Howdy there!
I never know how to start these things, so I reckon I'll just get right into it! I imagine this might be a smidge of a lengthy post, but hey, I want you to have a good idea of who you're reachin out to!
I'm Nate! As I mentioned in the title, I'm 29, 6'1, vvvv bearded, really quite tattooed, and just a wee bit pierced. An "alt-nerd" if you will. Here's some [photos](https://imgur.com/a/iSMpb1u) to help with the visual :)
Overall I'm just a occasionally shy & quiet nerd. I like hanging out, playing games, and watching movies/ TV shows. I've never been much of a guy for goin' out on the town, very much prefer being a home body. That being said, I do love driving, and love taking roundtrips (when work allows). Lately I've been binging the walking dead, and beating up demons in diablo 4 which has been a super fun vibe.
Hobby-wise, I really enjoy art. I cant draw, unfortunately a stick figure is out of my ability even, but I can 3D model! It took a lot-lot of practice, but I've become quite decent at it, and hopefully will just become better as I go. I really want to start practicing to become a character artist, one of these days. I also build Warhammer mini's and will occasionally get to play tabletop Warhammer with my brother, though it's a bit of a trip so I dont get to do it super often these days.
Work-wise, I work from home! Infact, if you recall my mention of 3D, I'm actually a 3D artist at a game studio! Honestly, It was a dream job for me, and while I don't love the company I'm with, I'm beyond proud to have made it into the industry and I don't think I could be happier anywhere else.
There's always the "What kind of music do ya listen to 👀" question, and lemmie fill ya in! So I dont typically listen to music while home, truth be told. Mostly because of all the TV/Movie watchin. I typically leave that for driving. However, taste-wise I'm kind of all over the place. I enjoy some viking-metal, Alternative, punk, bit of pop. Indie is probably my favorite genre these days, though. I've been listening to a lot of "rare Americans" in particular. I'm also a big fan of podcasts (mostly, The last podcast on the left!).
Personal life wise, I suppose I'm a bit lonely. I have friends that I might see every once in awhile, though we tend to stick to discord/gaming. I have my own house, though I live a decent bit from a ton of civilization. My bestie is probably my cat these days, honestly. He's a pretty solid bean.
I do spend a decent amount of time on social media (mostly twitter, these days), and I have some friends in that area if you want to call them that. I really mostly use it for shit posting/ and for art/job specific stuff. As much as I dislike twitter, It's honestly a great resource in the games industry so it's a bit of a necessary evil.
I suppose this is around when I bring it to a close. If you're still reading, then omg thank you! I reckon you're wondering "Whats this bearded dude lookin for", and well I suppose I'm lookin for what we're all lookin for. A bit of companionship, a best friend? Maybe someone to spend the rest of our years with. Those are kind of big hope though, arnt they. Currently, I just want to meet someone that we can grow organically with. I'm very much a "start as friends" kind of guy. So lets watch some stuff together, maybe play some games, and get to know each other :)
Toss me a message if I sound at all interesting to ya! Please please please, tell me a smidge about yourself in the message, and feel free to send a picture too, though it's not required by any means!
Thanks for readin :) Good luck out there!

I hope this is the right place to ask. I want to open up a Fiverr for Realistic Acrylic Portraits and have people commission me with their personal photos. However, I want to provide examples of acrylic portraits so people can see my style, and I was considering painting deceased celebrities like Leonardo Da Vinci or a U.S president. I wouldn't be selling them (I heard that it might be legal to do so if the deceased has been so for over 100 years, but I'm not interested at the moment to do so, so that could be a different question later on), but it would still be used to gain customers. Would this be legal then? I hope this makes sense, and thank you for any responses in advance^{^}

If you're a person, there's a 99.99% chance I'm not right for you. Consider skipping to the bullet points below before going through the wall of text.

Introduction

I have zero girlfriends and I would like to increase that number to one. I have absolutely zero reason to believe this will work, but I don't need to believe, I just need to make the post. Sometimes in life, if you want to see change, you try to bring change, whether there is hope or not.
The term "hopeless romantic" is a bit overused, but I do overly romanticize the idea of a relationship. The problem is, my expectations are unrealistic. To be clear, this is one of the most significant reasons I'm single. I'm literally one of those idiots with a list of checkboxes to tick and seemingly there isn't a person on Earth who ticks all of them. This is my little personal Fermi paradox - could I really be truly alone in a world of ~8 billion humans?
In a way, we're all alone in our minds. But I still feel like if I met the right person, we could understand each other on a deeper level. A level of understanding we just don't have with anyone else. It's this connection I seek. I'd rather have one relationship with a person I'd be happy to live and die with, than a hundred hedonistic flings.
I don't believe in soulmates just because I don't believe in supernatural stuff in general. And if I did, I'd feel wrong calling myself just half a soul. But the term exists because people who invented it had relationships that made them subjectively experience a connection that's special. One day, I hope to have that in my life as well. And considering how my odds are so low that I might as well call it magic if I succeed, my search for a high compatibility partner is similar to a search for a soulmate.
Sometimes I wonder. By the year 2100, I almost certainly will have either given up, died alone, or found someone and died not alone. It'd be nice to know the outcome, but maybe it's even better to see it happen.
This post is not trying to talk you into contacting me. It's just information about me so you can decide that for yourself. If you're not convinced, then I don't deserve to have you, simple as that.

Compatibility

• I'm looking for someone with traits and opinions similar to mine. After all, you don't have to make a compromise if you don't disagree in the first place! Of course some disagreement is welcome, fun even, but too much of it and there's not much of a reason to stay together. So be your own unique self, and see how many of my bullet points apply to you.
  
• I would also hope that you also know what kind of person you're looking for and you have reason to believe I might be suitable.
  
• Please do not play the favorites game (i.e. namedrop bands, movies, etc.) early on. Yes, I think Skyrim is great and Kimi No Na Wa is the best movie ever, but your taste in music doesn't tell me anything about how our daily interactions will go.
  
• I don't think MBTI or Enneagram are super accurate, but they're useful for giving a quick idea about my personality. "INTP 8w7" says more about me than "I like Italian food".
  
• This also means I care more about personality than looks. Obviously I have visual preferences, and so do you, but the personality barrier is hard enough to get over.
  
• I used to find the phrase "like someone for their flaws" dumb. But some things that society considers "flaws" could be exact thing someone special likes about you. I have lots of flaws like that.
  
• Similarly, you might have "flaws" I could find really attractive. In the end, dating is just a game where you try to find people with the same mental disorders.
  
• Age-wise all I care about is that we're in similar stages of our lives. Be old enough that your parents no longer have authority over you, but young enough to climb a tree.
  
• Location doesn't matter to me. I'm looking for online at first. I'm willing to relocate or travel together in the long term.
  

About me

• I'm an INTP. It's a nerdy, funny, not very emotional type. More chaotic than organized.
  
• I'm a 8w7, which is a bit unusual for an introvert. I'm more confident, a bit more adventurous (if words like that mean anything in dating bios). I can be assertive, but I don't like to boss others around. Basically, I still rehearse my lines before I order a pizza on the phone, but I actually end up making the call.
  
• I'm heavily introverted. A confident introvert might look like this. I don't like large crowds and prefer smaller groups. As in, groups of 1 to 2.
  
• Though I don't entirely follow any one philosophy, I like Stoicism and can be seen as stoic myself. I'm in control of my own emotions, and I'm still surprised how many adults are not.
  
• On a D&D alignment chart, I'd be a Chaotic Neutral. I highly value personal freedom, which is why I'm not committing myself to good nor evil.
  
• I'm an atheist. Yes, technically an agnostic, as most sensible atheists are, but I find that people who call themselves agnostic do so because they're uncomfortable with the more divisive label.
  
• I'm frugal, I like minimalism, and I'm interested in Financial Independence, Retire Early (FIRE).
  
• In my free time I like to immerse myself in the fictional worlds of anime and video games, because fantasy is often more interesting than reality. I also like being outside, hiking in nature.
  
• I'm 99% sure I want a childfree life. If I ever change my mind, it won't be anytime soon.
  
• I am exactly 1cm shorter than you.
  
• White skin, dark hair, about average weight.
  
• I'm a demisexual.
  
• Love languages are quality time first and physical touch second.
  

Dealbreakers

These are things I'm just not into. Nothing wrong with them, but they are not traits I'm looking for in a partner. Opposites do not attract in this case. Please don't message if they apply to you.

• Religious people.
• Extroverts, "social butterflies".
• Piercings, tattoos.
• Drug addictions, cigarettes, excessive drinking (drinking in moderation is fine).

Contacting me

Please send me a reddit DM (envelope icon), not a reddit chat (speech bubble icon) because I notice DMs way quicker.
It'd be best if you wrote a short introduction, but I'll respond even to a "hi". I also have a little conversational game prepared if you're into that.
Please include the 27th prime number in your message.
As long as this post is up, I'm looking to find you, even if it's years old.

On May 1st, I woke up and found that the dining room of my apartment had a hole in the ceiling. Appeared to be from storms and a roof leak, many personal items were covered in debris but fortunately, no damage other than a 2'x3' hole in the ceiling. Sent in a work order and went by the office. When I came home, the debris was cleared by the workers and I was just waiting for a board or a patch to temp fix the hole or a permanent fix.
A day later, I had a work order on my door saying I didn’t answer, so I informed the office that they had permission to enter to fix(the work order said the same but they either misread or skipped that line).
After a week of no fixes or contact, I sent in another work order attaching photos as well.
The next week I went back to the office and was told they’ll get someone one it.
The next week I called emergency maintenance and they said to go to the office.
The next week I went back by the office.
It’s now been nearly 6 weeks. I don’t know what to do. I didn’t want to leave as the apartment overall has been great and is close to work and recreation I do. But I cannot even get someone to call me back. I sent another work order in but the office is already closed. My apartment is 85 degrees with the air running on full because it’s been zapped out of the gaping hole that leads to the roof(2nd/top floor is me)
I’ve been stressing on the work orders and voicemails that my apartment is not secure. I do not have a domicile providing me protection from the elements or animals, as the hole leads to the roof that may or may not still have a hole in that was leaking.
I have no damages to my property but next months energy bill is going to be insane.
Any advice on what to say, how to say it, what to do would be helpful. Many things on this vary lease to lease, but my lease is with a large apartment complex of over 100 Units.
I’m just at my wits end. I don’t want to say I’m crying over the stress but with how high electric costs already are, I don’t know if I’ll be able to afford it next month.

I just want to start out by saying I know that everything I’m about to explain is unhealthy, I know that there’s no good that could come from it either. But I need to get it off my chest and maybe see if anyone has had a similar experience.
I am a 25 year old female, my boyfriend of 10 months is 27. We are very much in love and he is by far the most genuine, amazing person I’ve ever dated. Truly he is everything I could want in a partner. A few months back I was looking for something in his closet, he was away at work, and I stumbled upon old letters and pictures. These letters were love letters he had written to his ex a few years ago. They dated from 2017-2020, went to college together and lived in LA together. I won’t go into too many details but my boyfriend had a bad problem with alcohol and drugs at the time (he is now 3 years sober) but this caused his ex to kick him out and he ended up in the state I am from for rehab. I won’t say where but it’s a poor state with not much to offer, I was born and raised here, even stayed for college. Anyways, I found myself reading these letters and I couldn’t stop. They were heartbreaking. Just so beautifully written and I couldn’t imagine how you could write these things to someone and not be with them anymore. I also discovered that she was breathtakingly beautiful from the photos, model material really. I ended up finding her social media which is public and wow. She is not only pretty, but successful and smart as well. Truly a huge blow to my self esteem. This was months ago and I still find myself thinking about the letters and looking at her IG page. Just imagining how amazing their life was in LA. Obviously I know he had a lot of issues then but I know they were still very in love and he was good at hiding all his addictions until the end.
I wonder constantly if he misses the big city life and thinks about what his future with her could have been if he had gotten sober there when she asked him too. He chose to stay in my state because he prefers the smaller towns and slower way of life and she is now a big NYC writer who prefers that lifestyle.
I just feel so inadequate compared to her. I can’t understand how living in this state with much less to offer is more appealing to him than his old life. Most of his friends live in either LA or NYC too so he’s also giving that up to be here and tells me all the time this is where he plans to stay. He has no idea I’ve seen the letters and pictures and has only talked to me about her when telling his story of addiction and how she saved his life by sending him away from LA. When I’ve asked why he didn’t return to her when he finally got sober he said they just wanted different things by then.
I’m sorry I know this is long and drawn out but I think about it so much. I often wonder if she showed up on his doorstep willing to move here and be with him, what he would say…

I feel a bit stupid but does anyone have photos of makeup (lipstick/blush/eyeshadow) pulling orange on them? And photos of colours that they find more flattering? I’ve been told I’m a cool olive and other than obviously bad foundation matches I don’t really get what people mean when they say a colour is pulling orange? It is always implied as a bad thing. I find that blues/greens/purple eyeshadow always end up very grey on me but have been told I’m a cool olive. Could I be warm instead?

So I (M23) caught my girlfriend (F21) cheating, my girlfriend gave me use of her phone back in September of last year when a notification popped up and it was a guy sending her flirty messages I then quickly found out that she had been sending sexual photos and stringing men along for a few months, she had been doing this for four months into our relationship, and during our third month I had gone away for a four week vacation, so I confronted her and she admitted it back in September, and she admitted to cheating on me physically with another man very early on roughly a week or two into us being together, so I asked her to come clean about anything else she may have done and she said that was all and there was nothing else. All she mentioned was she was going to cheat on me while i was away on vacation but once she got in the car she realized she couldn’t hurt me like that so she didnt go through with it. So I moved on from it and accepted what happened as it was very early in the relationship and it did not occur ever again and I was given complete access to her phone and social media’s, fast forward just last week I had an unsettling feeling that when I was gone she probably did do something so after asking her again if in June of last year she had gone to see that guy she kept on saying no until she finally admitted she had gone through with it but decided not to admit to back then in September out of fear that i’d leave her.
She has not cheated since then to my knowledge, i’m conflicted because on one hand i love her and no woman has ever treated me as good as she does despite her infidelity mistake, but i also feel upset and hurt and that i deserve someone who would have valued me enough from the beginning to not do that.
I have poured myself into this woman, gone above and beyond in every way, strived to be the ideal person for her, only to be met with being cheated on. I feel disgusting, I feel worthless, and above all I feel unlovable and I was someone who was sexually confident and very comfortable with my sexuality, but now I feel unfuckable. What do I do, I feel like i’m going insane.

I was wondering if this is a good deal for my first set of nvgs??

So obviously first up on the list according to encyclopedia dramatica is Alexander Jahans; aka Alexander Gordon Jahans; aka Gordon Jones, aka the Farsh-nuke, aka Alasdair Jakes.
Please note that all the links to his public accounts are going to be linked in the end in a google doc.
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Youtube: Alasdair Jakes - farshnuke
Notes: channel has no content outside of one video titled "The channel is ended. Stop stalking me"
6.6k views and 1.91k subscribers.
Last video is from July 26th, 2020.
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Twitter: Alexander Jahans - alex_jahans
Notes: Joined December 2016 - 23 Following - 12 Followers
Last post: January 4th, 2018
Last reply to someone: May 16th, 2018
Unsure if this is actually him but feels like a pretty decent chance it is.
“@bluntdesu
man i just want to rub my balls all over that northern chin of yours”
His account is full of wild tweets.
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Instagram: Alexander Gordon Jahans - alexanderjahans
Notes: 145 posts, 68 followers, following 74 people.
Last post 187 weeks ago.
Mostly food, a few selfies.
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Linkedin: Alexander Jahans
Green Productions
Jones high school
“By bullet or by ballot I will defeat UKIP”
Experience: Autistic Political Activist - Green Productions - “idk dicking around”
Alexander Gordon Jahans - YouTube - “idk”
Education: Jones high school - Standard - “How to doo doo on niggas and shit”
Notes: I am unsure if this is actually him but It was still pretty funny and I wanted to include it anyway.
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Soundcloud: Alex Jahans
Notes: 9 followers, following 10 people.
Last active 8 years ago.
He only has two tracks uploaded, both over an hour long. I will give my thoughts on them in another post in case anyone is interested.
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Facebook: Alexander Gordon Jahans
Joined august 2007
Birthday: June 20th, 1992
Other names: Gordon Jones - Alasdair Jakes
Single
Notes: His facebook is pretty much on total lockdown, I can't see anyone on his friends list.
Updated his profile photo on August 15th, 2021. I think this might be his most recent online activity.
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Stage32: Alexander Gordon Jahans
“Screenwriter, Sound Editor, Voice Artist and Author - Woking, United Kingdom”
Member Since: February 2012
Last online: > 2 weeks ago
“Alex is a Creative Writing and Film studies student, working part time on 6 series across youtube and deviantart, from vlogs and reviews to scifi and soap. He also volunteers as a writer, presenter and editor on WCRFM.”
“Adapting my web series scripts to a series of short novels. The space opera novel series I really want to write needs that web series to provide readers with valuable knowledge so they aren't utterly confused by the novel.”
Notes: Last post was made 9 years ago.
George Rodrigues wrote on his wall saying “Thanks for the connection Gordon!” - I am unsure what this is? What possible connection could Alexander have given George?
I have also found his resume on this website, I will not be posting it since it does contain sensitive information but I have saved it to my device just in case I need it for future reference.
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Deviant Art: farsh-nuke
“Nothing is ever easy!”
“Writer of weird fiction”
37 Watchers - 0 Deviations - 39.9K Pageviews (wtf?) comments made 3.7k - Received 174
Notes: Last post was November 7th, 2014.
He has so so many posts, I’ve linked them above.
I glanced through the comments but didn't see anything very interesting.
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Blogspot: Alex’s Blogspot - Green nothing productions
“I dabbler of many things and already my dabbling has spread far and wide but this solitary blog covers my dabbling in writing”
Last post: November 18th, 2021
Notes: He has posted many stories, some of which have content warnings of rape, abuse, mentions of suicide, depictions of attempted suicide, depictions of violence towards women and men, bullying, gore and lastly Severe content warnings for rape potentially - transphobic content.
I have not personally read them yet but I can and will if there is any interest.
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Bitchute: JahansArchive
Notes: Seems like someone else has saved all of his youtube videos from when they were public and reuploaded them here. Not sure if every single one of his videos has been posted but there's still quite the collection here. I have only watched a handful as there are so many but I will be slowly making my way through them before my final info post on Jahan.
Everything else I am seeing online appears to be others posting about him, or his accounts that have absolutely 0 information. I am not really seeing any other accounts that might be his but if I have missed any then please let me know.
TLDR: These are some overviews of all his accounts that I could find.
https://docs.google.com/document/d/1gx2P-PxRypsyMwPzdCXJt6XVkLRLS1WZYTQxM3YEqfs/edit?usp=sharing
This is just the beginning, I plan on going more into depth in other posts.

Offering for trade consideration this evening my 2021 Munroe Sigil in S90V with copper inlays on the pivot and pivot screw.
Timestamp
I acquired this knife recently here on the swap, and while I do absolutely love the design, I can't help but wonder what else may be out there. Unsure of the previous number of owners. Haven't carried this one or cut with it other than a piece of paper. The blade is quite sharp and I believe it is likely the factory edge. I disassembled it twice, once on arrival to tune the action and make sure everything was clean, and once to install skiff bearings, which did actually improve the action quite a bit and will likely continue to do so as they break in. The finish on this knife makes it difficult to tell if there is really any carry wear, though there is a bit on the tip of the clip and perhaps a snail on it as well. I have included photos of these as best as I could get. I also believe there is a small mark on the pivot screw in the copper, but it is very small and I couldn't get it to show up on camera. Overall it is in excellent condition. The action is great on the skiffs, lockup is solid, and centering looks perfect to my eyes. The box, COA, tag, band-aid, and original bearings are included. TV 1150.
Album and Video
I can trade up or down for the right knife, multiples would be all right too, and cash can go either way. I would primarily like to trade for a dragon scale Grimsmo Rask, though any Rask would be of interest, but I do not particularly like acid washed blades, so I'd likely pass on any of those. Also of interest are TBC, Holts, Craig Browns, JG, and other high end customs or production knives. Please feel free to send offers or questions, chat is preferred. Knife will ship USPS fully insured. Thanks for looking!

Proof - https://imgur.com/EznvKMq
Additional Photos:
Reverse group - https://imgur.com/knNVaHE
1922 obverse - https://imgur.com/uVYMTyx
1922 reverse - https://imgur.com/MOXNpOH
1923 obverse - https://imgur.com/bWKEwkN
1923 reverse - https://imgur.com/7hRAUhS
1924 obverse - https://imgur.com/qg2lDYc
1924 reverse - https://imgur.com/8iFTehj
1926 obverse - https://imgur.com/DXwljBB
1926 reverse - https://imgur.com/8wLjUo7
Four very nice Peace dollars sold as a bundle only (I will not break them up to sell as individual coins).
$125 shipped (to US addresses only). Coins will be shipped together in a padded yellow envelope via USPS.
Payment via PayPal gift "friends & family" payment only (not regular PayPal payment).
Happy to answer any questions not already addressed here - thanks.

Proof - https://imgur.com/EznvKMq
Additional Photos:
Reverse group - https://imgur.com/knNVaHE
1922 obverse - https://imgur.com/uVYMTyx
1922 reverse - https://imgur.com/MOXNpOH
1923 obverse - https://imgur.com/bWKEwkN
1923 reverse - https://imgur.com/7hRAUhS
1924 obverse - https://imgur.com/qg2lDYc
1924 reverse - https://imgur.com/8iFTehj
1926 obverse - https://imgur.com/DXwljBB
1926 reverse - https://imgur.com/8wLjUo7
Four very nice Peace dollars sold as a bundle only (I will not break them up to sell as individual coins).
$125 shipped (to US addresses only). Coins will be shipped together in a padded yellow envelope via USPS.
Payment via PayPal gift "friends & family" payment only (not regular PayPal payment).
Happy to answer any questions not already addressed here - thanks.

Ive been toying around with the idea of setting up a personal Instagram to post my grooms and maybe expand my clientele. I understand most photo policies (hands on pet always, correct loop placement, etc.),and not revealing sensitive information like last names but is there any direct policy I should know of about setting up a Instagram for work?
Brownie points if you have a personal Instagram for your grooms. I'd love some inspiration!

Proof - https://imgur.com/EznvKMq
Additional Photos:
Reverse group - https://imgur.com/knNVaHE
1922 obverse - https://imgur.com/uVYMTyx
1922 reverse - https://imgur.com/MOXNpOH
1923 obverse - https://imgur.com/bWKEwkN
1923 reverse - https://imgur.com/7hRAUhS
1924 obverse - https://imgur.com/qg2lDYc
1924 reverse - https://imgur.com/8iFTehj
1926 obverse - https://imgur.com/DXwljBB
1926 reverse - https://imgur.com/8wLjUo7
Four very nice Peace dollars sold as a bundle only (I will not break them up to sell as individual coins).
$125 shipped (to US addresses only).
Coins will be shipped together in a padded yellow envelope via USPS.
Payment via PayPal gift "friends & family" payment only (not regular PayPal payment).
Happy to answer any questions not already addressed here - thanks.

When I try to share my screen or watch my friends’ share screen, it will tell me “unable to start share screen. Try again later” or “unable to display host’s screen.”
My PlayStation is connected to WiFi as I don’t have an LAN cable anymore, but it’s been like that for a while and I’ve never had issues before. I tried restarting my ps5, trying the share screen on different games, clearing the cache, and rebuilding the database. Nothing works to fix it. It’s been kinda stormy out recently, but I’ve had no issues with my internet connection. It’s stable and my connection/upload speed are decent, so I don’t think that’s the problem.
If this has been answered before I’m sorry but I literally can’t find anything about this with a reliable solution on the internet. I’ve looked through like 10 different Reddit posts on this exact problem but they’re all 1-2 years old with no reliable fixes. I haven’t tried contacting Sony yet, and I feel like I can turn up a faster response this way.

So I was thinking lately. I (30F) found out only several months ago about demisexuality, and it clicked with me immediately on many levels. Many descriptions that I read at the start of my demisexual journey included the point that demisexuals don't have celebrity crushes. Like it makes sense to me, because in my opinion you can't have feelings for a person you basically don't know. But lately, I started to question myself, and I would be glad to know opinions and experiences of others.
So, I was in a long-term relationships, but they ended on a reeeeally bad note. And we broke up. I had a really tough year after this and still trying to recover, because I had a really deep emotional connection with that person that was mercilessly shattered in pieces. And it's still hard for me to think of my life without them. But it's a lot better now, and I started to see that I care less about that person the more days pass. I also understood that I have a need of such a connection, and it's difficult for me to not having one. I tried dating apps, but it was not interesting for me and I couldn't understand how it's possible to like a person and date them when you just see a photo of them without knowing who they are. And especially build relationships with them, like whaaaat? :) Like I don't know you, and it's unlikely that I will know you in even several months or so. Eventually, I decided to just look for new friends on dating apps rather than looking for dating. But I feel that there is still this need in me, this desire for a very deep emotional connection with a person. And I just can't get rid of it. And this is when the problem starts.
I'm not properly diagnosed, but I think that I might have OCD and anxiety. There are too many disturbing and unpleasant situations that might have be my symptoms of these disorders. But it's not the point. I really love songs in which a person shows their deep emotions and their feelings through the music. So, the point is that I have several musicians that I really love to listen to that talk about depression, anxiety, OCD, mental health in general, and other psycological problems in their lives that I see similar to mine. Of course, I understand that they are not the same and that everyone has their own demons to fight with. But... they sing about important things, they touch what bothers me as well. And I feel so sorry for them and for all the people who struggle with these or other difficulties in their lives. I feell sorry for myself and feel this mutual understanding of the struggles we have. And the more songs of these musicians I listen to, the more I want to know them as a person. Like I understand that both of them can be completely different people, of course, they are celebrities, they show what the fans want to see. But considering how serious they talk about their issues and how many personal stories they tell seems very sincere to me.
So, here is my issue. Lately, I began to notice that I started to feel something more than just respect or empathy towards one of those musicians. I can't call it love and I don't want any sexual interaction with a person, when I'm trying to imagine if they were near me for example. Maybe just hugs and that's all. To hug it all out, you know. To share all those struggles we all have. But I am proud of their achivements, their success, I wish all the best to them in their life. And, I think that the feelings I have towards this person are transforming into something else. And, frankly speaking, I'm a little bit afraid and confused. Is it just the emotional connection that I built in my head and that wants to have a way out on someone growing more and more or is it something else? Like is it even common for demisexuals? It's not a situation with a friend or any other person one may know and be close with. It's a celebrity we are talking about.... What do you think? Have anyone maybe experienced anything similar? It all may sound strange, but I would really appreciate to hear if anyone felt something similar.

I was sitting with my friends during our HS graduation party a few hours ago and one of my friends for some reason smeared cake over a copy of a photo of everyone in middle school. When the rest of my friends told him he has to clean it up he started denying that he had smeared the cake and blaming one of our other friends at the table. We had all seen him do it and when we told him that he kept denying it and it reminded me so much of Power shifting the blame to Kobeni when she hit two people with her car and of Power's character in general. I'm pretty sure he hasn't seen Chainsaw Man. It was pretty unusual for his personality so it was really funny.

I was sitting with my friends during our HS graduation party a few hours ago and one of my friends for some reason smeared cake over a copy of a photo of everyone in middle school. When the rest of my friends told him he has to clean it up he started denying that he had smeared the cake and blaming one of our other friends at the table. We had all seen him do it and when we told him that he kept denying it and it reminded me so much of Power shifting the blame to Kobeni when she hit two people with her car and of Power's character in general. I'm pretty sure he hasn't seen Chainsaw Man. It was pretty unusual for his personality so it was really funny.

So my wife was trying to send me a photo by viber, and she accidentally sent it to someone else, to avoid confusion she went to delete the message/photo she sent and she chose "delete for everyone". And suddenly that photo is just completely gone from her phone, like it's not even in the recently deleted photos in her gallery. Also she took that photo with that phone.
I tried to recreate the same thing, took a random photo, sent her the photo and then in viber deleted the message and chose "delete for everyone". That photo is still in my own camera gallery!
We both have android phones and I checked our settings and they're relatively the same on both phones. I couldn't even find any kind of setting that would lead to deleting a photo message that also deletes the original photo on your phone.
Anyone know why this would happen? Any way at all to recover that photo? It was pretty important. And we checked, she didn't have viber backup set up.