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Teresa is…so unintelligent. it’s hard to watch sometimes

2023.06.08 14:02 Ddaviz8075 Teresa is…so unintelligent. it’s hard to watch sometimes

Just watching her on part 2 of the reunion, a small part of me felt bad for her because she can barely put two sentences together.
What’s odd though is that she’s still very calculated and conniving. With those two things, she seems to be smart enough to act out. I don’t get it!
Also have y’all seen the brigades of Tre nuts on Twitter? It’s INSANE the amount of support she has. And they all go after melissa, multiple times daily with these vile posts. Not even her kids are off limits. I almost wonder if they’re people in Tre’s camp??
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2023.06.08 13:54 QazaqMunchkin Air quality

Is y’all dsp making y’all deliver in this bad air quality?
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2023.06.08 13:52 coldjyn Happy Pride Month Comp Apex Community! 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍⚧️

With all the… stuff… going on in the Apex/Esports scene right now just wanted to take a lil bit of time to shine some light on some of the amazing queer representation we have in the community. Would love for y’all to share some names that I missed/wasn’t aware of.
The Rat King himself: Mr. Nocturnal
Just what a fantastic person to have leading arguably the best team in the world right now. His stream is by far one of the most accepting environments I’ve seen in esports (unless your name is coldjyn 😔)
One of the longest standing Apex pros: iShiny
Shiny’s coming out message genuinely brought me to tears and was one of the things that made me want to be more outspoken about my identity. ALGS winner, former OW pro, what more do you want.
Apex’s resident bunny boy: Hambino
Hambino is such a great queer rep, just so hard to hate. Homie tweets pure bangers and is lowkey super strong, totally believe Hambino could take like 10 guys at once.
Insane mechanical talent and genuinely incredibly entertaining human being: wrthcrw
wrthcrw (wraith-crew) is such a good follow if you care at all about improving as a player in Apex. She’s one of the few people that makes high level theory on aim/strafe mechanics genuinely digestible and easy to learn regardless of the level you’re starting from and imo she’s criminally underrated, good human being all around.
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2023.06.08 13:39 ehead22 Febrile seizures and hospital woes

Witnessing your baby go through a seizure is already terrifying, bundled with negligent hospital staff, it is really traumatizing.
Last night (around midnight), we brought our son (10 months old) to the ER because of the spike in his temp (reached 39.6C). The ER pedia advised we can just return home and monitor our child for 24 hours and continue with our Paracetamol dosage. So, we did just that. A few hours later, our child started having a seizure and temp over 40C. As new parents with no experience at all with this kind of situation, we tried to rub him with a wet towel then rushed him back to the ER. Good thing my MIL is staying with us currently, it really helped my wife and I to calm down.
After our baby got his IV (I felt really bad and started tearing up) and his dose of Paracetamol, we transferred to our room. We thought everything was going well, because our baby started smiling again and being active. But around the 6-hour mark after the previous Paracetamol injection, our baby started convulsing again. The nurses tried to guide us on how to comfort our baby, and gave him a sponge bath. When they tried to look at the IV site on his right hand (it was wrapped with a clean diaper so baby couldn’t play with it), we saw blood everywhere. Apparently, the IV drip was out of the connection. So, the antibiotic and Paracetamol injection they gave earlier did not go through. We were frustrated. We complained with the attending pedia on why this was not noticed, but we were informed that it happens and our baby should still not get a second seizure within 24 hours. We were dumbfounded. They already had our boy’s blood checked, X-ray, Covid test, and urinalysis. But the attending pedia said we should get the lumbar puncture. This is when we started to refuse. Then they asked to do another Covid test (RT PCR), we refused this as well. Because they already swabbed him earlier, but instead of doing the PCR, they went with antigen (negative).
Currently, our boy has been feeling better after his IV drip’s been fixed. We will maintain our position about testing, and we will do our best to comfort our child. Seeing our child go through a seizure, his pain during the IV procedure, seeing him go through a second seizure because of the staff’s negligence, seeing him go through a second IV procedure… its too much. I feel like the past 24 hours has been a long nightmare. I hope we all go out of this better and stronger.
How did y’all deal with these seizures?
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2023.06.08 13:31 oofaloofa Bad sore throat. Anyone else? Could it be the terrible air quality?

Hey y’all! I’ve had a bad sore throat for the last two days. Feel it started Tuesday evening. I’ve taken two Covid tests (yesterday AM and today) and both have been negative. Is it the terrible air quality? Anyone else have a sore throat but no other symptoms? What makes me think it could be the air quality is that the soreness levels come and go a bit. It feels terrible and extra dry when I wake up, for but right after showering it’s not as bad. Figured I’d check here. TIA!
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2023.06.08 13:28 IAmNorthStrike This isn't quite how I expected this conversation to end up going

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2023.06.08 13:20 htizzzle One more movie

I’ve been imagining what a Better Call Saul movie would look like, since Breaking Bad got El Camino. How about a film focusing on Kim picking up the pieces and trying to help various victims and people on the sidelines of both Breaking Bad and Better Call Saul? She could use her skills to help make sense of the 6-7 year period of violence in Albuquerque.
The example that sticks out principally in my mind is Stacey and Kaylee Ehrmantraut. Neither have any type of on screen acceptance of who Mike truly was before he died. Kim could try to help them find his body or piece together his series of crimes, starting way back with the two Philly cops.
The second is Skyler and Marie, who likely still have an extremely frayed relationship. I feel there could be a story told where Jimmy McGill’s reemergence and Kim snooping around would cause those two to talk again, and hopefully sort out a lot of what was still unsaid between them at the end of BB.
Finally, she could also poke her head around the wreckage of Fring’s empire. I like to imagine she’d want to know more about the man she was tasked with killing who spoke to her through a cellphone like a faceless god. Maybe this is too hopeful, but it feels like in such a scenario she could potentially learn of the location of Howard and Lalo’s bodies, which would provide for her the same type of closure she might’ve helped provide for previously mentioned characters in this hypothetical film.
What do y’all think? I’m not saying I expect this to be made or that I even think it’s necessary, but just sort of fun to think about.
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2023.06.08 13:13 Ok-Knowledge-7980 VITV vs Voidwalker vs GITV

Hi, as a person who tried them all as one of the most important roles (greens, green/kiter, healer). Which one you think you need to be more skilled at?
Personally excluding the dps job i gind them pretty the same but if you include the dps job when it comes to do mechanics i think ht cm becomes a organized normal ht, yet with Dhuum and Ankka you gotta P R A Y to not get bad RNG with the echo and random running path or cc on group and ankka random mechanics. Beside that i think on Dhuum and Ankka DPS players needs to be fully focused on what i mentioned before while they keep good dps especially on ankka where you need to hit certain percent to get the GITV title.
What do you think?
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2023.06.08 13:11 deliriations I'm allergic to sunlight.

There are allergies that I bet none of you have heard of. A few seem common, like nuts or eggs, but other allergies, like water, you wouldn't expect to be possible. Right? And even if it were, how would anyone survive with that type of curse? It is real, and it's called aquagenic urticaria. There are only 50 medical instances known to science, and most of the people who have it have lived longer than you would expect. I'm not one of these people, but I have a condition far rarer. It is called Solisphobia pronusirrita. It is a condition, and I am the only documented human to have ever had it. When I was born, my mum told me that the moment the doctors put me in the nursery, the sun rays from the window hit my skin, and I immediately started to bawl my eyes out like I was about to die. While I was screaming, the doctors came and saw that my skin, where the sun had been exposed, was turning a light purple and grey. Immediately, they took me into a more closed area, and they diagnosed me with Xeroderma pigmentosum. It is a condition where you are irritated by sunlight. Not like what I have, more like you get sunburnt really easily. After around 3 days in the nursery, I was taken home with my loving mum and dad. As a baby, they said I was more silent than they expected. I only made noise when I needed something or had to go to the bathroom. They recounted my only experience as a baby when I cried, and that was when I accidentally went outside because they forgot to shut the baby gate. When I made it outside, they said they heard the most high-pitched, ear-piercing wail they had ever heard. When they rushed out, they found me on the ground covered in splotches of purple and grey. They immediately dialled 911, and I was rushed to the emergency room. When the doctor saw what had happened, he started to explain the severity of my condition. He said that with Xeroderma pigmentosum, some babies experience intense sunburns, and I was likely going to have to be treated with mild burns. When they took a closer look, however, they noticed I had no burns; my skin colour had just been altered. Obviously, this was nothing like they had seen before, so they started to document my state in case I had a new, undiscovered condition that needed to be documented for studies later on. When I was being treated, the doctor noted that the disease was hereditary. However, my dad quickly pointed out that nobody in either of our families had this condition. The doctor was obviously stunned and thought I had a new condition. After 3 days of treatment, they diagnosed me. I was allergic to sunlight. My parents immediately fought against this, stating that it simply could not be possible. They thought allergies were only related to pets or food. But the doctor calmed them down and explained to them what it was. "Your son does not have Xeroderma pigmentosum; it's purely hereditary, and he isn't showing any symptoms." What we have decided on is that your sun has an extremely severe skin sensitivity to sunlight. Xeroderma pigmentosum doesn't just apply to the sun; very bright and powerful light can have the same effect, even in cold environments. My parents were devastated. They had to take a break and leave the room while more tests were held to see what was truly wrong with me. Finally, after a full week, I was back home with mum and dad. I was around 2 by this point and had started to walk. The next three years were very uneventful for me. The only notable thing that happened was that my dog died. We held a small funeral for him and buried him in the backyard. I was 4 at the time and can vaguely remember choking on my tears as I sat inside and heard the shovel scraping against the soil and rock that became my best friend's tomb. I didn't go to preschool. My parents decided it was too dangerous, and the only preschool I could go to was around a 15-minute drive away. The school was much closer, however, so my parents thought it'd be safer and decided to let me go. They told me that they had a heavy argument over homeschooling but eventually agreed that if any incidents happened, I would be taken out of school and put in a damp room to be taught my ABCs by my own mum. On my first day, I sat in the room. My condition was only known by the teachers, and they made sure I stayed indoors away from any open windows on a sunny day. By the time the day was over, I felt upset already. I wanted to go outside and play; I wanted to have fun. Unfortunately, the choice of death or a few minutes of fun was completely different, so I managed to get over it after a few weeks. That's when the first incident happened, however. I was in my class when the teacher left, and out of curiosity, I followed her. Immediately, I felt a tingling on my arm, and then the numbness started to overflow my senses. I felt nothing at all as my arm started to turn a concrete grey, and I immediately ran into the room, crying as I rubbed my arm. The only thing I could feel was a slight tingle and an almost icey coldness from my touch. After around 30 seconds, the teacher came in and saw my arm. She let out an audible gasp, but before she could do much, the bell went off. She couldn't get me out of the room because of the sun, so she called a nurse. As the kids flocked in, they saw my condition and started laughing. I still remember the high-pitched voices squabbling among themselves. One of them came forwards, pointed at me, and said, "HE'S A VAMPIRE GUYS, GET AWAY." And everyone in the room sort of stepped back and kind of ran out of the class, either laughing, screaming, or even crying. That was the day the bullying started. I was eventually shielded with some loose blankets and taken home. I was crying in the car as I overheard mum and dad say, "We have to take him out of that fucking school. It must be hell for the little guy to be forced to stay inside and do nothing." My mum piped up and said, "Maybe we should give it one more chance. Hopefully it won't happen again. Please, Danny, he needs an education!" My dad sighed and pondered for a minute before replying: "Fine, 1 more chance. If it happens again, we will take him out of that school. I felt ecstatic as my dad said that I had another chance. However, I wasn't aware of the amount of harassment and bullying that was to come later down the line. After a week, I came back to school. I had been given an umbrella to walk around with in the sun. Sometimes small rays would hit my finger and it would sort of burn for a second before it faded, but apart from that, I had no issues. When I made it to class, I pulled my umbrella down and rested it on my leg. Instantly, one of the kids behind me picked it up and said loud enough for everybody to hear: "I didn't know vampires needed umbrellas; I thought they just lived in coffins." Everyone started to laugh as I cried. This went on for 8 years, until I was 14. The bullying had only gone as far as verbal harassment until I got to high school. I got lots of judgemental and even fearful looks as I walked around with the umbrella. It didn't take long till people called me a vampire or concrete, and it was devastating. I thought I would finally fit in at high school, only to be tormented on a daily basis and feel ashamed of my own body. After two weeks, my mind started going to dark places. I felt worthless and miserable, as if it were my own fault for being who I am. When I got home after another terrible day of harassment, I felt the urge to harm myself. I didn't attempt to fight it as I lined myself up at the window. When my arm reached into the piercing rays of light, my body tensed, and I felt anxious. The pain was mild at first but quickly started to elevate as I started to sweat intensely. After around 30 seconds, I pulled my arm away and saw that the part of it that was affected was almost black. I started to cry as the horrific sight stared back at me. Then panic set in as I realised the colour wasn't fading like before. In a panic, I got the biggest hoodie I could find and put it on. The pain stayed mild, like a buzz. It was the same feeling as a small needle going into your body over and over, constantly. When mum called for me to come to dinner, I started to panic even harder. How was I going to hide any of this?" I thought as I creeped down the stairs. Every squeal and creak of the wood made me more anxious as I was greeted with the smell of freshly cooked meat. When I sat on my chair, my mum noticed my expression and said, "Everything okay, hun?" Out of panic, she would find out, and I almost immediately replied, "Yeah, Mum, just school being stressful, y'know?" She nodded her head, and as we ate, I started to feel at peace. Maybe they wouldn't find out, and the marks would eventually go away. While I was eating my food, I went to reach for my glass of water, and I knocked my fork onto the ground. On instinct, I reached down and grabbed it. When I sat back up, my sleeve rolled down, revealing the mark. Immediately, my dad said, "James, What is that on your arm?" His tone was extremely threatening. I started to cry, and my mum forcefully grabbed my sleeve and rolled it up, revealing the mark. "NO STOP!" I screamed with tears in my eyes. "What is this, James?" WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ON YOUR ARM?" It's a burn from the sun. "HOW DID YOU GET IT?" My mom's shrill screams made me sob louder as I choked out the answer: "I did it on purpose." My mum started to tear up as I ran to my room. That night, mum and dad argued. "IF JAMES IS GOING TO FUCKING BURN HIMSELF, WE HAVE TO TAKE HIM TO THERAPY!" My mum screamed. The walls made it muffled. "WHAT IS THAT GOING TO DO?" my father yelled back. "All that will do is make him feel like it's his fault for how people treat him." When I finally faded off to sleep, I had a nightmare about me stepping into the sun and fading to nothing but a shadow. When I woke up, Dad was gone, Mum had massive black bags under her eyes, and she was smoking at the dinner table while she was on the phone. "Danny left. He's at his mom's right now. James has been having a rough time." My mum choked on her tears. I went back up to my room as quietly as possible. I started to get ready for school. It took everything I had not to cry as I walked downstairs. My black scar was still there. I sighed in anxiety as I grabbed my umbrella and walked outside. I felt small tingles as small rays of sunshine hit me, but I ignored the pain as I walked to school. When I arrived, the usual fuckface that tormented me was out front. His name was Brayden. He immediately shoved me and noticed the scar. "What the fuck is that?" He grabbed my arm tightly as he investigated it. "You're a fucking freak, James. How do you even come to this school? I don't get it" Rage pitted in my stomach and mind as I shoved him. "Fuck you," I replied back in anger. "Oh, you want to go?" He put his fists up. I sighed; I didn't even care anymore. Life wasn't getting any better. Punches started getting thrown. I was hitting him hard, but he hit harder, and I started to feel dizzy. Like a sombre scene, rain started to pour as we fought. He managed to pin me on the ground and was pummelling me. As a last resort, I felt for a loose rock and found one. As the hard surface hit his head, I heard the sound of squishing and cracking. He fell off me unconscious, and when I got up, I noticed blood on my clothes. The rain has started to pour now. When I got up, I saw that there was a massive crack in his head. His eyes were open, but he wasn't breathing. I ran so fast that I felt my legs literally melting. As I finally turned a corner, I started to cry. The crying audibly stopped as I looked at my arm. The scar was gone, but the thing that had me in shock was that there were small droplets of rain with a black shade. The scar had been washed off. I didn't shower that morning or that night, so it had not been washed off. I stared at the sight and started to cry. What was happening anymore? I saw a massive semi come barrelling down the road in front of me, and that was when I made the life-changing decision to cut things short. I hoped I would reincarnate as something beautiful and live a normal life as I ran in front of it. The last thing I remembered I woke up in a white hospital bed. The lack of colour almost reminded me of heaven until I saw the doctors. The IV drips and my mum and dad crying next to me I couldn't speak; all I could do was sit there, barely able to see. I remember blacking out again. This time, I saw some things. I saw a bright light, and I remember feeling the same pain as the sunlight hitting my flesh. The smell of sulphur and heat filled my nostrils with a sour feeling. Then, out of nowhere, I blinked, and I was in front of this light. The smell and feeling were so intense that I started screaming, but no sound came out. The pain started to amplify as I moved closer, unwillingly. I heard a voice boom out of nowhere, spooking me. "You are my only weakness." It took me a minute to realise what was happening, but I figured it out. The light was speaking. "You are my only weakness," it repeated. This "entity" was speaking to me. I could understand it. "W-What are you?" I replied back. "I am sün. I am a god, which you all bow to. I provide your land with light in return for a host. I was so confused. None of this is real. The sun wasn't actually alive, right? "What do you need from me?" I replied shakingly. This entity replied back. "I want you to agree not to interfere with me in exchange for your curse being lifted." I sort of zoned out as it spoke like it was hypnosis. I snapped back, however. "Anything.. please! I want my life to be normal. I don't know what I've done to you, but I won't do anything, I swear." This all felt like a bad trip on acid; I didn't believe this was real for a second. This entity made the sound of someone going "mmm," and it said, "I agree. You will be healed when you wake up. Your curse will be lifted. These are the only words a mortal has spoken to me and is likely going to speak to me for eternity." A flash of light then flickered as I awoke. My parents noticed me waking up and immediately hugged me. "He's awake. My James is awake." They sounded much less happy, but I could tell they were holding in emotions. It's been 10 years since that day. I do not suffer from that "condition" anymore. I can be in the sun, but I still feel uncomfortable under the rays of that entity. I was sent to prison for the self-defence man slaughter of Brayden for six years. I don't know what life is anymore. Every day I ponder about that experience. The doctors said my condition must have been either cured or immunised. I don't know where to go at this point. I can't even say anything about it either. Whenever I try to tell someone, I feel my body tense and feel the sting of sunlight. That scar I had is still discoloured. It's not black, but that area of skin is much darker than the rest. Not all allergies are natural. Some are curses provided by higher forces that do not want to be recognised.
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2023.06.08 12:40 Bakedpotato286 Did pathetic waste make you cry?

The song is a really good manifestation of self doubt / anxiety / a mental breakdown. As someone with really bad anxiety I have definitely had a lot of moments where I’ve felt like I was an awful person or didn’t deserve anything. Those intrusive thoughts can really get to you.
I cried for a bit after watching the music video and I felt great afterwards, like now I know I’m not the only person who goes through that stuff. I have never had such an emotional response to a song like that, it was just so raw and relatable.
Do y’all feel the same way?
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2023.06.08 12:37 Alternative-Cat9174 how do i stop ruminating over the fact that if he was a narcissist or not , and just accept the fact that he was an awful person? how do i stop thinking about him 24/7 ?

y’all please don’t be mean, ik it sounds dumb but i really need help. not only that, but ik this might sound like some “dumb high school bullshit” , but i really need help. also , i’m so sorry for being so annoying and for constantly asking questions like this on this sub and also throughout my entire account 💀.
so i don’t feel like explaining the entire situation between me and him here , so here’s a post explaining that happened. and also, some of you guys might probably remember me.
anyways, now that i think abt it , i don’t think he was a narcissist. that word gets thrown out a lot with no meaning, and tbh i think he was simply just a toxic person. me and him are both under 18 (i’m 15 and he’s 17), so he can’t be a narcissist , right? however, he did have some traits that makes me suspect narcissism: nice to me in public but was awful to me in private , lacked empathy , hit me out of anger and tried to make me think that he didn’t do it and that he hit me lightly , used me as an option and ego boost , and would think that he was better than me. not only that, but he constantly needed attention - and even our teacher pointed that as well multiple times.
anyways well , it’s been a full year and nearly 2 months since i went NC with him. as far as healing goes , i still think about him 24/7. however , i’ve been having a crush on someone else and i’m not sure if that guy likes me back tbh. you can even check my recent posts abt this guy.
anyways, i still think about him 24/7 but his actions don’t really bother me anymore. however, i still feel worthless and bad about myself bc of him, but idk i’m just too exhausted to ruminate and to explain the whole situation again.
anyways , what do you guys think? do you guys have any advice? do you guys think he was just toxic? how do i stop thinking about him?
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2023.06.08 12:34 Alternative-Cat9174 how do i stop obsessing over the fact that if he was a narcissist or not, and just accept the fact that he was an awful person? how do i stop ruminating and thinking about him 24/7 ?

y’all please don’t be mean, ik it sounds dumb but i really need help. not only that, but ik this might sound like some “dumb high school bullshit” , but i really need help. also , i’m so sorry for being so annoying and for constantly asking questions like this on this sub and also throughout my entire account 💀.
so i don’t feel like explaining the entire situation between me and him here , so here’s a post explaining that happened. and also, some of you guys might probably remember me.
anyways, now that i think abt it , i don’t think he was a narcissist. that word gets thrown out a lot with no meaning, and tbh i think he was simply just a toxic person. me and him are both under 18 (i’m 15 and he’s 17), so he can’t be a narcissist , right? however, he did have some traits that makes me suspect narcissism: nice to me in public but was awful to me in private , lacked empathy , hit me out of anger and tried to make me think that he didn’t do it and that he hit me lightly , used me as an option and ego boost , and would think that he was better than me. not only that, but he constantly needed attention - and even our teacher pointed that as well multiple times.
anyways well , it’s been a full year and nearly 2 months since i went NC with him. as far as healing goes , i still think about him 24/7. however , i’ve been having a crush on someone else and i’m not sure if that guy likes me back tbh. you can even check my recent posts abt this guy.
anyways, i still think about him 24/7 but his actions don’t really bother me anymore. however, i still feel worthless and bad about myself bc of him, but idk i’m just too exhausted to ruminate and to explain the whole situation again.
anyways , what do you guys think? do you guys have any advice? do you guys think he was just toxic? how do i stop thinking about him?
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2023.06.08 12:28 ComradeCrayola Persistent knee pain

I am an 18 y/o female, height about 5’3 and weight around 240 lbs. I live in the southern United States. I’ll preface with saying I am not particularly active, but I do a lot of walking and participate in marching band.
So the issue I’ve been having is with my knees. I understand that yes, I am overweight. But I will also add that I know many overweight people who do NOT have the type of knee problems I’ve been experiencing. Every time I do something that requires a repetitive motion with my knees (climbing stairs, for example) they will start burning furiously. I’m talking it feels like acid has been injected into my knees with pain so bad I’ve cried over it more times than I’d like to admit. Additionally, my knees do not support my weight very well (climbing into vehicles, for example) This is something I’ve dealt with for as long as I can remember. I don’t think it’s muscle related because my leg muscles are very toned. Mainly asking here because I want to know if I should bother telling my doctor or if I should just cope with it.
Apologies for formatting errors or speech not making sense. It’s 5am and I’m on mobile.
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2023.06.08 11:52 alexispbevels Feel horrible that the last 2 weeks of her life were of me force-feeding her liquid food and medicine every couple hours

tldr: Title. Rest of post is venting and explaining in depth what I mean.

It's been 3 months almost and it still hurts. I feel pain in my chest when I think of certain things, and one that hurts me a lot is knowing how once my bunny got sick, I was force-feeding her liquid food in a syringe every few hours, along with medication. I stayed home from work and barely got any sleep, to take care of her, but not much of that time was quality time. It was just that.

she hated it. she fought me every time I fed her but I still did. I would get frustrated. I was low on sleep and stressed and scared at how sick she was and my biggest fear was losing her and i lost her despite the enormous fight she did for her life and everything i tried to do for her.

For the last couple weeks I was the person who was holding her still and forcing liquids down her mouth. thats what she got to remember me as.

and then the night i sat down and did my taxes for hours (i dreaded doing it for weeks and of course i had to do it unknowingly wasting the last hours with her i couldve had) i got up and fed her and within an hour i was holding her as she passed away at home, on hold with the emergency vet on the phone i called when she started acting like she was going to pass, when they came back to the line I sobbed that she was gone. i have this horrible memory of the last minute or so of her life and how awful that was and i literally try to repress it, i cant think about it, it hurts too much.

i know she loved me, at least before she got sick, i wouldn't blame her for disliking me when I became "person who does thing you hate every 2 hours for days and days and days on end"

she was fighting so hard i really thought she was going to pull through. she went from having seizures every hour to having none at all for the last few days of her life. i would've made the decision to give her a comfortable passing if that was what i thought was needed. i thought all the pain and suffering was going to pass and it would be just a bad memory. but it ended up being the end. and that was what her last 2 weeks were. just fighting and pain for.... nothing? i struggled a lot with hating the universe/god/fate after that.

this post ended up being longer than i anticipated. i have a lot of things i repress and i try not to even think about this, let alone delve into it and talk about it.

((not even getting into the fear i have of potentially having caused her passing directly thru aspiration (unconfirmed) which makes me feel awful when i consider it and i go back into...trying not to think about any of it.))
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2023.06.08 11:31 ierrdunno Alfa Mito first car for a 17 y.o male - thoughts?

Not getting much work done lol, been tied up in the post about about Rowan Atkinson's comments yesterday but what I came here to ask was:
Is the Alfa Mito any good for a 1st car for a 17 y.o male? Been looking at auto trader and noticed there are a few at a good price. Autotraders review is hardly a ringing endorsement and I'll admit being led more by heart as it's a bit different to the normal 1st hatchback. Does get 4/5 for safety though.
Need to check on some of the insurance but got a quote for one that didn't seem too bad.
I'd be interested in anyone's thoughts, good or bad, especially any Mito owners!
many thanks
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2023.06.08 11:24 QuietOne9248 Just to make sure, who should I GI with the free GI ticket?

Just to make sure, who should I GI with the free GI ticket?
Photo 1 is my current team, photo 2 is legend Tiant, and photo 3 is a sig Jace Fry, who is out of the game and I got him early last year.
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2023.06.08 11:20 _blueFlames_ Milotic came in clutch against the champ

Milotic came in clutch against the champ
Meet the Hall of Famers
Metagross - Static Dragapult - Shadow Shield Mega Charizard Y - Bad Company Milotic S - Thick Fat Zarude - Snow Cloak Primarina - Stakeout
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2023.06.08 11:10 Alternative-Cat9174 how do i stop obsessing over if he was a narcissist or not, and just accept that he was an awful person? how do i stop thinking about him?

y’all please don’t be mean, ik it sounds dumb but i really need help. not only that, but ik this might sound like some “dumb high school bullshit” , but i really need help. also , i’m so sorry for being so annoying and for constantly asking questions like this on this sub and also throughout my entire account 💀.
so i don’t feel like explaining the entire situation between me and him here , so here’s a post explaining that happened. and also, some of you guys might probably remember me.
anyways, now that i think abt it , i don’t think he was a narcissist. that word gets thrown out a lot with no meaning, and tbh i think he was simply just a toxic person. me and him are both under 18 (i’m 15 and he’s 17), so he can’t be a narcissist , right? however, he did have some traits that makes me suspect narcissism: nice to me in public but was awful to me in private , lacked empathy , hit me out of anger and tried to make me think that he didn’t do it and that he hit me lightly , used me as an option and ego boost , and would think that he was better than me. not only that, but he constantly needed attention - and even our teacher pointed that as well multiple times.
anyways well , it’s been a full year and nearly 2 months since i went NC with him. as far as healing goes , i still think about him 24/7. however , i’ve been having a crush on someone else and i’m not sure if that guy likes me back tbh. you can even check my recent posts abt this guy.
anyways, i still think about him 24/7 but his actions don’t really bother me anymore. however, i still feel worthless and bad about myself bc of him, but idk i’m just too exhausted to ruminate and to explain the whole situation again.
anyways , what do you guys think? do you guys have any advice? do you guys think he was just toxic? how do i stop thinking about him?
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2023.06.08 11:09 sleepbunny22 You know the phrase “you can’t pour from an empty cup”?

Well at this point I’m melting the cup so at least something still drips out.
I’m exhausted physically, mentally, and emotionally. To start, my five month old has hit a lovely sleep regression. She won’t go to bed until 11pm or midnight and she wakes up at 2-3am. Half the time I have to wake up at 4am for work so I’m not getting much sleep. Even if I’m off or go in later I still have to wake up decently early to pump. My anxiety has gotten so bad but I don’t have the time or money to talk to someone. I’ve been doing my tried and true method of just pushing all my feeling down so we’ll see how long that lasts before I end up having a full blown mental breakdown. On top of all that both my bunnies died yesterday. Idk what happened as the one wasn’t very old. I know the air quality has been shit thanks to Canada but idk. I woke up to my younger one already past and my older one was got before the day ended. I’ve always had bunnies ever since I was 5 or 6 but idk if I’ll ever get more because it just hurts too bad at this point. I just want to curl up into a ball and drink myself into a coma but I can’t because I have a baby to take care of.
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2023.06.08 11:04 bitchinwitchy Witnessed strange lights

Witnessed strange lights
Back at the end of last year I had a series of weird things happen that I’m trying to process/get some insight on. It started a few months after I began experimenting with magic mushrooms. I had taken a fair amount of mushrooms before these events happened and hadn’t experienced anything out of the ordinary even taking probably close to 7 grams in a period of 2 hours or so - and did not have too heavy of a trip) I decided to start dosing before work which I figured would be chill as (like I said) I had already experimented and did not get visuals or feel particularly out of control. In fact it felt like I was a lot more in tune with my surroundings even driving and stuff.
With that said, I started taking about 1 gram or so every couple days and around this time is when I met Sue - a homeless woman who would come into our coffee shop almost daily while I was barista-ing. I was immediately intrigued by her and we became fast friends. She told me she was 67, half miwok Indian, half polish, and she was always dressed in a colorful outfit, beautiful rings, with her nails painted. She’d tell me about her tarot readings and we’d share a cigarette while I was on break. It was clear when I met her she probably had some type of mental illness going on because she would sometimes talk loudly about arch angel michael, money from god, and things that didn’t make a lot of sense to me, but I tried to remain open minded and curious with her. I even offered her mushrooms but she refused saying she had “enough spiritual stuff going on in her life.”
One day, after a particularly interesting conversation with Sue, I disappeared off to run an errand for my boss, when I came back Sue was gone and my boss handed me a tattered book. it was “A Life in Drama” a biography on Shakespeare or something of the like, and the outside of the book was covered in cryptic pen drawings like I’d never seen before. There was an inscription “June Sue I learn from you!” Which immediately brought me back to the first day I met her. She had drawn me and I had told her loved that I loved her name - she told me I should add it to my name and I agreed with her.
“your guardian anglebirth” it read. And there was a sparrow hawk, trees, a ship all sort of in abstract pen drawing. On the front, in small ink, less than an inch, there was an almost abstract looking shape and in the center was the word “love” - she never told me what the shape was as she didn’t remember drawing it but later my therapist suggested it as a picnic basket. Anyway, a few days later I went and had it tattooed on my arm because I loved it.
I was in the process of quitting my job around this time so I wasn’t seeing Sue as often which prompted me to think about when to go visit her. I was in no hurry to show her, I knew when the time was right I would go.
A few afternoons later, after taking about a gram of mushrooms I bought 200$ worth and then went to see her. It was around this time that day I started hearing voices I thought at the time were god and the mushrooms themselves.
It’s been a while since this all happened so my memory is a bit blurry, though I did write down most of what happened shortly thereafter. Anyways, there was something about Sue that I trusted. I really wanted to show her my mushrooms so I took her to my trunk. All I remember is sitting in the back of the trunk with her and all of a sudden these crazy lilac purple lights start shining down on me like I’m on a stage? This is in broad daylight on the street. I remember there was like a little noise they made I think, and it felt like i was in the twilight zone. It was so bizarre - I’ve never experienced anything remotely like it. And the only place they really shown down on was my face and neck (where I had lots of acne). As I’m like, what the fuck is going on Sue looks over and says something along the lines of “many gifts are coming to you.” ( like I said, never experienced ANY visions before and having Sue acting like she saw the light too makes me feel like something weird is going on. )
Later on back in her tent all of a sudden I start experiencing the most insane pain but it’s not physical. To this day I don’t know how to describe it but I was deeply uncomfortable to the point where I am SCREAMING in this woman’s tent and she’s telling me to quiet down so the cops don’t come and commit me. After that she gave me water, food, and it kind of felt like she could read my mind which is a phenomena I experienced a lot the next few days. Everything I needed she provided. I was completely depleted and weak. She was yelling at mysterious powers saying “earthangel June (me) does not deserve this!!” She told me I had been divinely poisoned by the mushrooms because I had not blessed them before ingesting them. Later that night she also tells me that her tarot cards told her a young woman would come to visit her and that I was she.
I slowly came down a bit. Sue offered for me to spend the night, but I knew I wanted to go back home, though it was past midnight when I got home. I don’t remember much of the mundane time between - The next morning I woke and headed back to her where I spent another full day and find out both me and my dads debit cards aren’t working, and Sue is unsurprised (I’m starting to believe in this weird matrix of energy she’s talking about and feel like I’m targeted when I’m around her, or that she has some sort of bad luck) She dropped many lessons about God, energy, and demons and doing readings for people, which I started to come around to that day. I noticed that even people I would have avoided or felt unsafe with on my own, respected her or at least stayed away from her. I have a vivid memory of her saying “watch this!” And then with a lasso motion zapping me energetically so hard it makes me wince. That day Sue piled heaps of designer clothes into the trunk of my car which had been donated by the wealthy. As she does this she handed me a piece of paper that had printed on it what I later find out is a piece of “They’re made out of meat” by Terry Bison.
They're made out of meat." "Meat?" "Meat. They're made out of meat." "Meat?" "There's no doubt about it. We picked several from different parts of the planet, took them aboard our recon vessels, probed them all the way through. They're completely meat." "That's impossible. What about the radio signals? The messages to the stars." "They use the radio waves to talk, but the signals don't come from them. The signals come from machines." "So who made the machines? That's who we want to contact." "They made the machines. That's what I'm trying to tell you. Meat made the machines." "That's ridiculous. How can meat make a machine? You're asking me to believe in sentient meat." "I'm not asking you, I'm telling you. These creatures are the only sentient race in the sector and they're made out of meat."
She asked me if I remember the guy who comes into our coffee shop with a helmet on sometimes, and I say yes, and she suggests he might be an alien because she found this on the table after he left.
It is clear to me now that day, November 29th I was beginning to open the question - who am I? I’d been curious of my lineage but also potential past lives.
I went back home that night and At 2am still hopped up from the mushrooms I put on some clothes Sue had given me and got in my car feeling called to drive aimlessly. After 15 minutes I reached a glowing indigo Hyatt sign and immediately pulled in. I had just quit my Hyatt job and figured at the very least it could be a job opportunity for me there (as I had just quit working at a Hyatt)
When I got there a short, beautiful, and politely unassuming woman greeted me at a desk amidst a beautiful well light welcoming room. She appeared to be completely alone and I immediately felt safe and welcomed by her, though I quickly revealed I wasn’t quite sure why I had intended to show up to the hotel. I went with the flow, the woman asked me if I’d rather be at a cheaper Hyatt down the road and I immediately refused. I went to use the restroom, when I came out there was a single strangely menacing, yet friendly guard.
I hung around aimlessly, asking if I could sit on the marble countertops - dressing and acting as if completely in a trance and unashamed of myself and still high on mushrooms. The woman discouraged me because I think I would’ve been seen on the cameras. Instead, I sat down on a comfortable couch and began to converse with her. I felt She was gentle and good hearted but I also felt we were deeply on the same wavelength somehow. She asked me about my life, and I vaguely mentioned it was changing deeply - referring to my experiences with Sue and Psylocibin, without mentioning them. I stared deeply and intently at her, listening to her talk a bit, while in my head I asking questions in my mind “who will I have children with?” “Where do I belong in this life?” Feeling desperate and exhausted by those questions.
The woman picked up her can of bright red coke with both hands, 3 fingers facing up on either side, and told me the answers would come to me in a dream. I broke out into surprised, joyful, and astounded laughter and exclaimed “holy shit!” Because in my state it seemed like she was totally clued into what I had going on. Then she said what translated to my trancelike state as something along the lines of, “this isn’t my first rodeo.”
At this point, I’m still in an altered state and believe this hotel is somehow heaven?
Once our conversation was over, we took the elevator up together, (I think she knew I was high and wanted to make sure nothing went wrong.) I asked for a room on the 4th floor, but she said an entire childrens soccer team was residing and that she’d give me the third. I laughed and thanked her. She asked me a few questions, I don’t remember what they were, but they were easy to answer and I only remember her saying “we just want to make sure what you took was clean.” I’m not sure what she meant by this looking back, but in the moment I thought she was asking me because there was something she didn’t want to share with me if the mushrooms I had taken weren’t safe. Like she wanted to check my purity or something (though I could be imagining that)
She lead me to my room, said I could leave the door open, with the latch, when I wanted to come down, and did not give me a key and then she said that she’d be with me all night long.
I put my things down, and immediately began to look at myself in the luminescent hotel room mirrors feeling a deep pain and sadness. I slowly and delicately put my hair up, washed my face carefully, got undressed and began to massage lotion into my skin for some reason?
Then I looked in the mirror and began to squeeze the gunk out of my skin, believing that I am somehow ridding myself of ancestral curses - famine, disease, rape, pain. I started to form a story line around potential past lives. I’ll spare y’all the details of the rest of my episode because a lot of it still doesn’t make much sense to me. But besides the light I saw, it’s little coincidences that I keep coming back to in my mind that are so strange.
Like, The next day I get a haircut, the barber is an eclectic guy and mentions my evil twin sister (something Sue also did) for no apparent reason (I’ve never met the guy before) afterwards I go to the kava bar and immediately meet a random girl who also seems to be in the middle of a psychotic episode. She starts talking about conspiracy theories and stuff and she tells me she is secretly a native woman who just appears to be a black woman. Then she pulls out a pendulum and refers to it as “this thingy” I’m a bit surprised because the night before Sue had shown me how to use one to read yes, no and maybe.
I take my new friend Candace back home with me (she reveals to me she has another name she only shares when she feels safe) I don’t remember what it was but when I introduce her to one of my roommates as Candace he says “oh no it’s something more ancient than that” which I find really weird because he’s never met her before (how would he know she had a second name?) and it’s just a weird thing to say in general.
I forget I have a therapy appointment that day and am all of a sudden skeptical of my therapist, Candace briefly meets her and then tells me “she was divinely sent” which makes me feel less paranoid and I remember expecting her to say something of the like.
It’s also around this time I find 3 dead birds on a bike ride on the ground (3 different species) within exactly 11 minutes and they seem to stand out enough to maybe be trying to tell me something. I asked my friend who is a medicine woman to interpret the meaning, and it feels pretty on point to what happened looking back.
In retrospect, not necessarily everything I’ve shared means something extra-ordinary, but I’m curious to hear some other thoughts on what happened, and the context.
I put my things down, and immediately began to look at myself in the luminescent hotel room mirrors feeling a deep pain and sadness. I slowly and delicately put my hair up, washed my face carefully, undressed and began to massage lotion into my skin for some reason?
Then I looked in the mirror and began to squeeze the gunk out of my skin, believing that I was somehow ridding myself of ancestral curses - famine, disease, rape, pain. I started to form a story line around potential past lives.
I laid down in the bed, bluntly put, grabbed my vibrator, and spent hours with a voice in my head I believe to be the woman. She was gentle, wise and delicate, and when I touched myself I felt it was not me but her.
She told me things I wanted to understand about original biblical references, the creation of Adam and Eve, or whatever names they were, and I saw and felt at times, that I was birthing other creations amidst the quiet, deep intense, solitude of our connection. It was deeply lovely. I looked at the clock and had an innate sense our time was coming to an end. Completely naked and feeling nothing but gratitude, love, and wonder, I opened the curtains and looked out at the most beautiful cloudy sunrise. I felt I was looking directly at god and not a word had been said all night inside the room. It was one of the most beautiful things ID ever seen - I was truly in it, and I just knew.
I forgot, that when I had first checked into the room I had texted the man I was sleeping with, whom I loved, but was feeling confusion around as we were staying only casually connected. I regrettedly called him back (he had tried to call me earlier after I had sent him a series of cryptic texts like “some really cool shit is happening call me when you can.”) I asked him if I could come over, he said “I have some things to do today, can it wait?” I said “no” “he said I guess I can make the time then, or something along those lines.” Still in a complete trancelike state, I got in the car and frantically drove to his house without any real permission, which is painful to think about in retrospect.
When I got there, I unassumingly rang the doorbell and he happily let me in as if, or as I thought, he’d been expecting me.
I crawled into bed with him and felt safe again, like I had with Sue and with the woman whose name I had learned was Alexandria. I thought I could relax, but then immediately sex ensued again, and I felt both more and less control than I usually did when I was not in this strange state.
I don’t remember much except screaming and crying loudly, calling his name and telling him I loved him (which I had never done before) and I remember him saying it back to me.
I could feel my spiritual energy was so strong he was responsive to it which was terrifying as it was so new to both of us. In retrospect, I feel we were-him most of all, somewhat blind to what was happening. Sue had told me we had the power to hypnotize men, but I didn’t think I would be doing that so soon.
Before I knew it he asked me if I had a condom. I said no only in my car outside. And he pulled out what almost appeared to be a flaming red one directly after asking me if I had mine. I don’t remember putting it on or taking it off. I asked if he’d had sex with anyone else and he said “last week” which was strange and hurt me because I thought we had been sort of accidentally exclusive for the majority of our relationship together - later he revealed he had not had sex. I recall holding his hand and showing each other the birth of creation, me showing him love perhaps, feeling balls of light and darkness as stars circle each other before they explode. After that I only really remember being on top of him, me in complete control, asking him to cum, him saying “I can’t” and then having a massive horrible realization, looking him straight in the face and saying, “ohhhhh you’re the devil aren’t you? You’re beautiful. Oh my god you’re beautiful.” He looked so beautiful and I held his face. Then I was professing my love for him again and again and again even though my heart was breaking as I did because I somehow knew the face looking at me was not capable of love. The rest was a confusing blur. I don’t remember much about leaving him except that it hurt me probably more than the spiritual pain I had experienced in the tent. I felt completely and utterly alone, heart broken, and terrified. Rattled, and in a daze I pulled up my phone directions, and drove for what felt like 20 minutes until I saw a beautifully insane woman, head hung low, dressed in black, almost like a shadow, sitting on the curb, both feet in the road. I slowed down, rolled my window, and asked for Sue. She said yes she’s already at the place with the TV, and she said she wanted something in return. She went to reach for my Bluetooth adapter and without question, I handed it to her. I had learned not to be afraid to lose things, my love and life was the only thing that mattered to me.
I drove onward, got on the freeway, and in memory, passed exits I recognized over and over again driving for what felt like an hour, miserable and screaming and crying in pain and fear, windows rolled down wind recklessly pushing and pulling at me, and calling out for Sue, understanding I was time traveling. I remember most vividly seeing the words “Richard blvd” (the name of my exit to Davis” at least twice between sacramento exits. I attempted not to doubt, only to trust, I would arrive home, though I was terrified for my physical and spiritual lives.
I don’t remember much about arriving home. I only remember being deeply relieved to be somewhere familiar again.
I would stay in this state a few more days…until my parents pulled me out, I believed my mother had died and I felt such agony I was screaming in the room of my house, my roommates rushing in to comfort me. I was not in control enough of myself to remain on those realms in any capacity after the days I had been through. I needed to be recaptured reraptured in love only my family could give me. And I am forever grateful they took me home to them.
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2023.06.08 11:01 ThrowawayF_NTX I walked out on a date tonight. I can't help but feel like sh*t about it.

Went on a 3rd date with a guy tonight. It went well up until I felt like he kept pushing my boundaries.
I live with a F roommate, whom I am very close with. We both experienced a situation when we first moved in together about 3 years ago. She brought home a guy she was casually seeing. The dude turned out to be a creep by trying to sneak into my room while she was sleeping. It was a traumatic experience for the both of us, especially when he became violent and stalker-y after we called the police on him. It took way too long for the police to finally be helpful about the aftermath (yay, TX... but that's another story). From then on, we agreed not to allow guys we don't know too well into our place out of safety. We do share our locations & let each other know if/when we will be home if we go out late at night (which doesn't happen too often because we are fairly introverted gals).
During my 2nd date with this guy, I was honest about this boundary my roommate and I set for ourselves, although I didn't get into the details of why. All I mentioned was that it was a previous situation that happened involving a guy who threatened our safety. He seemed to understand it at the time that I'm just so floored about why things happened the way they did tonight.
Tonight he asked if I would ever let him come over to my place. At first, I told him that it wasn't a bridge that I was ready to even cross yet, as I still don't know him too well. He then said that he could stay quiet and just chill in my room. I firmly said no. Then he asked why I am so adamant about not letting guys over. I reminded him that I don't want to make my roommate feel uncomfortable & asked him to stop pushing it. He suggested that all 3 of us go to dinner so he can convince my roommate that he's not a bad guy. In hindsight, I may have overreacted, but I had enough. No means no, in my perspective. I was reliving my traumas that came from men pushing their boundaries with me. I walked out and said goodbye.
I feel pathetic as hell. I was crying on the way home, hoping he would call and apologize. I should be proud that I was firm about my boundaries, but I just feel like an asshole. Why must I doubt myself?
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