa this week training new staff . Having to sell nearly everything of any value due to cost of living crisis I have no parents, no friends that aren't just work friends due to not working through marriage. Feel utterly alone and like I just have stopped coping.
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2023.03.27 02:54 melancholy_town How do I deal with being newly disabled and dealing with AP’s?
So I have long COVID (for the past ~8 months) and a lot has changed in the past month.
Before this, I lived in my own condo and had an arrangement with parents who live 45mins away where they’d bring me food and drive me to appointments.
Because of my disability, I can’t really drive far or do long tasks like cooking and grocery shopping anymore with chronic fatigue and post exertional malaise. Like I can over-exert myself and try to do these things for myself but I might incapacitate myself for 1-3 days afterwards where I’d be in bed with all my muscles feeling like jelly.
For context, my mom abused me sexually, verbally, and emotionally, but my sister LOVES our parents and has moved back in.
Onto the changes in the past month. My grandma was found to be terminally ill and I came back to my parents’ place to see her. Like my parents drove me back to live at their place while grandma was having her last days. I won’t lie I didn’t really know my grandma well but figured I’d see her one last time and stuff.
Now that this has all blown over, I’m being held captive here and they won’t drive me back or go back to the previous arrangement anymore and sister is endorsing this, telling them to stop driving and cooking for me if I go back to my condo. So now I’m paying the bills for an empty condo I can’t use and my mental health has not been good since being here with parents for the past month.
Relatives are saying I should just rent out my condo and stay with my parents forever. I don’t want to. I love my condo and the privacy, freedom, and relaxation it gives me. It was my safe space and now I’m constantly getting jump scared awake by people who don’t understand insomnia in the name of “saving face” to people who literally don’t exist because “it looks bad to sleep in so late” which isn’t helping my recovery along with all the stress of being around them and I think I’m going insane.
Should I just KMS lol? Like, I feel useless and because I don’t LOOK disabled, people don’t believe me. Like, what do I even do with this life? I can’t hold down a job anymore bc of the neurological damage and I’m just running down my life savings living an unhappy life with family (especially sister) calling me ungrateful. I have about a year before my mortgage renews and I run out of liquid savings.
I have no friends who could help with the disability stuff so I’m SOL. Is there anything I can say like an excuse I can make to go back to the old arrangement or do I just resign myself to being miserable for the rest of my life until I KMS?
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