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So I adopted my nephew (18 months) although technically he’s not my nephew, as it turns out he’s not any biological relation to me his mom and my brother are divorcing and he has a sibling on the way but I’m not interested in adopting them as I doubt they will be seized by the state. there is a longer version of LO’s story on my profile but he was abused not physically violent but verbally and emotionally, he was also forced to watch his mom and actual dad (his dad is not my brother it’s some other guy) have sex from a young age, because his mom couldn’t be bothered to move him
I did foster him while everything was getting sorted out but he had to go back into state care for 12 days while I went on my honeymoon as it was too late to cancel and we couldn’t find anyone to take him, he is now fully mine, we thought he’d have some problems after we left and then came back but nope he was unaffected it’s been over a week since we’ve been back and he’s been fine, we finally finished his room and it’s filled with toys and mats, books posters anything he was excited about we also got he now has a toddler bed instead of a cot with a plank with a weight on it to stop him standing or getting out like he had at his mothers, we had no problems with that transition, a few minor problems trying to get him to stay in his room but we got a door monkey and he’s fine and now does quite time if he’s up before me and my wife are
We got him his first stuffed animal it’s a big ish ginger cow like one of the ones I have on my farm we told him he could sleep with it and play with it or take it anywhere and he got so excited we could hear him in the monitor babbling away to it at night, he never had any comfort items at his moms she didn’t believe in toys or pacifiers, he jumped and laughed with joy he took it everywhere to my farm to daycare car rides you name it he took it
Our major problem is a few days ago he started crying and running away anytime we came near him he’s instead hold his stuffy and run away and hide or curl up in a corner, if we approached he screams and cries if we touched him he’d kick or bite, he won’t take his bottle from us and he’s refusing most solids, in order to feed him we have to set the bottle or plate on the living room table then leave the room after about 5 mins he will start to feed himself if it’s solid food it’s really messy if it’s a bottle he grabs it and runs and hides he will cry a little,
We have tried hugging him signing to him talking it out with him, but he still runs and hides, it’s so difficult to change him we have to actually grab him and hold him down he will cry and scream and hold his stuffy even tighter, he can’t be separated from it, he’s also started crying in his bed but we can’t go near him otherwise it makes it worse so I just sleep in his doorway with the door open so he can see me, His stuffie fell out of the bed one night and I awoke go to most bloodcurdling scream he was shoving himself into the corner of his bed tears streaming down his face banging his head against the wall, I picked the stuffie up of the ground handed it to him and left the room, he immediately calmed into a wimped and sniffle before falling asleep curled up in a ball
He’s a different person than the one I used to know I thought maybe all the new stuff was overwhelming but he uses it all and he enjoys it all I tried taking a few things away (I didn’t try taking the stuffie just the big puzzle or the water drawing Matt) and he freaked so I put them back, ever since i gave him the stuffie he’s been like this, he’s in play therapy but his next session isn’t until Wednesday, he’s been able to mime out using toys a lot of stuff including his mom having sex, I thought he wouldn’t remember a lot of this stuff as he was an infant for most of it but he does
He’s been temporarily barred from daycare as he now avoids the other kids and cries if any of them try to come near him or interact and refused to be fed by the attendant, a girl came up to him and took his stuffie because she’s 17 months and dosent know better yet and he charged her and hit her and jumped on her then bit her all while screaming before the attendant was able to pull him off the attendant took the stuffie and he freaked out again so she gave it back and he ran and hid under a table and calmed down by himself, the poor girl has a black eye and a bruised forehead with a big ish bite just above her wrist
When he was with his mom he would be put in another room if he cried for food outside of scheduled feeding time at 1wk, if he was napping he would be woken up if it wasn’t a scheduled nap, he had a plank of wood weighted down over his crib to stop him standing, if he made noises he was told to be quiet, if he crawled away from them he would be brought back and force fully held, if he crawled and they didn’t want to watch him he would be strapped into a car seat to stop him, when he was trying to walk he would be shoved to the ground, if he held his arms out to be held when they didn’t want to hold him (which was fairly often unfortunately) he would be told no and they would shove his arms away, they yelled at him because his first word wasn’t what they wanted it to be, he wasn’t allowed toys or pacifiers at his house, his clothes where not stereotypical baby clothes and if he took them off as he grew older he would be yelled at and strapped into his high chair as a punishment
I’m seriously overwhelmed and I feel like I failed him already maybe it would have been better if I let the state find someone else to adopt him, maybe being with me is just to familiar to the abuse since I was a face he seen regularly aftebefore he had been abused in secret. He used to be so happy to see me when I babysat him for 5 days a week most weeks in the first year of his life, I was his first word, when we brought him home for his first night at ours he hugged me we played for hours together I read him a story to go to bed we read together most nights even now when he won’t let me near him I still read to him. All the happyness and joy is gone from him i don’t know where to start

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The Background
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—I (26M) started talking to Jane (23F) at the start of May. I’ve had some romantic feelings for her since we met, but knowing that in February, Jane had just gotten out of a 3 year abusive relationship involving physical and emotional abuse and manipulation, I decided to keep my feelings to myself and focus on building a platonic relationship with her, as her healing takes priority.
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—On top of the abusive relationship, she’s kind-heated and a big people pleaser, so it’s not hard for someone to manipulate her. For example, her roommates owe heher parents around $10K for money they kept borrowing to buy a capay rent/buy a puppy/etc. She’s aware of this, and she’s suspicious of people attempting to manipulate her, rightfully so. Thankfully, she’s moving out and getting her own space which should give her the peace she needs right now.
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—I love giving meaningful and useful gifts, so for her birthday I gave her a lapis lazuli pendant. She’s very into healing crystals, and after researching, I got her lapis lazuli as they say it helps with wisdom, healing and enhanced communication, hoping it help her focus on recovering from her abusive toxic relationship. I explained the meaning behind it when I gave her on her birthday and she’s cherished it, adding it to the necklace she wears daily, and it made me so happy to see it on her everyday.
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-I also love helping/problem solving for people. I’m the type of person who would drop whatever I’m doing if you ask me for help, even for complete strangers and especially for those I care about. People have used this to their advantage before and have taken me for granted, to the point where I’ve spent an entire weekend helping someone with a project, only to blocked right after the project was done. So I’ve become more wary/suspicious/protective of my time, because obviously going out of my way to help someone and them not even appreciating it hurts me emotionally.
—We’re both on the spectrum and have trouble conveying/interpreting emotions/tone/intent especially over text
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The Situation
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My friend told me she was moving out of her unhealthy living situation and had a lot of stuff to get done, so I of course offered to help her pack/move on Wed May 31st, and we made a plan the night before (Tues May 30th) that she would pack what she could during the day and I’d come over after work with additional boxes/tape/etc and we’d finish up all the packing, and after, I’d help her with some documents (lease takeoveroommate’s loan payment plan). On Wed, we only messaged twice during the workday, usually we’d message much more frequently, which I took as a good sign that she way busy packing. Around 7, I left to go Walmart to pick up boxes and tape, and at 7:25 I called her, via snapchat audio, to let her know I was on my way. She didn’t pick up, so I tried her phone and also FaceTime Audio. Both went to voicemail, so I sent a text instead, also asking if she needed anything else (food/coffee/etc) and asking her to give me a call back in case I don’t see her message while driving. I depart Walmart, and begin the 30 minute drive to her place, driving a bit faster than normal because Walmart took longer than expect and I felt bad for being late to help her. Here’s what happened:
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Wed May 31

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Me:
07:25PM I’m heading over. Do you need anything? Gimme a call
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Jane:
07:36PM Oh shit I already have enough boxes
07:36PM Thank you tho! And im getting ready to leave, I didn’t see you call tho
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Me:
07:40PM You’re done packing everything?
07:40PM So should I turn around?
07:42PM Can you call me
07:42PM I’m like halfway to you
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She responds 10 mins into the drive, saying she already has enough boxes and that she’s getting ready to leave. I’m amazed she’s done, and given she said she was leaving when she knew I was coming, wasn’t sure what the implication was. Were we meeting to do the documents at her parents or getting food and doing them there or were we meeting at my place? Should I keep driving to her or turn around and go somewhere else? I’d been hearing about the roommate drama all week so I would’ve preferred not arriving and getting mixed up if that was possible. But I wasn’t sure, so I figured I’d just keep going just in case. I couldn’t type all that so I asked again for her to call me, reiterating that i’m on my way, thinking that would communicate the call was time sensitive.
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Jane:
07:44PM Shit yea I’m sorry I totally didn’t open your snap until now
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Me:
07:45PM Can you call me…
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Jane:
07:45PM We are watching a movie but yea I could go upstairs
07:46PM I appreciate you having those boxes for me but I’m pretty much packed
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She responds a couple minutes later, telling me she didn’t open my snap until now, and doesn’t answer either of the questions nor do I get a call. I’m almost in her neighborhood at this point, so I try calling again, but goes to voicemail after a ring or two. I really don’t want to show up there if she’s already left. So I send a text, asking again for her to call me. She responds immediately saying they’re watching a movie but she could go upstairs. I’m a bit confused, but wait, giving her time to go upstairs and call me.
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Me:
07:50PM Bro do you not see my calls
07:50PM I’m just gonna turn around then
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Jane:
07:51PM My phones on silent 😂 and I didn’t know why you were calling?
07:51PM Thank you for offering!
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Me:
07:52PM Because i’m driving 80 on the highway and shouldn’t be texting lol
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Another few minutes have passed, and by this time I’ve arrived and parked around the corner from her house. Confused as to why its taking so long for her to go upstairs, I call again and no answer. So I send her a text, asking if she doesn’t see any of the 6 missed snapchat, FaceTime audio and phone calls. I call again, and no answer. I’m a planner, I like making detailed plans and following through on them. I’m okay with plans changing, as long as those changes are made clear and not left ambiguous. So, given that I don’t know what’s going on, I don’t know what the new plan is and I’ve asked multiple times for her to call me so I can find out what’s going on and what the new plan is, I’m now frustrated and realized I just drove 30 minutes all the way here for nothing so I text saying I’m just going to go turn around.
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She responds immediately saying her phone was on silent but also simultaneously knowing I was calling, but didn’t know WHY I was calling. This frustrates me even more given that I had repeatedly said I was currently driving over to her house and repeatedly asked if I should be turning around and repeatedly asked her to call back. Not to mention, the easiest way to find out WHY someone is calling is to answer the call or call them back. But I hold my frustration and explain that I was calling because I driving and couldn’t have a text conversation.
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Me
07:56PM So what’s the plan then? Are we not doing the documents?
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Jane:
07:57PM I thought that was on Thursday?
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Me:
07:58PM Originally but last night we said we were just gonna finish it after packing tonight
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Jane:
08:05PM Ah I totally spaced that oops
08:06PM I thought it was going to be after working out
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A few minutes go by, and I text again, asking what the new plan is. She immediately replies, saying she forgot the part of the plan after the packing. And at that point, I deduce that she’s hinting I shouldn’t come to her place and I just leave.
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Obviously I’m frustrated, and the whole ride home I’m trying to clear my head and wondering if I should express my frustration. The whole week, she’s had new drama with her toxic roommates and patronizing mother, so just I keep telling myself “she’s going through a rough time, just brush it off”. But also, if someone were going out of their way to come help me pack etc, and I finished packing early, I would’ve told them as soon as I’m done that they don’t need to make the 30 minute drive over. That’s just considerate.
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Me:
08:40PM I’m a little frustrated.
08:50PM Last night we talked and the plan was that after work i’d bring over boxes and help you finish packing and do the documents if we had time. So if the plan changes, like you finish before I get off or that you no longer need boxes, can you please communicate that to me beforehand?
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Because I feel really stupid rn since I spent 45 minutes going to Walmart to get boxes/tape/etc and driving all the way to you, just to find out you didn’t need any more boxes and that you already finished packing. It’s kinda inconsiderate and makes me feel unappreciated.
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So in the future could you try being a little more considerate of my time by communicating changes to the plan in a timely manner?
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Is that fair of me to ask?
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I know she’s had a rough week, but I also rescheduled plans I had that evening so I could go help her, only to be ignored when I’m literally on my way and finding out all my effort was meaningless. Yes she has a lot on her plate, but I wouldn’t do that to someone and I expect that not to be done to me. So after getting home, before I even get out the car, I text saying i’m frustrated. And I take 10 minutes crafting a text (we’re both on the spectrum and aren’t the most tactful at expressing/interpreting through text) why i’m frustrated, how what she did was inconsiderate, how it made me feel unappreciated and what we can do in the future to avoid that happening again (assuming she cares that she was inconsiderate and unintentionally made me feel unappreciated). After writing, rewriting and rewording trying to make sure it’s clear i’m not blaming her and just respectfully discussing a boundary that was crossed, I send the message 10 minutes before 9pm.
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It really wasn’t a big deal, and I didn’t expect a 10 page apology letter. Just something like “Apologies for not being considerate of your time and thanks for understanding that I’m just stressed right now. I’ll be sure to update you if our plans change like that again.” And we’d move on. No big deal.
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Me:
12:10AM Just wanted to check in. I hope it doesn’t sound like i’m talking down to you or patronizing you, because i’m sure you got a lot of that from your ex, and that’s definitely not what im trying to do. Rather, I wanted to express how what you did made me feel. I know that it wasn’t intentional, and it just slipped your mind, which is why I’m not at all mad about it. We’re human and it happens, especially given that you have a lot on your plate rn. But at the same time, I needed to address it so it doesn’t happen again in the future
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But after a few hours, I didn’t hear back from her. And got worried I messed up the wording of my text and accidentally gave off a patronizing tone or the idea that I was talking down to her. And just after midnight, I I send a message hoping to clarify the intent of the message. Expecting that to clear up any misunderstandings, I go to sleep expecting her to reply like she usually does before work in the morning.
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Thurs June 1
However, in the morning there’s still no response. We were supposed to go to the gym, go to a sushi restaurant for dinner and go see a standup show that night. So I send her a snapchat, asking if our plans were still on tonight.
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11:32AM
Me: Still on for gym/all those other things tonight?
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12:13PM
Jane: I’ve got it pretty much covered, thanks for offering/making plans but I’m super busy with high priority tasks rn.
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12:59PM
Me: I can see I’ve upset you and I feel really bad because that’s the last thing I want to do. I feel like I should be allowed to express how I feel, but I clearly didn’t do it properly if it upset you this much. Looking back I wish I waited to have a discussion in person, because we’re both terrible at text communication. I know you’re busy, but when you get a chance, it would mean a lot to me if you shared your thoughts with me and we have a discussion? I really enjoy talking to you and the silent treatment really hurts really hurts 😕
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She doesn’t reply for the rest of the day. At that time, we had a 14 day snap-streak (just an achievement thing when you send snaps for X consecutive days. The timer for keeping the streak resets at midnight so to keep the streak, you need to send a snap before then.
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11:39PM
Jane: I didn’t want to lose the streak but I just need some space for the moment, just a couple days to get my life back in order
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I had already gone to bed
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Fri June 2
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12:59PM
Me: Understood, take the time you need
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Right after sending that, I went online and ordered a bouquet to be delivered to her with the note “In the meantime, hope these brighten your day (:” And I went about my day as normal, thinking she’d reach out when she’s ready in a couple days like she said.
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Wed June 7

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05:17PM
Me: Hey, I’m worried that you’re going to stop talking to me. I value our friendship and didn’t mean to offend you with my message last week. I don’t know if you still need more time but would you be willing to meet up with me so we can talk through what happened?
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After a week past the situation I wasn’t sure what was going on. I thought she would’ve at least sent a quick message last Friday saying she had received the bouquet, but nothing. So worried that she was just gonna ghost me, I reached out the next Wednesday June 7, hoping we could just talk in person and clear up whatever the issue was.
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Sat June 10
And as of today, Sat June 10, when I’m writing this, no response. She’s viewed the stories I’ve posted all week, and she’s been actively posting as well all week, but nothing to me. So I’ve been slowly coming to terms that our friendship might be over. That or she just really needs more time to process whatever she’s processing. But last night she posted a picture with her necklace in frame. The lapis lazuli pendant she had worn everyday since I gave it to her was no longer there. She’s not waiting to talk to me, but rather she’s probably not going to talk to me ever again. It seems our friendship has ended. And it seems like I’m the bad guy she removed from her life.
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The Questions
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Am I the asshole/dumbass for being frustrated/expressing it?
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I feel like she would be understanding about expressing my feelings, and wouldn’t want me to feel unappreciated unintentionally. And I thought I was communicating my feelings in a healthy way, but I can see that something I said or the way I said it really upset her or possibly triggered some trauma from her abusive ex, and that definitely wasn’t my intention and is the absolute last thing I’d want to do because I care about her so so much and just want to see her happy, but somehow made her so upset that she refuses to talk with me and has gotten rid of something she treasures because I was the one who gave it to her. It feels like I’m in the wrong here, like I’m the asshole but I don’t see how?
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AITA for expressing my feelings in a healthy way and setting boundaries for myself so my willingness to go out of my way to help is not taken advantage of?
AITA for not bottling my emotions when my friend was having a rough time and needed someone to stay supportive?
If expressing my feelings was right, AITA for the way I expressed it? Did I come off as demanding/manipulative/abusive/patronizing?
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AITA for something I haven’t considered, something I’ve missed?
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What was it that i did wrong??

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So I just got officially diagnosed with endo. Since I was 10 I have had horrible period pain. I mean preemptive take advil and pray I don't puke pain. Endo runs in my family, but I was told to try to manage it with advil. In 2019 I finally got tired of the pain. I went in for scans, and it showed some abnormalities in my abdomen, and a noticeable one on my bladder.
They deemed it a bad bladder infection and sent me on my way. Antibiotics did nothing. My pain was the same. I later ended up in the hospital for unrelated kidney stones and they decided the whole ordeal was kidney stones. After my kidney stone surgery things weren't much better. In fact, I started getting ovulation cramps and bladder pain. If my bladder is full I feel like puking and get cramps. I can't regulate my body temperature to save my life and get chills in anything under 20⁰C. I get ovulation cramps. I get period cramps that go all up my back and down my legs. 3 weeks of the month I am in pain. I pass blood clots the size of loonies and toonies. Some clots are bug enough to cause discomfort passing. Ill bleed thru a super tampon in 1-2 hours. I switched to a diva cup and that lasts about 3-4 hours on a bad day. I can sleep 4 hours, 6 hours, 8 hours, or 10 hours and wake up feeling the same exhaustion. Ive always gotten sick on my period. Dizzy, light headed, achey, and since having Covid last November have all my long Covid symptoms come back. It gets tiring to walk across a room. I bloat bad enough people have argued with me on whether or not im pregnant and am in so much discomfort when bloated I cannot eat. I go at week a month on maybe half a meal per day if lucky. Somedays I live off juice or a smoothie because I am so uncomfortable and struggle to eat.
My doctor strongly felt that it was endo, but she was unable to diagnose it as it is outside her area of expertise and none of the specialists she sent me to were willing to help. I cannot take that much sick time off work, so I just dealt with it. Thankfully I have a wonderful department manager who is 100% in my corner and understands when I have a bad day. She is fantastic and has been a huge help and is ok with me doing easier tasks on bad days and taking a breather if I need it.
This past Friday I called a local walk in place that specializes in young adult health and has women's health specialists on call. I went in and gave them my info on Monday. They had me come in Wednesday to go over things. They found endo on all the scans from 2019. I have endo on my bladder. I have it all thru my abdomen. Every test and scan clearly showed endo as the only possible cause and it was just missed. If any doctor had called in a women's health specialist it would be an easy cut and dry diagnosis. I turn 24 in a couple of months. It took 14 years to diagnose me.
I was given mefenamic acid as a temporary relief. It has helped so much. I take 2 before bed and I'm not in pain. I actually slept while on my period. I get a bit light headed and have a slight headache, but so much better than the cramps. It also lightened my period. It is about 30% lighter when I take the pill compared to normal. I don't have giant clots. I have a few loonies sized ones which I understand are still bigger than normal, but they are manageable and don't cause pain to pass. I'm still bloated and eating is a struggle, but I can eat light meals and not throw up since the pain is better managed.
I go in on the 29th to have a Mirena inserted. I am excited. The doctor said I should feel way better after a few months on it, and the thought of not being in pain for 3/4 of my life is so exciting. If the IUD doesn't work then we'll look into getting a surgery in the future, but I am just so happy I am diagnosed, I know what it is, and I'm getting treatment. I can't really remember how it felt to not be worrying about pain or when my period will randomly decide to show up or skip a month. I can't remember not being bloated once a month and having strangers ask about due dates and give unsolicited advice. I started dressing in flowy dresses and high waisted pants because I got these comments less and none of my friends understood why I got so insecure and stressed when people would congratulate me and offer me advice on baby raising and ask about my husband (very single, very against casual hook ups for myself, very much want a big family and know that may not be easy or possible) I am so excited to go thru life and learn what normal is supposed to feel like. I am a little nervous about the IUD insertion, but so happy to actually have a chance at enjoying life more.

I'm stressed. I've missed college so much, I can only hope that I'll pass this grade; I will find out on Wednesday. If I don't make it, I don't think I will have the mental to go back anymore. And I will have wasted 2 years of my twenties, just like that.
I'm depressed. I struggle so much with my mental health that I can't do anything anymore. I have constant migraines, the most painful headaches. There is so much going on in my life right now that I'm barely just pushing through.
I'm in a position where I have to worry and care for my sick mother everyday. It's putting so much stress on top of all the other stress factors. Just thinking about it gives me a headache.
I'm on my way to work right now, and tomorrow I have work again. My migraine is so bad I don't know how I'll pull through.
I'm consumed by negative thoughts everyday and I struggle to think positive. I'm having trouble sleeping and I barely eat and drink everyday. All I really want is to be happy and stress free.
I just want someone to tell me it's going to be okay.

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Phish, Sunday 06/10/2012 (11 years ago) Bonnaroo, Manchester, TN, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 2012 Early Summer Tour
Set 1 : Down with Disease > Funky Bitch , The Moma Dance > Sample in a Jar , Axilla , The Gambler ¹ , Possum > Wilson > Tweezer > Free > Backwards Down the Number Line > Cavern
Set 2 : Golden Age > Also Sprach Zarathustra > Chalk Dust Torture , Carini -> Shafty > Rock and Roll , Alaska > Harry Hood ² -> Light > Character Zero > Rocky Top
Encore : Show of Life > Julius > Tweezer Reprise
1 Phish debut, with Kenny Rogers. 2 Unfinished.
Show Notes:
The Gambler was a Phish debut and featured Kenny Rogers on vocals. Possum featured The Gambler and Streets of Cairo teases. Tweezer contained a Walk This Way tease from Trey and I Am Hydrogen teases from Fish. Shafty was played for the first time since December 30, 2003 (159 shows). Hood was unfinished.
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Phish, Friday 06/10/2011 (12 years ago) Susquehanna Bank Center, Camden, NJ, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 2011 Early Summer Tour
Set 1 : Rocky Top , Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , Stash , Tube > Guyute , Guelah Papyrus , Scent of a Mule , Cavern , The Sloth , The Curtain With
Set 2 : Down with Disease ¹ -> Free > Possum , Big Black Furry Creature from Mars , Swept Away > Steep > David Bowie , Julius , Golgi Apparatus > Fluffhead > Joy
Encore : Bold As Love
1 Unfinished.
Jamchart Notes:
The Curtain With - There are a few spots here and there in The Curtain and the beginning of With that seem a bit off. Nonetheless, Trey soloing in With seems particularly inspired, and Mike is also noticeably strong. The jam reaches a fairly intense peak, before expectedly settling to conclude.
Steep - Trey's wonderful, pretty, and soulful soloing, accompanied by Mike's on-point, cascading runs, work to create a truly notable version. Per netter @jerryguscia, Trey quickly shifts towards a bit of jamming featuring some rhythmic, low-key strumming, play which breaks to become dark and funky improvisation before dissolving into those hazy waves of sound typical for the era.
Show Notes:
The Theme from Rocky was teased before Rocky Top and Trey teased Pop Goes the Weasel before Down With Disease. Disease was unfinished.
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Phish, Wednesday 06/10/2009 (14 years ago) Thompson-Boling Arena, Knoxville, TN, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 2009 Early Summer Tour
Set 1 : Runaway Jim , Punch You in the Eye , Ocelot , Foam , Train Song , Undermind , Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , The Squirming Coil , Character Zero
Set 2 : Back on the Train , Waves > A Song I Heard the Ocean Sing > David Bowie , Army of One , Reba ¹ , Hello My Baby , Julius > Cavern > Harry Hood
Encore : Frankenstein ²
1 No whistling. 2 Page on keytar.
Jamchart Notes:
Foam - Powerful Page solo with a ragtime feel. Trey brings the volume way down at first before a big peak. Sounds like '93 - '94.
Waves - This is a very well-played version with a full length "Waves" jam. 3 minute outro jam leads to transition to "ASIHTOS."
Reba - Excellent full-band play featuring quiet, expansive and contemplative work from Trey, whose warm tone is complimented in great part by Page. Mike and Fish modify the beat, and the musicians dial the jam down to an all but erasure of sound. Mike and Trey team to rebuild momentum, before Trey summons a few chords and, shaping his sound, directs the band into a passage of measured and progressive space.
Show Notes:
Reba did not have the whistling ending. Hello My Baby was played for the first time since December 5, 1999 (138 shows). Frankenstein featured Page on keytar.
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Phish, Saturday 06/10/2000 (23 years ago) Zepp, Koto-ku, Tokyo, , Japan
Gap Chart, Tour: 2000 Summer Japan Tour
Set 1 : Down with Disease , Sample in a Jar , Piper , Lawn Boy , Guyute
Set 2 : Heavy Things , Sand , Sparkle > My Soul , Bathtub Gin > Jam > Twist , Albuquerque , Wading in the Velvet Sea > Loving Cup
Encore : The Inlaw Josie Wales , Limb By Limb
Jamchart Notes:
Down with Disease - A very upbeat groove develops and grows more intense as it progresses. Eventually the jam becomes more subdued before rebuilding with spacey effects and returning to "DwD" to conclude.
Piper - Beginning with a style and sound so typical of '00, the band then twists this jam into a bleak, nightmarish soundscape. From there, it breaks into a decent groove before finally succumbing to space.
Show Notes:
Disease included San-Ho-Zay teases. Mike teased Dave's Energy Guide in Piper.
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Phish, Saturday 06/10/1995 (28 years ago) Red Rocks Amphitheatre, Morrison, CO, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1995 Summer Tour
Set 1 : Makisupa Policeman -> Llama , Prince Caspian > It's Ice > Free > Rift , You Enjoy Myself -> Hold Your Head Up ¹ > Lonesome Cowboy Bill > Hold Your Head Up , Suzy Greenberg
Set 2 : Maze , Fee ² > Uncle Pen , Mike's Song > I Am Hydrogen > Weekapaug Groove , Amazing Grace , Sample in a Jar
Encore : A Day in the Life ³
1 Vocal jam. 2 Trey sang verses through megaphone. 3 Phish debut.
Jamchart Notes:
Mike's Song - The 1st jam segment (to 7:20) is loaded with tension and moderate dissonance. The 2nd jam begins with sounds akin to "Simple," but gradually descends into a murky caldron of eerie and spacey improvisation. At 14:00, the jam begins to emerge from the underworld with low key play, a rhythmic pulse, and growing, dissonant energy, before finally returning to "Mike's" proper to wrap up.
Weekapaug Groove - Some "CYHMK"-like jamming leads to a quieter improvisational section which pushes the bounds of "Weekapaug" proper. Released on Live Bait Vol. 6.
Show Notes:
This show marked the first Phish performance of A Day in the Life. YEM segued into a HYHU vocal jam. Page teased Fanfare for the Common Man several times before Lonesome Cowboy Bill. Trey sang the verses of Fee through a megaphone.
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Phish, Friday 06/10/1994 (29 years ago) Red Rocks Amphitheatre, Morrison, CO, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1994 Summer Tour
Set 1 : Runaway Jim , Foam , Sample in a Jar , Nellie Kane > Demand > David Bowie , The Lizards , Cavern , Julius
Set 2 : Axilla (Part II) > The Curtain > Tweezer > Lifeboy > Sparkle > Possum ¹ , Hold Your Head Up > I Wan'na Be Like You > Hold Your Head Up , Harry Hood , Tweezer Reprise
Encore : Sleeping Monkey > Rocky Top
1 Random Note signal.
Jamchart Notes:
David Bowie - Typically strong '94 "Bowie" that gets mean, nasty and thrashing as it progresses.
Tweezer - A short, but magnificent version, though controversial, as some remain deaf to its majesty.
Possum - Awesome pump-it-up jam. Excellent musical variation from 3:55 - 4:30, then it's off to the "Possum" party.
Show Notes:
Bowie included a Leprechaun tease by Trey. During Lizards, Trey talked about the rocks that looked like a giant lizard and referenced the last time they played at Red Rocks (August 20, 1993). Lizards also contained a Fanfare for the Common Man tease from Page. Cavern included Purple Haze and Voodoo Child teases from Trey. Tweezer contained What a Man (Linda Lydell original that was remade by Salt-n-Pepa in 1993) quotes from Trey. Possum contained a Random Note signal.
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Phish, Saturday 06/10/1989 (34 years ago) The Living Room, Providence, RI, USA
Gap Chart, Tour: 1989 Tour
Set 1 : Run Like an Antelope , McGrupp and the Watchful Hosemasters > Ya Mar , You Enjoy Myself , AC/DC Bag > Foam , Good Times Bad Times
Show Notes:
YEM was played for "Max's" "Goddard Springfest birthday" and contained a Happy Birthday tease from Trey. This setlist is incomplete, and may also be incorrect. This set also has incorrectly circulated as the second set of 8/23/89.
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Trey Anastasio

Trey Anastasio Trio, 2023-06-10 Mission Ballroom, Denver, CO, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-trio-june-10-2023-mission-ballroom-denver-co-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes:
Trey Anastasio Band, 2006-06-10 Nissan Pavilion at Stone Ridge, Bristow, VA, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-june-10-2006-nissan-pavilion-at-stone-ridge-bristow-va-usa.html
Tour: TAB - Early Summer 2006 Tour
Show Notes: This single set performance was as the opening act for Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers.
Jazz Mandolin Project, 1993-06-10 Last Elm Cafe, Burlington, VT, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/trey-anastasio-june-10-1993-last-elm-cafe-burlington-vt-usa.html
Tour: Not Part of a Tour
Show Notes: Tree Fist featured chords and lyrics improvised by the audience. Kitty Litter Blues was also improvised and featured Anne Weiss on vocals. I Saw the Light, Alabama Jubilee, and Better Get It In Yo' Soul featured Shane Brodie on guitar and vocals. This is the first public performance billed as Jazz Mandolin Project.

Mike Gordon

Benevento/Russo Duo featuring Mike Gordon, 2005-06-10 Bonnaroo, Manchester, TN, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/mike-gordon-june-10-2005-bonnaroo-music-arts-festival-manchester-tn-usa.html
Tour: Mike - The Duo Feat. Mike Gordon Spring 2005 Tour
Show Notes: This performance took place in That Tent. 9X9 through My Pet Goat were performed by The Duo only (without Mike). Foam contained a Lengthwise tease. The Beltless Buckler featured Gabby La La on sitar. This show was made available on LivePhish.com and officially released on CD as The Benevento/Russo Duo Featuring Mike Gordon, Live at Bonnaroo 2005.

Page McConnell

Page McConnell, 2007-06-10 The Vogue Theatre, Indianapolis, IN, USA
Setlist: https://phish.net/setlists/page-mcconnell-june-10-2007-the-vogue-theatre-indianapolis-in-usa.html
Tour: Page McConnell Spring & Summer 2007 Tour
Show Notes: Page performed "Army of One" solo on piano.

The Vision: Sector Seven is a young FC with a small but active player base founded by three friends. Our goal is to grow slowly over time, finding quality people and players we can have fun and make connections with, rather than just gathering quantity for the sake of it.
Content: Predominantly raids and trials, but on our down time we are happy to run roulettes, maps, hunts and host social events for people to get together and have some relaxed fun.
Raiding: Our current raid lead team has helped us establish a motley crew of Savage Raiders within the FC, clearing Savages and Extremes as friends, and we are inviting you to become a part of it. Furthermore (although not required) anyone with experience leading raids will be welcome here to complement our existing raid team and accommodate new raiders. We typically raid on a Wednesday and Friday as an FC, but are looking to increase this as membership grows.
Casual vs Hardcore: We have a casual but committed attitude. A causal mindset where we can all chill together and have a laugh, but when it comes to raiding we want to see commitment from our members to learn fights, improve in their jobs/roles and down big bad bosses.
Timezone: A lot of us are UK based, so our primary timezone is UTC, but we also have members from around Europe and slightly further afield. Preferably applicants should be UTC or UTC+1 in order for people to be playing at a similar time. We will accept people from other timezones, but you will have to be understanding of the fact that it could be problematic for you.
Grand Company: Since we’re about community and coin, the FC are allied with the Immortal Flames. You are allowed to be affiliated with whichever GC you like though.
What we’re looking for:
21 years old+.
Fun loving.
Easy going.
Social.
Raiders that have had enough of PF hell.
Irreverent sense of humour.
Relative timezone.
So, if you are willing to play, learn, grow and laugh together, then Sector Seven is the place for you. To apply, please do so via our Discord server below:
https://discord.gg/NmBsQ5fVmy

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A very personal mix, covering a long period of my life.Hoping it doesn't get taken down - respect to all the artists on here.
HAELOS – Spectrum (Intro)
HAELOS – Pray
The Naked and Famous – Blinding Lights
Meg Myers – Running Up That Hill
Milosh – Hold Me (Instrumental)
Pink Floyd – Comfortably Numb
Shpongle – Nothing Is Something Worth Doing
Floex, Tom Hodge, Prague Radio Symphony Orchestra – Wednesday (Is The New Friday)
Sasha Alex Sloan – Thoughts
Sleigh Bells – And Saints
Depeche Mode – A Pain That I’m Used To (Live)
Floex, Tom Hodge, Prague Radio Symphony Orchestra – Prelude I
Johnny Cash – Hurt
Me Not You – Kill The Noise
Nine Inch Nails – Eraser
UNKLE, Michael Kiwanuka – On My Knees
Enigma, Aquilo – Amen
Cigarettes After Sex – Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby
Puscifer – Grand Canyon
Brian Eno – The Big Ship
UNKLE, Tessa Angus – Long Gone
Phantogram – Into Happiness
ODESZA – A Moment Apart
Thomas Barrandon – Body

I am in the middle of my worst flare up yet. My legs barely work, when they do I can only walk slowly for a very short time and I’ve had one fall and many near falls. The shooting pains down the right side of my body are killer. My tremor is bad again. I feel awful, like I’m hungover but I haven’t been drinking and it isn’t dehydration as I drink a lot of water.
I’ve had minimal time off in the past due to flare ups. I have a very grin and bare it attitude. Last flare up I only had two half days off and that is only because my tremor was so violent it was making everyone uncomfortable.
I had strep throat a couple of weeks ago and had to have the whole week off. It was a terrible time to be sick as my coworker had jury service, but what can you do? I was then fine for a week, then last Thursday every possible symptom I could have came at me in full force and I got sent home from work. I still came in the next day, but was sent home again in the afternoon despite trying to be as cheery as possible. I think everyone was just uncomfortable looking at me. Things got worse over the weekend. It was a long weekend, but I go to work on Tuesday regardless and after that it was the end of me. I thankfully don’t work Wednesdays, but my symptoms were so bad I felt like I had to call my boss and give her a heads up. I said I’d do my best but I just can’t predict how I’m going to be day to day. I didn’t go in this Thursday or Friday. I just couldn’t, I am at the end of my rope and so exhausted and frustrated.
I feel like I try my best, but I still have more time off my than anyone else and I am worried my manager resents me for this, especially since I need more time off after just having a week off from strep throat. She seems to think there should be a quick fix, tells me to get some medication or go to emergency, but that just isn’t possible. There are no medications and I can’t run to the emergency room whenever this happens, it just wouldn’t be right and they can’t do anything for me. I think she also doesn’t see my mobility as a valid reason as I work sitting down and when I had a fractured ankle I didn’t take any time off and managed to get to work. If it was just the mobility, I could probably get passed that, but it’s the pain, headaches and exhaustion on top of it all that makes it impossible.
I feel like I am at the end of my rope. I can’t go on like this. I don’t know how I am going to go to work on Monday and deal with the stress of my job with my condition at the moment and then also deal with being resented for not being there and being expected to work extra hard to make up for it.
I also don’t know how I am going to be able to keep this up for the foreseeable future. I feel like the stress of work is really hindering any chance of recovery, but the stress of not having an income would suck too. I also don’t know if I can quit as now I have FND, I don’t think I could get another job elsewhere as I’d be seen as too much of a liability.
It doesn’t help that I constantly have these spiralling thoughts of what if this really is all psychological? What if FND is less about neurology and more that I’m just not mentally resilient enough? Am I just not trying hard enough to fight it? Does the few good steps I take before my legs give out mean that I have it in me but I am not trying hard enough to stay “normal”? Does my tremor becoming less obvious when I’m happy mean it’s all in my head?
I am so frustrated and miserable. Should I quit my job? Should I continue to try to grin and bare it? What do I do?

A very personal mix, covering a long period of my life.Hoping it doesn't get taken down - respect to all the artists on here.

1. HAELOS – Spectrum (Intro)
2. HAELOS – Pray
3. The Naked and Famous – Blinding Lights
4. Meg Myers – Running Up That Hill
5. Milosh – Hold Me (Instrumental)
6. Pink Floyd – Comfortably Numb
7. Shpongle – Nothing Is Something Worth Doing
8. Floex, Tom Hodge, Prague Radio Symphony Orchestra – Wednesday (Is The New Friday)
9. Sasha Alex Sloan – Thoughts
10. Sleigh Bells – And Saints
11. Depeche Mode – A Pain That I’m Used To (Live)
12. Floex, Tom Hodge, Prague Radio Symphony Orchestra – Prelude I
13. Johnny Cash – Hurt
14. Me Not You – Kill The Noise
15. Nine Inch Nails – Eraser
16. UNKLE, Michael Kiwanuka – On My Knees
17. Enigma, Aquilo – Amen
18. Cigarettes After Sex – Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby
19. Puscifer – Grand Canyon
20. Brian Eno – The Big Ship
21. UNKLE, Tessa Angus – Long Gone
22. Phantogram – Into Happiness
23. ODESZA – A Moment Apart
24. Thomas Barrandon – Body

Overall question is will this work?!?
We have 3 GA Camp spots (3 Cars) for 3 people.
10’ x 20’ Tent with two 10 x 10 canopy’s over it, this would be for 2 out of the 3 people in our group.
Another 10’ x 10’ Canopy with the third person’s tent / gear.
Does anyone have pictures of how they set up their camp when in a group setting like this?
Looking for any and all advice as this is our first forest and we want to make it a memorable one with minimal hassle when we arrive on Wednesday.
Happy forest 💕

Hi folks! Looking to run a game for new players (or those who haven't played too much). All are welcome as long as you're 18+! (though there will be no adult themes or anything of that nature). Campaign will be fairly standard - roleplaying, adventuring, dungeons and a BBEG! I'm happy to help people learn the roles - all are welcome! :)
System: 5e
Day/Time: Flexible, late evenings BST on Monday, Tuesday or Wednesday
Where: Discord for Voice, Roll20 for play and DNDBeyond for characters.
Some character restrictions will apply (pretty much the only races will be humans or dwarves), but all classes are good to go!
Please DM me on Discord to apply at aidanmcg_! (Or Aidan#7172) Thanks!
Summary:
The land of Blighty is ancient and superstitious - a dark, whispering land of mystery, gloom and many secrets. Few travel across kingdoms, for who knows what could be lurking in the forests, or worse - in the shadows of the night. This is not a kind land for the unprepared, and superstition is the only things that keeps the people safe. In the south of the land, Haefod rules. Referred to commonly as The Old Ways, this ancient religion unites kingdom and culture; every object, every creature, has an essence - a soul. They are, in effect, their own Gods - the intention and care with which they are created makes them so. In the north, though, in the Black Kingdom of Kidder, a new religion rises. Logic and rationality, forged in the minds of the wizards of The Custodian, rule - and those who doubt these new idols do not live for long.
This, though, is none of your concern.
In Mousehole, a small, coastal village in The Fenlands of Dartmoor, sad news has been heard - Sire Kirwich has died. The town's eldest resident, and one with no living family, the responsibility has fallen on you, and your newfound compatriots, to travel The Lych Way to the central burial-grounds of Dartmoor, and lay Sire Kirwich to rest. Why you've chosen to do so is a mystery. Perhaps you'll be rewarded handsomely, perhaps you had a personal connection with the Elder of Mousehole - whatever your reasons, though, the journey will not be easy... And you and your new companions will have fierce obstacles to overcome.

OK so first point of business thanks to all who have contributed feedback as to whether we should join in with the blackout. The majority opinion seems to be in favour and as such we will be going private whenever it is that the other subs are (possibly earlier as I'm in Europe so I operate to European times) and potentially returning on Wednesday night (again European time) as I have work commitments that stop me doing any reddit things prior to that.
Which brings me to my second order of business; the long term future of the sub. Having stumbled somewhat accidentally into moderation I've sort of become the only regularly active mod for this sub. I know the stereotype is that reddit mods are all terminally online neckbeards with nothing better to do but realistically I have a job, a social life etc and frankly I think it's a bit of a cheek that reddit can be demanding huge sums of money from third-party developers to keep shareholders happy whilst also pretty much relying on unpaid labour to keep the site afloat.
I'm not saying suddenly I should be being paid or anything but it has made me question whether it's worth continuing to bother with the (largely thankless) task of moderating a group of this size basically just for the benefit of advertisers and shareholders but as I'm currently, as previously stated, the only active mod this leaves the sub in a bit of a dilemma as I'd hate to abandon it to become a cesspit of commercial accounts and reposts hence being unsure if I'll necessarily want to bring it back after the blackout.
So yeah, I dunno, I guess let me know what you're all thinking and we'll see where we go from there.

Im just a dude and my wife watches her all the time since 2018 I believe and during the pandemic we would watch her daily vlogs together as background noise, I was never into it but it helped pass the time and even saw her live show recently in Arizona in October I believe (I hate to admit this but goanna be honest the live show wasn't actually that bad and I was entertained, she is a horrible person but pretty talented in a live setting).
But I after seeing the original "apologize video" I looked more into it and found this sub eventually but kept watching just to make my wife happy but knew there was more to the story. On Wednesday we were watching our normal youtube stuff and asked if colleen posted anything then told her about all the stuff I have read and seen on this sub. It is now Friday and she hates colleen and has been retweeting all the bad stuff and unsubscribed from all her stuff.
I just want to say thank you to this sub for providing detailed posts, evidence etc that is making her fans turn on her. I remember having to watch some of the vlogs during the "dance party" phase where the music would kick in loud as fuck and wake me up or the shitty editing or when she would complain her grocery home delivery got the wrong apples or wrong brand of ranch dressing.
This is all no more and I appreciate everything you guys are doing!

ENSŌ By Alessandro Carosi
It started with a book ”Many Lives, Many masters” by Brian Weiss
Psychiatrist Dr Brian Weiss had been working with Catherine, a young patient, for eighteen months. Catherine was suffering from recurring nightmares and chronic anxiety attacks. When his traditional methods of therapy failed, Dr Weiss turned to hypnosis and was astonished and sceptical when Catherine began recalling past-life traumas which seemed to hold the key to her problems.
Dr Weiss’s scepticism was eroded when Catherine began to channel messages from ‘the space between lives’, which contained remarkable revelations about his own life. Acting as a channel for information from highly evolved spirit entities called the Masters, Catherine revealed many secrets of life and death.
This fascinating case dramatically altered the lives of Catherine and Dr Weiss, and provides important information on the mysteries of the mind, the continuation of life after death and the influence of our past-life experiences on our present behaviour.
At the time in New Zealand I was looking for to have a past life regression but never took into serious consideration till I moved to live in London and due certain exceptionally experiences I decided it was time, a guy among others I felt drawn and few weeks later I was on my way to New Malden the London Korean community, it was a surreal foggy evening I could barely seeing where I was walking, despite that I reached the house of Nicolas Aujula a famous character in the psychic world, he was nothing of what I could expect, slim, elegant, friendly, a normal guy that would easily pass unnoticed, we introduced ourselves and he took me in the living room where I sat in a really comfortable sofa, he explained me what he was going to do and told me to relax, we started, I’m honest I don’t believe he hypnotised me but I can’t deny that weird things happened, images popped up in my mind in unchecked way where I realised to be a man living in the middle ages abusing of a girl I felt instinctively was Julie, a Korean girl I met in New Zealand and played a massive role in my spiritual growing.
This girl still playing an important part in my life and as much I’m trying to forget seems impossible, is like she is part of me and anytime she feel I’m trying to cut the cords of attachment she is coming back in my mind and soul shaking me within, I can’t cut the cords or maybe subconsciously I don’t want.
Five years in London have been a roller coaster of happy and sad moments where Many events unfolded sometime in the most unexpected way till I made the most unexpected decision, to come to Scotland, it was meant to be ? It seems like, all my friends knows that this country was the last I would ever choice to come to live and kept repeating I would never come, so how I ended up here ? I don’t know but I believe that something or someone played with my life, an entity I’m unable to see but I perceived in few occasions, who is that ? I can’t answer to this question but I know that all the synchronicities I experienced pushed me to come, like the fortune teller from Milton Keynes told me I would move to live somewhere else and like other things she predicted then over the next twelve months they occurred, who is in charge ? What is all of this ? I had the chance to see something, a glimpse but no more, I’m frustrated like I know many others out there are, the only thing that keep me going is the fact that all of those experiences made me a better person, so after all this mystery that is life might be Really into teaching us to spiritually grow up.
Scotland, Edinburgh, since I come for the first few months I had an incredible amount of dejavu’, I never experienced so many, this sensation to already have been here it never occurred so much in Italy, Australia, New Zealand and in the other countries I lived, but up here my instinct is telling me there is something for me, something to understand, maybe what happened on Wednesday it is what I needed to remember or just a part of it.
I wanted to reach Glasgow walking by the Union canal from Edinburgh, I didn’t make it but something else would turn me upside down, I was talking with my Mum….oh well, actually arguing when I got a message on Kakao Talk, the Korean version of Whatsapp, it was Julie that replied me to something I asked few days ago, I thought I would never hear from her again but things happening when we less expect them, she couldn’t understand my message and asked me to explain it in a simple way, that day I felt pretty emotional and I got stressed out, to relax I put it on a music track on my Ipod from the movie Cloud Atlas that I got the chance to watch after a colleague recommend it to me, nothing happen by coincidence and everything is connected to each other like a big puzzle, the movie talk about a bunch of people that are bounded to each other and in every new life they will meet over and over again to finish unfinished business or to meet and share the endless love that Twin flames carry to each other forever.
I needed to tell Julie everything I felt, everything I experienced, regardless she would think I was crazy or not, it was something I wanted to share with her for so long and then….a Swan, it reminded me of the ballet performance the Swan Lake and felt compelled to take a photo and to share it with her but when I looked at the pic what I saw blown my mind

I recently purchased an item on Wednesday, they said they’d ship Friday. Friday morning comes and I see they’ve cancelled the order. I messaged on another one of their posts asking what happened, since I had expressed my excitement, been very friendly, and they let me know their plans to ship. They replied that they got the weight wrong and had to adjust it, and put it back up if I’d like to buy.
Well in the meantime, I already purchased from someone else who was happy to accept my offer of much less than asking price but about $15 more than the cancelled purchase.
If they had just messaged and told me the issue, I would have gladly let them cancel, calculate proper shipping, and bought from them again. I sell on here too so I know stuff happens.
Make sure to communicate with your buyers, especially when they are kind and communicative with you.