Collin raye here i am lord

But I was told that there are blue lock leaks on here so here I am 🤭🤭

You had expectations, I fell short of every one of them.
This isn't going to be a letter about who hurt who. Not is it going to be about my sexual wants and needs.
I'm finding this letter to be, one of the hardest things I have ever written. This letter is going to be about my truths and exposing my own lies.
I definitely lie when I say I'll be okay. I lie when I say don't worry about me. I worry about me.
I don't know what to do anymore. That's the truth. I've given all I can. Still spent more. I'm broke. Running on empty. I don't have a will or inner need to fight. I'm alone. I've always been alone. My WBC is 14,000. My kidneys are Stage 3. I can't eat. I don't sleep. When I do, it's nightmares. Not a single dream. Waking up is even worse. I'm instantly upset, I woke up again. The pain of this disease is eating away at me. Right down to the fiber of my being. I'm covered in bruises. Not even sure how they got there. My entire life has been a living nightmare. Fight or flight since the age of 4. Abused in every way. I've never felt safe. Nor heard. Or understood. Always kept at arms length. People say I love you, it'll be okay. They say you can always depend on me. While already having one foot out the door.
The only thing constant and definitely love. Is my love for my children. I've protected them from the horror's I've endured. Kept them away from family. The fucked up place I was born. Prevented them from being groomed since infancy as I had. Before this disease I worked two sometimes three jobs to make sure they had everything they needed and more. I gave them something I never had. A fair chance at life. That's why I stayed single and only dated once in a while.
The truth is. I actually fuckin Loved. I love you. I don't care if it's returned. I've never really been loved wholeheartedly and cared for. Actions speak. So do the eyes. Eyes tell all the lies. Nobody actually believes their own lies, yet live them. As if it's easy.
My existence has never been easy. I felt as if I had found permanence, when you asked me to marry you. A place to call home. A place where I felt love. Experienced family. I was building a foundation. I believed you. In you. I believed in us. Our own family. There wasn't a follow through. Don't feel guilty. I don't blame you. I've always been the dog everyone kicked.
Katie, and Des, and everyone who has bullied me. Labeled me a narcissist. A psychopath. Sociopath. Even had meetings and continues to do so. Group chats. Telling everyone around me, I am this or that. Looking down at me. Telling me I'm less than. Not worthy of love or a single care.
I must say. I don't care that I'm not like them. They're the ugly ones. They have nothing better to do than stir the shit pot. At first I was horrified. Now I find it entertaining. I'm even flattered. My existence far from them, seems to affect them. My existence gives them someone to hate. Someone to talk about. They put in so much energy into lil' ol'me. Projecting their own self hate.
I'll never look like them or act like them. Grown adults, who claim to be Christian. They say they know everything. Katie even thinks the earth is flat. Ignorance really is bliss. They're happy. Proud of themselves. Claiming to be everything holy and just trying to help. Help themselves. It's okay. I feel sorry for them.
I will never fit into a labeled box. I don't want to. Or feel the need to. I'm glad I'm not them. Living ya colorless world. It would suck to be a walking contradiction. They live a lie. They're empty and plastic.
After all I've been through. All the pain. The suffering. I'm unapologetically me. Organic. Real. Uncouth. I live in truth. Beautiful lies are never going to be better than their ugly truths.
At least I can admit I hate myself. I can admit I'm flawed. I make mistakes. I've been sorry. The weight of the world has been uncomfortable, and messy.
What doesn't kill you makes you stronger. Fuck that. I didn't want to have to be strong. I am weak. I'm dying. All alone. We all die alone. Anything obtained physically won't be tangible to bring with us when we Parrish.
You all put stock into all the wrong things. Go ahead and covet thy vanity. I'm ugly. Never strived to be pretty. I'd rather be real. My pictures are unfiltered.
Every scar, every freckle, and blemish is a reminder that I have experienced life. My skin has been kissed and bled. Left with reminders that I am me. I can't be more. I can't be less. I just exist.
My synapses firing faster than quantum computing. Organic, human shell. I feel ready to shed my skin. Ready to be reborn again. For now I'll just be. Sitting here bending time and light. Ready to bend space time. Welcoming my essence to rush along the intergalactic highway.
Love. Unrequited. Love. I tried it.
You all can simply Fuck off. I'll be okay. Don't worry about me.

I don't get it, I get called for icing whenever I shoot the puck down, even if I'm a centimeter behind the center line, but the AI slaps the puck down to my goal line every 30 seconds from their side of the ice and the play just keeps on going every time. Am I trippin' here?

When launching the Create: Above and Beyond modpac k on Prism Launcher 6.3 , i keep getting error code 2. I am using Java 8
Here's a the link to the logs: https://mclo.gs/VRsw3XJ

I'm 55 with a professional degree. I'm thinking about a career change. I love working with people, am in good shape and have always been fascinated with the inner workings of our transportation system. TSO a viable option? My wife has a pretty good job, so money is not a primary factor. Anyone here join the TSA late in life?

Hi, all! My family is dealing with some stuff that I'm hoping to get help on. For context, my brother (20M - I'll call him B) and I (22NB) are from Missouri, which is where the child support is enforced. Because of Missouri's laws, children are entitled to child support from the non-custodial parent (for us, this is my father (50M)) until they are 21 years old, get married, or are not enrolled in school for 6 months -- whichever comes first.
My father is required to pay $600/mo child support for just my brother, but he hasn't paid since mid-November of 2022. He is now behind >$4k. Additionally, a court order requires that he pays 2/3 of all education costs (among other things he's not paying, but this is the focus of this situation). B was in classes at a local community college in the fall of 2022, but was unable to enroll for the spring because of outstanding fines/tuition that my father hadn't paid. We expected the issue to be resolved by now, planning for him to just enroll for the summer term to avoid the whole 6mo mess.
Except, that hasn't happened. No child support, no tuition, no nothing. Instead, I had to loan my brother ~$900 that I really didn't have so that he could pay off the school. Unfortunately, there were some miscommunications on the CC's end and the tuition hold wasn't released in the time that his CC said it would be, so he can't enroll in classes anymore. Which now means that he'll have been out of school for 6 months.
B's birthday isn't until October, so this is nearly 5 months worth of child support my family would be losing -- and can't afford to lose. The only reason he hasn't been in classes is because of my father. There is no job in the way, no relationship issues, no nothing. It is only because of my father.
It seems ridiculous to me that, in not paying child support or his legally obligated educational expenses, he's able to get out of paying child support, but I am more unfamiliar with child support stuff than I wish I was. I just want my family to be okay, but I don't know what to do. We're low-income, so going to a lawyer is only an option if we know it's worth it / we would win.
Is what he's doing legal? Is there any recourse that we can take that would protect his child support until his 21st birthday? What can we do here?

Today, I was stopped behind a car turning left. I looked behind me to see if there was enough room for me to go around them, and I thought there was. But as soon as I started to pull around, I hit a passing car. No serious damage to their car, some damage to my bumper. This is the second accident I've had for basically the same reason in the last 10 months.
I know both times were because I can be a little impulsive when I get impatient and am tired, and I just didn't take enough time to really look behind me carefully (today, I thought I had, but clearly I was wrong, or that person was already in my blind spot). I was more devastated by the fact that I'm a
How do others here deal with ADHD impulsivity and boredom while driving?
EDIT: Recently diagnosed, not on medication, 39 yo female.

Recent talk with my mum made me wonder if I’m going about weight loss in a unhealthy way. When taking away what I burn from what I eat, I’m left with 400 calories. I don’t want to endanger my health in any way. Although I eat 1200 calories, I always make sure that I’m nourished enough and not hungry. I don’t feel fatigue and lead a healthy lifestyle. 8 hours of sleep, 2.5L of water daily, etc.
Is being left with 400 calories enough for my body to function well? Or am I missing something?? I’ve read varying posts on different apps and websites and their comments. The comments varied too much from “It’s fine, you don’t have to eat those calories back or worry about how much you burn regardless of your diet”, to “It’s unhealthy, you should eat back at least some of what you lost”. Therefore, here I am hoping to receive clear knowledge or advice anyone may have for my current predicament.
I am a 18 year old female, 5’9 (height) and weigh 84kg. My goal is 65kg. To be honest, I am hoping to lose at least 10kg in the next 3 months, though reaching 65kg by then is really ideal… However, I will not go about this in a wrong way that will damage my health despite the fact that I want to lose weight as soon as possible and as much as possible.
The exercise I do is 30 minutes of hip hop dancing, 20 minutes of moderate intensity on a stationary bike and 10,000 steps (daily). 800 is an estimate without me being generous…
I appreciate any help I get, thanks.

Okay, first of all, this has NOTHING to do with design. I like the design. the hair, the motorcycle shtick it all just works for her. No, it's not even the crimefighting while pregnant thing (Though I still find it odd I mean I wouldn't but you do you). So any bigots or whatever fuck off. Secondly, I love this movies so much, it's just that this one character bugged me...
My problem is this version of Jessica Drew is... just... kinda an asshole.
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We're introduced to her in the opening fight seen where she seems like your typical, cool spider-variant. She quips, she teases, and preforms some badass moves all around. She also then pushes Miguel to add Gwen to the gang, defending her from the mistakes of the previous movie.
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This culminates in the gut wrenching scene between Gwen and her father, where Jessica supports Gwen by offering her admittance into the group. While this seems kind initially, upon completing the movie there are two actions which kinda seem gross in hind sight.

1. Jessica lets them linger on the scene, of a daughter and her father in turmoil and both upset, trying to get Miguel to agree to her suggestion... which is kinda weird considering there is no way Jessica doesn't know about Miguel's tragic backstory, and pushing that in this instance isn't that cool.
2. Jessica also knows about and firmly believes in "Canon" events, and the Canon event that is highlighted strongest in the movie is that usually, Spider's tend to loose their Police Captain friend at some point in their journey. So in that moment Gwen's father, a police man AND clearly Mr. Stacey, the usual one to die across the multiverse, her leading Gwen away from her father at an emotionally charged moment while his life is likely on the clock is harsh as hell.

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When we next see Jessica, she's scolding Gwen on her mishandling of catching the Spot. This scene was what tipped me off to her nature, and was really taken aback by her change. She initially gave off that wholesome "mom of the friend group" vibes, so much so that Gwen half-jokingly asks for her to adopt her. Yet, when we see her again, she's just cruel.
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Firstly, she scolds Gwen on getting close with Miles. She clearly knows about Gwen and Miles friendship/crush, yet gets irritated when Gwen went to visit him after months. Firstly, Ma'am, you and Miguel are the ADULTS here. Gwen is at most 17, and would in no way be in charge of whose assignments go where. Jessica jokingly calls her her star pupil, regretting letting her go there.... and yet while still knowing Gwen's conflict of interest, age, and the severity of the problem, she let her go anyway, yet put it ALL on her... not cool. YOU COULD SAY NO MA'AM. From the way they phrased it, Jessica could've let her not go, and have gone herself and avoided all of this... like, let her sneak off to 1610 when there isn't a multiversal threat!?
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What's even WORSE, however, is what happens next. So while we don't know how much she heard when it happened, given Jessica was the closest Spider she knew at first, Gwen's admiration from her from her coolness/saving her and Gwen's obvious behavior with not returning home, Jessica MUST know about what happens, yet threatens it subtly. Gwen asks "What if he sends me home." And Jessica just gives her a side stare. She MAY feel a little guilty, but clearly doesn’t feel it enough to act on that guilt, because right after she talks about how Gwen can't make anymore mistakes, gives her just an HOUR, and then basically gives a "you better or else" type of tone in her voice before leaving.
"Like, sure I'm giving you all the means to screw up and enabling you but if it gets to the punishments that's all you girl teehee. Good luck with your father threatening your arrest and trial for the murder of your former bestie!"
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She then shows up again once 50101 is starting to unravel from the Spot's crazy experiment there turning him into an eldritch abomination. (YES, it is Spot not a Canon event disruption problem... its clearly a giant black spot opening up in the city NOT the glitchy disappearing we see in Miguel's flashback.) Not much to say here she's just pissed, mostly at Miles.... can't really say anything against her here as everyone else kinda share the same blame here, that being being pissed at Miles yet not telling him why or giving any sort of information for him to, ya know, avoid the issue!
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She's then just kinda acting pissed off in the lobby. Like she dismisses that version of Spider-UK's joke, she doesn't seem to care that Miles is in pain and glitching. She just throws him a day pass and acts like his glitching is more annoying than anything. Her apathy is clearly shown in the chase too...
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Gwen's like: He's my friend and something feels wrong. Jessica's like: then use your head, before going to curb stomp Miles, literally aggressively kicking him with both feet straight in the gut... Madam you're a Spider-Woman use your webs. The point is to catch him and lock him up not kill him!
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Later in the chase Miles also beats her. First she tries to land on him with her motorcycle. I keep bringing up the violence because in the whole chase scene, she is second to Miguel only in use of force. Like, a few other Spider-men try to do stuff but nothing to crazy. One Spider tries to punch him, Miles gives him a look and he gives off a little Anime sweat effect like he feels bad... nothing like that from Jessica of course. He kicks her motorcycle away, and effortlessly webs her up before pinning her to a truck... way to go.
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I bring that up because, holy shit, the post Mile's escape scene is DRIPPING with hypocrisy. Gwen lashes out at Miguel, because she's a 17 year old girl who's upset about what just happened. The 30+ year old man then screams back at her, blaming her for his escape.... but let's be clear here, Miguel and Jessica both failed WAY harder than she did, by miles... pun intended.
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Miguel fought heard, but Miles ultimately outsmarted him, leading his army away and short-circuiting his suit. Jessica only got one good kick in and then in the next encounter got completely outplayed. Yet, when Gwen is like "Jessica, back me up." She's just like nah Miguel has a point.... excuse me?
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SO, just to put her actions in order. Jessica took in an upset and damaged teen who just went trough some heavily traumatic shit. She then took her under her wing, but also began enabling her bad decisions, which she knew were bad, but allowed anyway. She then kept doing so despite it producing bad results, blaming Gwen over her own poor choices as a leader and the adult in the relationship. THEN, when Miles is captured, he escapes on his own, and despite both adults fighting and loosing to him, blame Gwen...
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And Jessica lets her fry.
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She cowardly doesn't admit to her own faults in the events that played out, and lets Miguel put all his anger at Miles towards Gwen. She also lets Gwen get sent home. You know, that mega fear Gwen has that Jessica knows about? Her own reality, where her own father potentially will try to put her on trial for vigilantism and murder? You know, that HOME?
Her only defense is "I told you, you let him get away, I can't help you." What does that imply? If she succeeded, would Jessica have taken credit? Commended Gwen and let her get away with more reckless behavior? She shouldn't have gone, but Jessica allowed it. She shouldn't have gone again, but Jessica allows it. Jessica equally fails, if not fails more so, in catching Miles, and yet GWEN pays the price, being sent to an awful situation which Jessica knows about but clearly doesn’t give a damn enough about if she's letting this happen with no resistance.
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The only redeeming quality they honestly give her past her introduction is when she feels bad after eavesdropping on Gwen talking about how great Miles is, and all I can say is. really Jess? You knew Gwen for months, called her your star pupil, clearly spent a lot of time with him, yet didn't realize how much she cared for him?
Jessica's love advice is also about getting close to someone once, and then realizing they need to get over it. Now obviously she suffered a tragedy, so clearly that can explain her actions but doesn't justify them. To quote our beloved Rocket Raccoon "Everyone's got dead people, but that's no excuse for getting everyone else dead along the way."
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Her coldness, hypocrisy, and irresponsibility is not excused by her past tragedies, and goes against everything that stands with the Spider in her name. Gwen deserved a better mentor, and frankly I'm gonna be so pissed if her redemption, if she gets one, is literally just leaving Miguel for the gang.

I would like to apologize in advance, I’m a newer redditor and brand new to this incoming blackout and super anxious about it.
Many subreddits will be going dark in petition of the API pricing policy changes, and some apps have stated they will shut down altogether on June 30th. While I am in agreement with this protest since our voices need to be heard amongst this world of greedy corporations, I do have my concerns. This is my first time doing anything like this. What is the general protocol when something like this happens? Is there anyone who is more experienced with these blackouts able to reach out and guide me on what to prepare when these subreddits that I frequent go down? I am extremely worried and can hardly sleep at night. I’m only getting one, maybe two hours of sleep if I’m lucky. My performance at work is taking a drastic hit and because of the deficiency of sleep, I have constant mood swings. I don’t qualify for insurance for healthcare so I can’t exactly visit my local primary physician for help. All of my income goes to my increased rent and inflated food prices. The start of this month has already been rough for me. I’ve lost my hat, had to replace my worn-down shoes and my apple smart watch broke. This API blackout is just another issue added to my stress. Can any locals show me the ropes and help calm my nerves? Everywhere I go, I use reddit. My livelihood depends on it. I am shaking, getting light headed, and sweating myself as I’m typing this.
I’ve been hearing more and more reports of people leaving reddit altogether. They will be deleting all of their comments and posts before closing their accounts. Should I screenshot my favorite posts and put together a printed photo album when I want to go back to revisit some things?
I am mainly looking for information if anyone has advice on what to prep ahead of this blackout. We will not have any access to news, issues and events happening in our city when reddit goes dark. I imagine that traffic will be even worse than it already is because people will no longer be at home, on reddit. Combining that with speeders, slow people on the left lane, vehicles without their lights on in the rain and tailgaters.
Before you all brigade me for being a moron by asking what to prep and to “google it”, it was the first thing I did and I have some notes on hand. Just looking for the veterans to provide their wisdom and insight. Please stop the hate and be respectful. Reddit IS the front page of the internet.
I already have a few essentials such as a yearlong subscription to my local newspaper, bottled water that is not Zephyrhills or nestle, toilet paper, canned goods, portable AM/FM radio, an OLED Nintendo Switch™ with BOTW/TOTK including a battery recharge pack, candles, lenovo legion gaming pc for Diablo IV, lighters, tarp, sandbags, generator and most importantly, some pubsubs but there is no telling what will really happen until you actually experience it. Should I withdraw some cash on hand? How much? What will my reddit coins be worth? I made a regretful mistake recently of purchasing a very expensive reddit avatar nft as well and can’t refund it. I have some memes already printed out (majesty building mostly) and some printouts to simulate new posts like inadequate driving, traffic, i-4, what internet provider, BEST pizza/burgers/wings, epass or sunpass, hidden gems in Orlando, going to the theme parks will it rain, police/helicopter activity anyone know what is going on?
Discord is not an option for me. I’ve tried using discord and their pro nitro version but it isn’t the same as reddit. There are no orange upvote arrows, or karma and you have to jump through many loopholes to unlock different channels that I don’t have the mental capacity to learn. I joined the local gaming one and some user named rat mother personally banished me afterwards since they had a vendetta against me because I don’t understand reaction face emotes. So now I can’t even find friends to game with and play solo. I have not experienced this much toxicity since the days of ranked league of legends.
This is all just too sudden to go cold turkey from this subreddit with no warning. Will emergency services be open? What are the early signs of withdraw? Will Disney be open? Universal Studios Islands of Adventure? Does anyone realistically know where to specially get discounted tickets?
I do not have reddit gold/platinum at this time but will services restore to those who have those VIP features earlier than those who don’t have it? Or is it amount of reddit karma based? People who want to be ignorant and rude by saying “touch grass” need not comment. I have a medical condition that makes me severely allergic to organic wildlife matter. When you selected your starter Pokémon did you pick Bulbasaur? No, you did not touch grass. You went with Charmander or Squirtle. A lot of you might laugh and not take this seriously but I am a reddit pro power user. 93% of my phone’s battery app usage is for reddit and I upgraded my gaming pc to the 4090 for reddit. We all have our passions and hobbies and there is no need to shame others for theirs.
I’ve survived the hurricanes, the recession, pandemic and inflation. The death of vine, decline of digg, and the change from micro-usb. I don’t think I have the strength, the faith, nor the willpower strong enough to push through this blackout. Orlando is my home, my city. I was born and raised here. Even if we all leave this subreddit Orlando will still be with me, forever and always just like those who moved here from New York. They too, are Local and FLGrown. But it also begs the question on where Orlando Weekly will steal content posts next?
In the aftermath of all of this, will we all be the same person going in to this blackout as we are coming out? I have concerns that I won’t be “me” anymore. Who will take responsibility and be accountable for this emotional yet spiritual awakening traumatic event? The moderators?
[Edit] Thanks for the gold kind stranger! This is the way. The narwhal bacons at midnight (for those of you who are true redditors).

I have been dealing with undiagnosed chronic pain and illness for 3 and a half years. I have very recently been told it's fibromyalgia/CFS but I know they hand out those diagnoses when they can't find another cause for the illness. I can't help but feel like they are missing something though. I am absolutely terrified that I have some kind of cancer that they are just not finding. Although all my blood work has come out completely normal. No cts, x-rays or ultrasounds have shown anything I cannot convince myself that there is not more going on. I'm in constant dread everyday and googling things and making it worse and it's making my pain and other symptoms worse. I just dont know what to do. I want to believe that there really isn't anything killing me but how do I know? What if they're wrong?

Hey guys, I wanted to come here after making this post a few months ago when I was in the thick of schoolwork stress, financial stress, and applying for scholarship stress on top of that. I was feeling super discouraged as a non-traditional student about applying for much-needed scholarships because I am so busy with school and work that I don't really have time for extra stuff on the side that I felt like I needed to be impressive enough.
I wanted to thank everyone that left me supportive comments. You guys really helped me and made me feel like it wasn't a lost cause.
I still have a couple I am waiting to hear back on but the amount of scholarships I received so far really shook me.
Iv gotten five so far, totaling $9,000 over the next two semesters. Where I go to school that will make a big dent in my expenses.
So if you're feeling the same way please don't give up hope! Just apply for the damn thing!

I've struggled with suicidal ideation for most of my life, but it's never been as bad as it's been this last month.
some backstory: I was dating somebody for almost three years, but for the last ~4 months of it, they were cheating on me. I'm in a couple bands, and the homewrecker is in a bigger band. It seemed to in large part be starfucking, but that's beside the point. I was very aggressively manipulated so my ex could keep cheating on me, until they got sick of me asking them to stop seeing this person and broke up with me.
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That was over a year ago. Fast forward to early last month, and one of my bands gets kicked off of a show because somebody told the venue owner that a member of my band (me) was "abusive and transphobic". I traced it back, and these claims are definitely coming from my ex.
But here's the kicker: aside from the fact that I was very much not the abusive one in this scenario (I was being a huge pushover, if anything); I also frequently confided in my ex about my own struggles with gender identity. They were plenty aware of this, to the point that they even felt it necessary to tell my mom (who they know I have an awful relationship with) that they think I'm a trans woman. Which has been causing me a bunch of problems now too.
Anyway, one of my bands got kicked off of that show, and I just got kicked out of another one of my bands. They said it wasn't because of the allegations going around, but the timing and their flimsy excuses tell me otherwise...
Music is all I do. It's all I've ever done. It's all I want to do. I'm entrenched in my local punk scene. I work for an independent label. I tour a couple months out of the year with my band. But if my ex successfully cancels me, I'll lose all of that. Playing bass in my band is, like, the only thing I enjoy doing. But if I can't do that anymore, I see no point in continuing to live. What am I gonna do? Become a gym bro? Start playing in metal bar bands or something where they won't care if I'm allegedly abusive? I don't want that. I got so involved with punk and diy music in the first place BECAUSE there's an emphasis on upholding ethics and keeping the scene safe for people. But now that inclination to believe victims and whatnot is being weaponized against me.
Short of outing myself in an attempt to dodge the transphobia claim, (which I am so not ready to do, and could likely also be a death sentence with the way things are right now for trans people in the US), I feel like my only good option is to tap out and kill myself.
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Sorry if some of this doesn't make sense or is phrased weird. It's very much stream of consciousness at the moment.

Hello there!
Over the last few years I’ve been compiling/maintaining this list of trans books, and it’s been a while since I’ve made a post about it, so here goes. I would like to present my spreadsheet of 1524 books with trans characters (for fiction) or trans topics (for nonfiction): https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1MCsUmr4aZgsAGN2pqUK8H3dz07N8O3J4332Sx-v8MOw/
The sheet includes the following columns:
the gender of the trans character(s), grouped broadly into male/masc, female/femme, and nonbinary;
the character’s prominence as a main, secondary/ensemble, or side character;
their sexual/romantic orientation if known;
the marketed audience of the book (children, YA/teens, or adults);
and the genre of the book, though only speculative fiction and nonfiction are labeled so far.
I originally started this list with speculative fiction only (see here for my last post), which is why spec fic is one of the only genres labeled. I’m still deciding exactly what exact genre labels I would want to include if/when I add more genres.
I know it can be tough to browse a list of 1500+ titles, so I’m happy to give my personal recommendations if anybody has requests for specific genres, topics, etc. I’m considering ways to make it easier to browse and am open to suggestions on that.
Disclaimer: I have obviously NOT read every book on the list, so my information is mostly sourced from summaries/reviews and may be inaccurate or incomplete. I tried to only include books with good faith representation, and have added notes for potential issues, so if you see any books you know to be transphobic or otherwise problematic, please let me know! If you know of any books I’m missing, please let me know that as well!

Our cat 4(M) Tango started showing signs of lethargy 6 days ago. He threw up after eating on Saturday and once more on Sunday indicating to us he felt sick. He was still eating and drinking and using the litter so we waited to see if there were any improvements.
He declined further so he went to the vet on Tuesday 3 days after initial symptoms onset. He had X-Rays and blood work done. He appeared to have inflammation in his abdomen (triaditis) and an elevated WBC count. We brought him home with a course of antibiotics. In the past 2 months since his last vet visit he went from 14.6lbs to 13lbs.
Three more days of antibiotics and no improvement in his behavior led us back to the vet. He is lethargic and hiding all day but will come out if we open the wet food can and eats a normal amount and comes out to use the litter. We have not seen bowel movements from him in over 24 hours but he is peeing.
Vet looked for pancreatitis and ruled it out so far. His blood work today showed everything as normal but his WBC count has elevated further. We are waiting on a sonogram of his abdomen but she said she doesn’t know what’s causing his discomfort.
FIP was mentioned as a note in his file that it cannot be ruled out but after asking about it today she does not think that is the issue but again has to leave it on the radar because of his symptoms. We did adopt a new kitten 2 months ago so I am worried about the possibility she is a carrier.
I am mostly concerned about possible FIP and making a decision to start him on treatment whether or not it ends up being that. I don’t want to wait too long and it’s been suggested to me that we can treat him for FIP “diagnostically”. Does anyone have any suggestions?

Hi i am writing this 20 minutes after the incident. So there is this girl i liked for 6 months but she had a boyfriend at the time they broke up now and she knows that i like her. We have a music festival here for 4 days and she didnt have a place to stay so i offered that she could stay with me and she agreed. I didnt have any sexual thoughts about that she was gonna stay over. I was making her morning coffee's and dinners 1 hour ago i opened a show from my computer and we were watching it in my bed and we were cuddling. I was touching her but not sexually at all and my head was on her chest and i said if you ever feel uncomfortable let me know and she said okay i am comfortable. So i tried to see how far i can go i was inching my hands closer to her chest and when i got too close she said can you take your hand off my boob and i apologized and stopped cuddling with her. Now she says "im not like other women you've been with do you think i am a slut" that really hurt me cause i liked her for months and because of her i started taking antidepressants because it wsa very stresful. what do i say to make her feel better?

Hi, I am looking to buy a Xiaomi 13 Ultra Global ROM upon release but want to make sure it will actually work in Canada where I am located. I know it is not available here but I dont mind reshipping from Europe. The band comparability should be fine (4G and 5G wise), but will it actually let me set it up and select "Canada" as my country, use Google Pay, etc? If anyone has some insight it would be appreciated!