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2023.03.26 11:24 Numerous-Forever-110 I fight my past mindset every day
I’ve never posted on here before but I feel so stuck and really need to get this out because I don’t have anyone in my life that would take me seriously and I don’t want anyone to think what I’m saying doesn’t matter. I used to be an internationally ranked athlete when I was 15-18 which had me training for hours most of the week. I didn’t know anything about nutrition or what it actually meant to get in all the right amount of macros and micros and everything. I thought eating less would make it so I would stay skinny and fit. I got to the point of not eating for days and when my dad got worried I’d eat a can of green beans or corn and a piece of chicken. For three years straight. During this, I was praised by everyone for the progress I’d made in being so fit and skinny all while hating myself. But even when I knew what I was doing was wrong, I fell into a depression and didn’t care enough.
Since then I got a bf that is so supportive. He made sure I was eating and loved me through all of the recovery, even leaving all sports. I can’t thank him enough for everything he’s helped me through. But every single day since I’ve gained weight I’ve felt fat and ashamed. I’ve had so many people tell me I’ve let go. Every single day in my head I think about the what ifs of me eating less and maybe then I’ll lose some weight.
I know this is horrible thinking and I’ve learned so much about health and nutrition but I can’t help but look at old pictures and mourn the body I once had. Even while I had it I hated it and I don’t understand why I want to have it again because I know the horrors it had on my mind. I even think about how now things are different and I could control it this time. That I wouldn’t fall into the hole I finally dug myself out of. But I would. I’m just struggling with this really heavy mindset and don’t know what to do. I stop myself from giving in because I know how it would affect me and I don’t want to disappoint my bf.
Thank you for a place to put this into writing
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Since then I got a bf that is so supportive. He made sure I was eating and loved me through all of the recovery, even leaving all sports. I can’t thank him enough for everything he’s helped me through. But every single day since I’ve gained weight I’ve felt fat and ashamed. I’ve had so many people tell me I’ve let go. Every single day in my head I think about the what ifs of me eating less and maybe then I’ll lose some weight.
I know this is horrible thinking and I’ve learned so much about health and nutrition but I can’t help but look at old pictures and mourn the body I once had. Even while I had it I hated it and I don’t understand why I want to have it again because I know the horrors it had on my mind. I even think about how now things are different and I could control it this time. That I wouldn’t fall into the hole I finally dug myself out of. But I would. I’m just struggling with this really heavy mindset and don’t know what to do. I stop myself from giving in because I know how it would affect me and I don’t want to disappoint my bf.
Thank you for a place to put this into writing
2023.03.26 11:24 Elusiv_Enigma I accidentally confessed to my best friend a few hours ago and I'm panicking lol
We met in college and hit it off instantly. A year later we've always been together and been there for each other through the ups and downs. Our communication often feels like it's fading because of our careers but we always bounce back like there's no distance between us. There's always been some intimate tension between us and we've made out once and came close to an accidentally second when she got too close to my face once lol but the comfort in the scenarios are so high when they happen everything is so fluid.
I was at my best buds wedding a few days ago in Dominican Republic and I got a bit buzzed and typed up a draft in her convo but I didn't send it because I knew she was talking to other guys and I was talking to other girls but we always find ourselves coming back to each other. I was reading my draft and fixing some errors and out of habit of proofreading and I sent it when it was okay purely impulsively.
I'm terrified because she often gets panic attacks when she gets overwhelmed by her emotions especially when it catches her off guard. But tbh I'm a bit relieved to finally get it off my chest. The weight of my feelings for her was getting heavier everyday and I was just holding on to it to preserve our bond and not complicat things also out of respect. But I realize she means that much to me and if I truly did respect her then I should tell her the truth.
Im just afraid of coming off selfish because I don't think I'm good enough for her at all, even though she depends on me sometimes. I just know that I personally have a lot of things to work on for myself ESPECIALLY mentally and emotionally. I'm aware that I'm broken and damage, so I'm working on repairing myself and yet she doesn't care about what stage I am in my life, she still always ready to jump in and stand by my side cause she knows I'll always be there for her as well.
All this to say that's is why I sent the message but I'm just not sure where she's currently at in her life, or whether or not she has room to take that chance with me on going further. Truthfully I don't think I'm ready either but I know I can be for her. She's only ever put my life at ease and call me out of my slack during my self improvement journey and the way we're so in tune with each other almost seems too much of a coincidence to ignore and remain silent.
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I was at my best buds wedding a few days ago in Dominican Republic and I got a bit buzzed and typed up a draft in her convo but I didn't send it because I knew she was talking to other guys and I was talking to other girls but we always find ourselves coming back to each other. I was reading my draft and fixing some errors and out of habit of proofreading and I sent it when it was okay purely impulsively.
I'm terrified because she often gets panic attacks when she gets overwhelmed by her emotions especially when it catches her off guard. But tbh I'm a bit relieved to finally get it off my chest. The weight of my feelings for her was getting heavier everyday and I was just holding on to it to preserve our bond and not complicat things also out of respect. But I realize she means that much to me and if I truly did respect her then I should tell her the truth.
Im just afraid of coming off selfish because I don't think I'm good enough for her at all, even though she depends on me sometimes. I just know that I personally have a lot of things to work on for myself ESPECIALLY mentally and emotionally. I'm aware that I'm broken and damage, so I'm working on repairing myself and yet she doesn't care about what stage I am in my life, she still always ready to jump in and stand by my side cause she knows I'll always be there for her as well.
All this to say that's is why I sent the message but I'm just not sure where she's currently at in her life, or whether or not she has room to take that chance with me on going further. Truthfully I don't think I'm ready either but I know I can be for her. She's only ever put my life at ease and call me out of my slack during my self improvement journey and the way we're so in tune with each other almost seems too much of a coincidence to ignore and remain silent.
2023.03.26 11:18 LiveLatex What are the most effective tips to lose weight in a healthy and lasting way?
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2023.03.26 11:11 newaccuser Some inputs regarding my situation and couple of queries I have Pls
Greetings! I'm 26 year old. Last year with a lot of motivation I was able to loose around 22 KG of weight in 4 months with intermittent fasting and walking. Was very proud of it but you know how people are, everyone around me kept saying things like it's enough and all even though I wanted to loose 6more KG to reach my ideal condition. After that for 6 months I have been somewhat inconsistent on my plans. At times I eat in a window, at times I don't, at times I restrict myself from eating bad things, and at times I just eat thinking it won't affect too much. The result is that I have gained around 3.5-4 KG back. And now I'm worried that if I didn't plan out and do things right, I'll loose all my progress from those months.
Now of course there are several issue, one of the major could be the strong motivation factor which originated from an accident, that cannot be redone (obviously), and I try my mind to get back in that zone.
I'm trying to plan out best course of action now, I feel summer is the time I can get more goals accomplished compared to winter. But I'm confused whether just to focus on fat loss or muscle building too and if so what elements are supportive in both goals and what are the ones which work opposite ways in both those goals.
I got book on bodyweight training, I'm planning to start incorporating bodyweight training, but again my major goal still is to loose a lot of fat fast compared to muscle gain, my only thing is to look lean and shaped, nothing like desire to make a lot of strong visible muscles.
I have used apple cider vinegar, but only once before eating, I could not figure out if ACV is safe to drink while fasting, so can someone confirm if it's fine to drink that throughout the day even during fasting? As I think it helps with craving alongside water. I feel like I'm staring from zero again.
Also, any advice about the balance of weight loss and muscle gain, knowing that me loosing the extra fat/love handles is my major goal. Gym are great but I'm thinking to keep things at home for now, I have 2 dumbbells of 5KG at home that's all.
I mostly went along with Dr Eric Berg YouTube videos for my info, most all seemed fine, of course not all I could utilise but will also like to know what community in general thinks about his information. One channel told to not to anaerobic exercise while he says to combine both. Which again makes sense but I want to be sure before I make plans for this year.
I think once I'm able to formulate a good plan that I can trust, I can follow it, but planning is confusing so please guide me to be able to plan my next 90days or so, to get a good change, of course I know few things will be life long, like better food choices and other things but still a good result can be accomplished in 90 days to motivate me even further.
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Now of course there are several issue, one of the major could be the strong motivation factor which originated from an accident, that cannot be redone (obviously), and I try my mind to get back in that zone.
I'm trying to plan out best course of action now, I feel summer is the time I can get more goals accomplished compared to winter. But I'm confused whether just to focus on fat loss or muscle building too and if so what elements are supportive in both goals and what are the ones which work opposite ways in both those goals.
I got book on bodyweight training, I'm planning to start incorporating bodyweight training, but again my major goal still is to loose a lot of fat fast compared to muscle gain, my only thing is to look lean and shaped, nothing like desire to make a lot of strong visible muscles.
I have used apple cider vinegar, but only once before eating, I could not figure out if ACV is safe to drink while fasting, so can someone confirm if it's fine to drink that throughout the day even during fasting? As I think it helps with craving alongside water. I feel like I'm staring from zero again.
Also, any advice about the balance of weight loss and muscle gain, knowing that me loosing the extra fat/love handles is my major goal. Gym are great but I'm thinking to keep things at home for now, I have 2 dumbbells of 5KG at home that's all.
I mostly went along with Dr Eric Berg YouTube videos for my info, most all seemed fine, of course not all I could utilise but will also like to know what community in general thinks about his information. One channel told to not to anaerobic exercise while he says to combine both. Which again makes sense but I want to be sure before I make plans for this year.
I think once I'm able to formulate a good plan that I can trust, I can follow it, but planning is confusing so please guide me to be able to plan my next 90days or so, to get a good change, of course I know few things will be life long, like better food choices and other things but still a good result can be accomplished in 90 days to motivate me even further.
2023.03.26 11:07 viennadoll “Wow you’ve gotten so skinny”
I’ve had body dysmorphia my whole life (legit have memories from when I was like 6 and hating my body) now I actually workout almost everyday for at least 2 hours on my exercise bike and noticeably lost weight which I’m happy about and feel more confident. But I hate the constant attention from family and family friends because literally the FIRST thing they say before even saying hello is “wow you’re so skinny now well done!” Which isn’t a compliment because it implies I was fat before and they said nothing. I was never fat, I was just average. I just hate that weight is the main focal point and I don’t need to hear it, it’s unnecessary and none of anyones business. It’s a sensitive private subject that doesn’t need to blasted for everyone to hear. Anyone relate?
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2023.03.26 11:06 Current-Scar-940 My doomer to bloomer journal: Week 1
Welp decided to start writing these journals weekly instead of daily other wise it would get boring and probably annoy some people lol.
Not much to say really for this week I can only repeat what I said on day one but I suppose I could talk about yesterday and plans for today.
Yesterday I continued my exercise journey with push ups, i'm getting better muscles were tad sore though but that usually a good sign meaning muscles are growing in size. I decided to treat myself first time in long time and saw that new John Wick 4 film and wow what film, don't worry i won't spoil but what i will say is, if you are a fan of John Wick series definately go see it in cinemas now while you can. Trust me be thankful you did.
Now then today, I suppose I'll rest from exercise and let the muscles heal probably ready for next week. I'm slowly getting my thoughts together with what I wanna do in life, you may have been nosy enough on my profile to get an idea but if not don't worry nothing too glamorus. It'll be difficult to learn anyways but if I can pull it off, then I can have a healthy sleep scheduele for life and a job I'll enjoy.
Well thats all for this week, I suppose, I'll keep you informed next week if you guys enjoy these little post. Anyways have a nice day, afternoon, evening wereever and what ever the time might be take care.
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Not much to say really for this week I can only repeat what I said on day one but I suppose I could talk about yesterday and plans for today.
Yesterday I continued my exercise journey with push ups, i'm getting better muscles were tad sore though but that usually a good sign meaning muscles are growing in size. I decided to treat myself first time in long time and saw that new John Wick 4 film and wow what film, don't worry i won't spoil but what i will say is, if you are a fan of John Wick series definately go see it in cinemas now while you can. Trust me be thankful you did.
Now then today, I suppose I'll rest from exercise and let the muscles heal probably ready for next week. I'm slowly getting my thoughts together with what I wanna do in life, you may have been nosy enough on my profile to get an idea but if not don't worry nothing too glamorus. It'll be difficult to learn anyways but if I can pull it off, then I can have a healthy sleep scheduele for life and a job I'll enjoy.
Well thats all for this week, I suppose, I'll keep you informed next week if you guys enjoy these little post. Anyways have a nice day, afternoon, evening wereever and what ever the time might be take care.
2023.03.26 11:05 KittenDealinMama My mother hates me for telling my sister the truth
Originally posted by u/feisty-art9149 in TrueOffMyChest on March 19th, updated as an edit undated.
Trigger Warning: Child neglect, mentions of mental health struggles and self harm
Original post
My mother hates me for telling my sister the truth.
I want to preface this with an apology if it’s all over the place. There’s so much information to sort through and decide what does or doesn’t have a place here. I will reply to what I can and make edits for any common questions/ remarks.
So a little (or a lot) of background is required for this to make any sense. Many years ago my mother had an affair that completely blew up our family. I suppose the affair was the lesser issue, but rather all her other actions that screwed many of us over. For context I was 10, my younger sister was 7/8 and my older sister almost 14- all female.
To start with, in the years prior, my mother had taken out tens of thousands of dollars in loans and credit cards in my dads name, of which he was never aware of. Ignorant, absolutely, but she had always managed all finances while a SAHM. She also managed to make 5 years of GST payments disappear from the business account, for which dad was then charged with two charges (around 100K in fines) of tax evasion on top of the missed payments.
All three of us kids had a bank account set up from young, which our dad had added to so that we would be in a positive position when we were older- for University, or a house deposit, whatever it was that we desired. Being saving orientated even as a kid, I had chosen to put 100% of any money earnt through chores or gifted for birthdays into the account. At 14 when I began working and gained access to net banking I realised mum had drained my account, less $50… only my account.
If that wasn’t enough, her own mother had stored a sum of money in my parents safe that was intended for her funeral. My mother took every last dollar and refused to pay it back- my dad paid it back with interest when he found out.
Due to the tricky financial situation, dad had to travel for work, wherever the trade was needed in that moment. Typically he would leave in the early hours of Monday morning and return on Saturday afternoon. In this time my mother felt it appropriate to leave us at home so that she could visit the affair partner, usually not coming home for days at a time. Nobody knew- we had no carers or access to resource as we lived a 20 minute drive to the nearest town/stores.
This went on for a few weeks before my mum (sometimes) contacted our cousin to come stay with us while she was out… To this day I believe that only happened because the other guy figure out what was going on. Due to timing of people coming and going our dad didn’t know any of this happened to until months later. I kept quiet because I knew he couldn’t afford to stay home.
All this said- I stepped into the parent role. My little sister was kept in the dark as much as possible, I did my best to maintain her same routine so that she felt as little impact as possible. Obviously she suffered, to the point of requesting to sleep in my bed every night for a year, but it seems that she doesn’t remember any of the shitty things that happened back then.
My older sister was very mentally ill, where I had to medicate her each morning and conduct daily body and room checks. Those who know will get what I’m suggesting… To the best of my knowledge our little sister never saw any of this- I didn’t and don’t believe those are subject such little eyes should have to witness. The older sister was also really ashamed and has asked to keep this situation away from the youngest as she had a habit of speaking without realising or knowing the potential damage.
As much as I hated the responsibility, cooking, cleaning, hiding the families dirty laundry; I was also very aware that what was happening wasn’t okay. That if I couldn’t keep it together and matters hidden, that authorities would become involved. Those times were scary but the idea of not having access to and control over what happened to me or my siblings felt like it would be worse.
These are only the first things that come to mind but the details aren’t exactly the point of this post.
Anyway, I guess my younger sister’s soon to be in laws have asked some questions, of which my sister doesn’t have the ability to answer. I would suggest she asked our mother first but the queries would have been shut down. I know she feels guilty, knows that she screwed up, and frankly I hope she never forgives herself for it.
So, little sister came to me and for the first time in 15 years I was willing to give her the answers she was looking for. I’ve always been vague, not wanting to cause her pain, but I’ve started feeling guilty in recent years for not treating her as enough of an adult to make her own decisions. After a loooot of therapy, I have realised that I don’t have to be their parent anymore. My sister cried, I cried, and she apologised for assumption made and words said because she didn’t know any better in the past. She needs and wants time to process a whole lot of information that’s entirely new to her, that has quite literally flipped the way she has perceived many people over the years.
Anywho… she isn’t speaking to our mother right now and that’s where it becomes my problem, I guess. She called me, blowing up, claiming I’ve ruined her relationship with her daughter. That I’m out to get her, resentful without cause and need to stop living in the past. But I don’t see how me being honest about her actions is my fault? Could I have filtered details? Maybe. But I don’t understand why I should have to hold onto the pressure of keeping her shortcomings secret. Maybe it’s time to grow up and pay for the consequences of your actions….
Edit: to add genders.
In the comments:
She’s never taken any responsibility, only made excuses. My favourite was the one for her leaving us to care for ourselves- “you all made it clear you didn’t want to spend time with me”.
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I feel like she thought she’d gotten away with it at this point and that’s why she’s mad. To be honest I only told my sister for selfish reasons… we’ve only in recent years developed a close relationship and I didn’t want to lose that if she became mad at me for not telling her anything. I know there was always a layer of resentment towards me for “thinking I was the boss of her”. She needed somebody to be mad at and at the time I was okay with that person being me.
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In some ways I think caring for them was all that kept me sane. I was so busy and exhausted by the day to day motions that I didn’t have time to reflect on my own feelings or the situation as a whole. Full survival mode I suppose. I appreciate that, a lot. I tried my best… in hindsight doing for them what I probably needed myself.
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She was cut out for a very long time. The stolen money (from myself) was the absolute last straw which resulted in me going no contact for about 5 years. Part of me thinks she was glad for that, too, because I’d threatened to press charges against the mystery thief if she didn’t fess up. But because of my sisters age, and her eventually choosing to live with mum, I felt compelled to be civil because I missed my sister. I live 4 hours from my hometown now, so maintaining a healthy distance is really quite easy.
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She’s 22 now and living with her partner. She and dad never had a strained relationship but after years of living exclusively with him, decided to spend the next few years with mum. Never any bad blood on either end where she’s concerned. They did divorce long ago, and as much as I find it strange, they still have a relatively positive relationship.
The money…. Literally who knows. Never saw a cent returned though! Dad didn’t know she stole from me until 6 ish years ago. Early on he was struggling and I knew he’d try to put the money back if I told him. He knew something had happened for me not to talk to my mother all those years but I hadn’t told him and she sure wasn’t going to.
Recently my husband and I built our first home and he was insistent on cutting “trade swaps” to save money which I strongly feel was his way of repaying her debt to me. He’s a great dad… has his flaws as every human does, but every step he’s taken has been with the intention of his kids not having to want for things as he and his siblings did.
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I only tolerated her in the past to keep my sister close- I don’t trust our mother to not hurt her in the process of getting what she wants. The partners family aren’t stupid and while they will hand out finance they will never relinquish control of it. If they suspect somebody of having ill intent, they’re cut out of all their lives. Mums husband does pretty well for himself and pays all their living expenses, but knowing her past will not give her unbridled access so she has to work to support her spending habit which is probably where the jealousy comes in.
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I used to tell my sister that I “don’t really know”, “can’t remember”, or “have only heard snippets of the story”, so not necessarily a lie but definitely deceit by omission.
1st Update:
Aaaand now she’s resorted to posting on Facebook, claiming that one of her “ingrates are spreading rumours to ruin her” JFC 🤦🏼♀️ I don’t even have Facebook, so not really sure what she’s trying to achieve in doing this, but an old family friend called my dad to ask what’s going on. Also, I’m speaking to nobody about the situation? I don’t even live in our hometown!!! If nothing else- she has nothing for me to ruin. No way I’m engaging or sinking to her level but seriously… what a waste of a person. Now the parents are fighting, she’s fighting with her current husband and shit is all around just getting messy. She thinks she’s making people feel sorry for her but mostly she just looks pathetic, if you ask me.
Update 2:
Turns out I REALLY don’t need to sink to her level, that’s been taken care of while I sleep. I guess mums privacy settings aren’t great and that’s working against her. The vague ‘woe is me’ post has been shared by three family members/ friends with a single, but far less cryptic, one liner. I’m told: “oh you mean the ingrate that raised your kids?”, “Should she be more grateful for your affair or the complete and utter abandonment of your three kids” and my absolute favourite (from my granny) “rot in hell you lying thieving bitch”
Reminder, DO NOT comment on the original posts or contact the original poster. I am not the original poster. This is a repost.
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Trigger Warning: Child neglect, mentions of mental health struggles and self harm
Original post
My mother hates me for telling my sister the truth.
I want to preface this with an apology if it’s all over the place. There’s so much information to sort through and decide what does or doesn’t have a place here. I will reply to what I can and make edits for any common questions/ remarks.
So a little (or a lot) of background is required for this to make any sense. Many years ago my mother had an affair that completely blew up our family. I suppose the affair was the lesser issue, but rather all her other actions that screwed many of us over. For context I was 10, my younger sister was 7/8 and my older sister almost 14- all female.
To start with, in the years prior, my mother had taken out tens of thousands of dollars in loans and credit cards in my dads name, of which he was never aware of. Ignorant, absolutely, but she had always managed all finances while a SAHM. She also managed to make 5 years of GST payments disappear from the business account, for which dad was then charged with two charges (around 100K in fines) of tax evasion on top of the missed payments.
All three of us kids had a bank account set up from young, which our dad had added to so that we would be in a positive position when we were older- for University, or a house deposit, whatever it was that we desired. Being saving orientated even as a kid, I had chosen to put 100% of any money earnt through chores or gifted for birthdays into the account. At 14 when I began working and gained access to net banking I realised mum had drained my account, less $50… only my account.
If that wasn’t enough, her own mother had stored a sum of money in my parents safe that was intended for her funeral. My mother took every last dollar and refused to pay it back- my dad paid it back with interest when he found out.
Due to the tricky financial situation, dad had to travel for work, wherever the trade was needed in that moment. Typically he would leave in the early hours of Monday morning and return on Saturday afternoon. In this time my mother felt it appropriate to leave us at home so that she could visit the affair partner, usually not coming home for days at a time. Nobody knew- we had no carers or access to resource as we lived a 20 minute drive to the nearest town/stores.
This went on for a few weeks before my mum (sometimes) contacted our cousin to come stay with us while she was out… To this day I believe that only happened because the other guy figure out what was going on. Due to timing of people coming and going our dad didn’t know any of this happened to until months later. I kept quiet because I knew he couldn’t afford to stay home.
All this said- I stepped into the parent role. My little sister was kept in the dark as much as possible, I did my best to maintain her same routine so that she felt as little impact as possible. Obviously she suffered, to the point of requesting to sleep in my bed every night for a year, but it seems that she doesn’t remember any of the shitty things that happened back then.
My older sister was very mentally ill, where I had to medicate her each morning and conduct daily body and room checks. Those who know will get what I’m suggesting… To the best of my knowledge our little sister never saw any of this- I didn’t and don’t believe those are subject such little eyes should have to witness. The older sister was also really ashamed and has asked to keep this situation away from the youngest as she had a habit of speaking without realising or knowing the potential damage.
As much as I hated the responsibility, cooking, cleaning, hiding the families dirty laundry; I was also very aware that what was happening wasn’t okay. That if I couldn’t keep it together and matters hidden, that authorities would become involved. Those times were scary but the idea of not having access to and control over what happened to me or my siblings felt like it would be worse.
These are only the first things that come to mind but the details aren’t exactly the point of this post.
Anyway, I guess my younger sister’s soon to be in laws have asked some questions, of which my sister doesn’t have the ability to answer. I would suggest she asked our mother first but the queries would have been shut down. I know she feels guilty, knows that she screwed up, and frankly I hope she never forgives herself for it.
So, little sister came to me and for the first time in 15 years I was willing to give her the answers she was looking for. I’ve always been vague, not wanting to cause her pain, but I’ve started feeling guilty in recent years for not treating her as enough of an adult to make her own decisions. After a loooot of therapy, I have realised that I don’t have to be their parent anymore. My sister cried, I cried, and she apologised for assumption made and words said because she didn’t know any better in the past. She needs and wants time to process a whole lot of information that’s entirely new to her, that has quite literally flipped the way she has perceived many people over the years.
Anywho… she isn’t speaking to our mother right now and that’s where it becomes my problem, I guess. She called me, blowing up, claiming I’ve ruined her relationship with her daughter. That I’m out to get her, resentful without cause and need to stop living in the past. But I don’t see how me being honest about her actions is my fault? Could I have filtered details? Maybe. But I don’t understand why I should have to hold onto the pressure of keeping her shortcomings secret. Maybe it’s time to grow up and pay for the consequences of your actions….
Edit: to add genders.
In the comments:
She’s never taken any responsibility, only made excuses. My favourite was the one for her leaving us to care for ourselves- “you all made it clear you didn’t want to spend time with me”.
.
I feel like she thought she’d gotten away with it at this point and that’s why she’s mad. To be honest I only told my sister for selfish reasons… we’ve only in recent years developed a close relationship and I didn’t want to lose that if she became mad at me for not telling her anything. I know there was always a layer of resentment towards me for “thinking I was the boss of her”. She needed somebody to be mad at and at the time I was okay with that person being me.
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Children (and young adults) get mad at the people it is safe to be mad at. It sounds like you took that anger to give her a safe space and a safe person. Now that she's of an age where she is old enough to hear the truth, where it's safe for her to be angry at your mom without risking breaking your family apart, you've given her the truth. That's quite heroic. I hope you find the peace and space to have a life of your own free from your mother's negligent abuse. You've certainly more than earned it.OP: I never considered the aspect of somebody needing to be safe to be mad at them. That puts a lot into perspective… thank you. Tbh my mother has no influence over my life or feelings. I stopped regarding her as a parental figure long ago so her opinion of me, someone she really had no part in moulding, means nothing. Don’t get me wrong, I do not place the blame for all wrong doings exclusively on her, but she was certainly the catalyst for most of the difficult seasons. Every action or inaction I’ve ever made has been a decision to protect the other people she hurt which only served to protect her from backlash and I think it’s time she faced up.
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In some ways I think caring for them was all that kept me sane. I was so busy and exhausted by the day to day motions that I didn’t have time to reflect on my own feelings or the situation as a whole. Full survival mode I suppose. I appreciate that, a lot. I tried my best… in hindsight doing for them what I probably needed myself.
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She was cut out for a very long time. The stolen money (from myself) was the absolute last straw which resulted in me going no contact for about 5 years. Part of me thinks she was glad for that, too, because I’d threatened to press charges against the mystery thief if she didn’t fess up. But because of my sisters age, and her eventually choosing to live with mum, I felt compelled to be civil because I missed my sister. I live 4 hours from my hometown now, so maintaining a healthy distance is really quite easy.
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Curious about your dad, how is he doing rn? After knowing the truth, did your younger sister go living with your dad? And did he divorce your mother? And all that money she stole, what was she doing with that money? Did you get any of your money back?OP: He’s doing really good, but of course had had a long time to pick up the pieces. In his 50s and still working 6 days a week- not because he needs to but because he’s never known anything else. His parents were immigrants so it was quite literally bred into him.
She’s 22 now and living with her partner. She and dad never had a strained relationship but after years of living exclusively with him, decided to spend the next few years with mum. Never any bad blood on either end where she’s concerned. They did divorce long ago, and as much as I find it strange, they still have a relatively positive relationship.
The money…. Literally who knows. Never saw a cent returned though! Dad didn’t know she stole from me until 6 ish years ago. Early on he was struggling and I knew he’d try to put the money back if I told him. He knew something had happened for me not to talk to my mother all those years but I hadn’t told him and she sure wasn’t going to.
Recently my husband and I built our first home and he was insistent on cutting “trade swaps” to save money which I strongly feel was his way of repaying her debt to me. He’s a great dad… has his flaws as every human does, but every step he’s taken has been with the intention of his kids not having to want for things as he and his siblings did.
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I only tolerated her in the past to keep my sister close- I don’t trust our mother to not hurt her in the process of getting what she wants. The partners family aren’t stupid and while they will hand out finance they will never relinquish control of it. If they suspect somebody of having ill intent, they’re cut out of all their lives. Mums husband does pretty well for himself and pays all their living expenses, but knowing her past will not give her unbridled access so she has to work to support her spending habit which is probably where the jealousy comes in.
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I used to tell my sister that I “don’t really know”, “can’t remember”, or “have only heard snippets of the story”, so not necessarily a lie but definitely deceit by omission.
1st Update:
Aaaand now she’s resorted to posting on Facebook, claiming that one of her “ingrates are spreading rumours to ruin her” JFC 🤦🏼♀️ I don’t even have Facebook, so not really sure what she’s trying to achieve in doing this, but an old family friend called my dad to ask what’s going on. Also, I’m speaking to nobody about the situation? I don’t even live in our hometown!!! If nothing else- she has nothing for me to ruin. No way I’m engaging or sinking to her level but seriously… what a waste of a person. Now the parents are fighting, she’s fighting with her current husband and shit is all around just getting messy. She thinks she’s making people feel sorry for her but mostly she just looks pathetic, if you ask me.
Update 2:
Turns out I REALLY don’t need to sink to her level, that’s been taken care of while I sleep. I guess mums privacy settings aren’t great and that’s working against her. The vague ‘woe is me’ post has been shared by three family members/ friends with a single, but far less cryptic, one liner. I’m told: “oh you mean the ingrate that raised your kids?”, “Should she be more grateful for your affair or the complete and utter abandonment of your three kids” and my absolute favourite (from my granny) “rot in hell you lying thieving bitch”
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2023.03.26 10:56 MelancholyCh I (23M) feel like being friends with my ex was a mistake and I'm hurting
So basically I had started dating this cool girl back around the beginning of the pandemic and it was going really well at first, I had never been in a relationship before, and tbh I didn't ever feel alone when I went on trips or did social gatherings, but when I met her, I understood how nice it can be to be in sync with someone, to have so much in common and to be with what feels like a best friend, someone thats on the same wavelength. I was super nervous always but always tried to be polite and as courteous, to the point of overthinking even the most basic messages.
The thing was that she was a cool person but over the course of the relationship, there were things that would happen that would make me sad or depressed, no matter what it seemed like she only ever wanted to see each other every 2 weeks on average(I honestly wanted to see her at least once a week or if possible like twice a week despite that she lived an hour away, i'd put the effort back then), and even tho I put in so much effort, I never felt like I got that back, I always tried to check up on her with how was work or life, and I almost always get the same 1-3 word response. I don't think I ever really got checked up on.... I honestly never felt like a priority... even when it came to games(and boy do I love games myself), it felt I always came last, never 2nd,3rd, or 4th. She's a cool person but.... she wasn't a good partner, I would get forgotten about for holidays we had planned for like 4th of July or new years. It honestly still hurts alot, and I wish I could let that stuff go, but when you feel more alone than ever when you're in a relationship is a type of pain I never knew you could experience. It leaves you empty, hollow, like a piece of driftwood. but I always thought in my heart, with communication and effort I could make it work.... I did talk about it, much more lightly than how I actually felt so she wouldn't feel bad or I'd feel like I was trying to be emotionally manipulative.... I had hope that she'd change(I know change is a big thing, and not always right to ask of but I was wanting to improve the relationship sorry) and put more effort..... hope just gets you hurt sadly. The relationship lasted about 1.5 years, until one day we split because of a specific circumstance, its not related to anything prior, its just a crappy circumstance that happened to pop up I guess.
I was really really sad and depressed to say the least, I was sad that it felt like I lost someone that finally understood me, I thought it was the end and that i'd never see them again and that in a sense they'd be dead to me perceptually cause the odds of running into them ever again if we cut ties is next to 0. So I decided to ask if she wanted to stay friends and she said yes, idk if it was the right choice then but I was scared of losing someone I felt so close with, and that was on the same wavelength in terms of how to view life and others, how they were kind to people and never judged. I tried getting some space and it kind of didn't work out since we ran into each other at an event a few weeks after.
I then got asked if I wanted to go to a trip to a con a month later with her and her friends and I being of the mindset " Sure why not, lets see what happens if I say yes and go against every logical thought", The day of the trip arrives and I of course still feel weird being around her, I just get a feeling of un-ease considering we had been dating up until a few months prior but I just shove it deep down my gut and put on a face of everything is fine cause I don't want to make things awkward. It honestly wasn't too hard putting on a face considering I did that constantly during the relationship for the same reason, I am a dumb people pleaser and hate myself for it.
I honestly felt nervous around everyone cause they weren't my friends, they were hers, I didn't know them, I knew of them... I honestly felt alone even with my ex there, I was worried... and it then got Worse. To say the least most people on the trip were wanting to do some gummies for fun, and I personally had never done anything like gummies or smoking before and didn't really care for it and just wanted to live in the moment, but I then got offered/given by my ex one, and I just wasn't sure, but I was put on the spot everyone waiting on me, I kept thinking "yes or no, yes or no" over and over. I looked at her and thought, I mean I dated her for 1.5 years and we knew each other for almost 2, she knows me, she's looking out for me right??? I can trust her right?!?!... I eat the gummy, not knowing what the recommended dosage for a newby is. it was over 12 times the max amount recommended...... I. I was high for 2 full days, and it was fine at first for a few hours I thought, maybe, but when you wake up and the feeling just wouldn't shut off, and it would still linger no matter what I did or ate, I felt so scared, and even more alone, I wanted to cry so badly, but how do you cry when you're surrounded by strangers and worse, her friends, how do you not make things weird...... I bottled up everything until I went outside and just cried alone while calling a friend, I was just tired of the feeling of not feeling myself, of everything feeling delayed, and not to mention that I was honestly thinking of seeking out a prescribed set of gummies in the future to mellow out my anxiety in the future, to calm me down, but I felt that was robbed from me cause I feel like this terrible first experience gave me some type of ptsd, I get nervous whenever anyone talks about weed, and my heart races nowadays when I smell it. The trip was ruined from nearly the beginning and it just sucked having that happened. We came back from the trip, I didn't really contact her unless she contacted me for quite a few months, I felt my trust betrayed, I felt more anxious than ever, I felt like my feelings didn't matter. I know she's not a bad person but she did some stupid decisions, and one being overdosing me for some reason.
I had decided to give myself some space, and it worked for a bit but knowing I still had contact with her still made me think of the lonely relationship, and the betrayal from the trip. about 7 months had passed and while we saw each other a few times, it was very sparse, up until one day we happened to go to a concert with some friends. Inside of venue before the opener even began the topic of the trip got brought up, she reminisced on how the trip was fun for her, and then and there she decided to casually say she was sorry to me about overdosing me, in front of our friends, in a very crowded public place.... I honestly had no words, and didn't give a reply, just stood there, hurt from the fact that it took 7+ months for an apology and it was done then and there.
From then on we hung out on occasion doing a events with friends and it was fun I won't deny but always at the back of my brain, I know I have feelings still, both from how happy I felt in the relationship and also the hurt and loneliness I felt from it, and then the trip incident.
It was then a few months after the "apology" she would then hype me up in front of friends about how much I took.... I had no response again, just staying quiet and keeping my thoughts to myself, feeling like I just got backhanded and made to feel like the apology meant even less. I swear she's a good kind person but. these actions, they just keep hurting me, and I keep wanting to bring this stuff up and talk about it, but there is never a good time, its been bottling up for so long now, its been over a year and I still have ptsd from the incident, I feel uneasy around her, and I just wish I could move one wihtout losing a friend, I just feel like no matter what I do I'm gonna end up sad and even more depressed. I have some amazing online friends who are a good support system, but in my town, I have only 1 good friend for support but we don't seem to always see eye to eye on quite a few things, and I did with my ex, and I just wish I had a better support system, had been in a healthy relationship, could be treated right, and not feel so scared and alone even after all this time. Idk if I should talk somehow or if I should just cut ties bluntly. It doesn't help that I already made plans with her for the next few months and its stuff thats already been paid for. I'm really sorry that this is so long, and am grateful if anyone bothered reading all this. I have these same thoughts going over and over in my head on an almost daily basis and I just can't stop them
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The thing was that she was a cool person but over the course of the relationship, there were things that would happen that would make me sad or depressed, no matter what it seemed like she only ever wanted to see each other every 2 weeks on average(I honestly wanted to see her at least once a week or if possible like twice a week despite that she lived an hour away, i'd put the effort back then), and even tho I put in so much effort, I never felt like I got that back, I always tried to check up on her with how was work or life, and I almost always get the same 1-3 word response. I don't think I ever really got checked up on.... I honestly never felt like a priority... even when it came to games(and boy do I love games myself), it felt I always came last, never 2nd,3rd, or 4th. She's a cool person but.... she wasn't a good partner, I would get forgotten about for holidays we had planned for like 4th of July or new years. It honestly still hurts alot, and I wish I could let that stuff go, but when you feel more alone than ever when you're in a relationship is a type of pain I never knew you could experience. It leaves you empty, hollow, like a piece of driftwood. but I always thought in my heart, with communication and effort I could make it work.... I did talk about it, much more lightly than how I actually felt so she wouldn't feel bad or I'd feel like I was trying to be emotionally manipulative.... I had hope that she'd change(I know change is a big thing, and not always right to ask of but I was wanting to improve the relationship sorry) and put more effort..... hope just gets you hurt sadly. The relationship lasted about 1.5 years, until one day we split because of a specific circumstance, its not related to anything prior, its just a crappy circumstance that happened to pop up I guess.
I was really really sad and depressed to say the least, I was sad that it felt like I lost someone that finally understood me, I thought it was the end and that i'd never see them again and that in a sense they'd be dead to me perceptually cause the odds of running into them ever again if we cut ties is next to 0. So I decided to ask if she wanted to stay friends and she said yes, idk if it was the right choice then but I was scared of losing someone I felt so close with, and that was on the same wavelength in terms of how to view life and others, how they were kind to people and never judged. I tried getting some space and it kind of didn't work out since we ran into each other at an event a few weeks after.
I then got asked if I wanted to go to a trip to a con a month later with her and her friends and I being of the mindset " Sure why not, lets see what happens if I say yes and go against every logical thought", The day of the trip arrives and I of course still feel weird being around her, I just get a feeling of un-ease considering we had been dating up until a few months prior but I just shove it deep down my gut and put on a face of everything is fine cause I don't want to make things awkward. It honestly wasn't too hard putting on a face considering I did that constantly during the relationship for the same reason, I am a dumb people pleaser and hate myself for it.
I honestly felt nervous around everyone cause they weren't my friends, they were hers, I didn't know them, I knew of them... I honestly felt alone even with my ex there, I was worried... and it then got Worse. To say the least most people on the trip were wanting to do some gummies for fun, and I personally had never done anything like gummies or smoking before and didn't really care for it and just wanted to live in the moment, but I then got offered/given by my ex one, and I just wasn't sure, but I was put on the spot everyone waiting on me, I kept thinking "yes or no, yes or no" over and over. I looked at her and thought, I mean I dated her for 1.5 years and we knew each other for almost 2, she knows me, she's looking out for me right??? I can trust her right?!?!... I eat the gummy, not knowing what the recommended dosage for a newby is. it was over 12 times the max amount recommended...... I. I was high for 2 full days, and it was fine at first for a few hours I thought, maybe, but when you wake up and the feeling just wouldn't shut off, and it would still linger no matter what I did or ate, I felt so scared, and even more alone, I wanted to cry so badly, but how do you cry when you're surrounded by strangers and worse, her friends, how do you not make things weird...... I bottled up everything until I went outside and just cried alone while calling a friend, I was just tired of the feeling of not feeling myself, of everything feeling delayed, and not to mention that I was honestly thinking of seeking out a prescribed set of gummies in the future to mellow out my anxiety in the future, to calm me down, but I felt that was robbed from me cause I feel like this terrible first experience gave me some type of ptsd, I get nervous whenever anyone talks about weed, and my heart races nowadays when I smell it. The trip was ruined from nearly the beginning and it just sucked having that happened. We came back from the trip, I didn't really contact her unless she contacted me for quite a few months, I felt my trust betrayed, I felt more anxious than ever, I felt like my feelings didn't matter. I know she's not a bad person but she did some stupid decisions, and one being overdosing me for some reason.
I had decided to give myself some space, and it worked for a bit but knowing I still had contact with her still made me think of the lonely relationship, and the betrayal from the trip. about 7 months had passed and while we saw each other a few times, it was very sparse, up until one day we happened to go to a concert with some friends. Inside of venue before the opener even began the topic of the trip got brought up, she reminisced on how the trip was fun for her, and then and there she decided to casually say she was sorry to me about overdosing me, in front of our friends, in a very crowded public place.... I honestly had no words, and didn't give a reply, just stood there, hurt from the fact that it took 7+ months for an apology and it was done then and there.
From then on we hung out on occasion doing a events with friends and it was fun I won't deny but always at the back of my brain, I know I have feelings still, both from how happy I felt in the relationship and also the hurt and loneliness I felt from it, and then the trip incident.
It was then a few months after the "apology" she would then hype me up in front of friends about how much I took.... I had no response again, just staying quiet and keeping my thoughts to myself, feeling like I just got backhanded and made to feel like the apology meant even less. I swear she's a good kind person but. these actions, they just keep hurting me, and I keep wanting to bring this stuff up and talk about it, but there is never a good time, its been bottling up for so long now, its been over a year and I still have ptsd from the incident, I feel uneasy around her, and I just wish I could move one wihtout losing a friend, I just feel like no matter what I do I'm gonna end up sad and even more depressed. I have some amazing online friends who are a good support system, but in my town, I have only 1 good friend for support but we don't seem to always see eye to eye on quite a few things, and I did with my ex, and I just wish I had a better support system, had been in a healthy relationship, could be treated right, and not feel so scared and alone even after all this time. Idk if I should talk somehow or if I should just cut ties bluntly. It doesn't help that I already made plans with her for the next few months and its stuff thats already been paid for. I'm really sorry that this is so long, and am grateful if anyone bothered reading all this. I have these same thoughts going over and over in my head on an almost daily basis and I just can't stop them
2023.03.26 10:54 billygunnns 28 [M4F] USA. Let's fall asleep In a voice call together.
One of my favorite things to do is have long voice calls, talking about anything and everything. I'm very open minded and love to listen. I've dealt with a lot in my life so If you have also dealt with a lot or are dealing with a lot I'd love to someone to talk to, maybe make it a daily thing eventually and maybe love?
I'm not huge into games really I only casually play things, I'd much rather watch movies, shows and videos together! One of my favorite things to do is watching things with someone and I like to watch basically anything.
I enjoy true crime, supernatural, cryptids and folklore. I'm somewhat into the spiritual but it's okay if you're not. I like a ton of different music and would definitely like to share it if you're one who likes stuff that's a little off the mainstream!
I'm trying to keep this short but I could go on and on but I'd much prefer talking over a call! I might be a tiny bit shy at first though! I have no preferences at all for looks or weight and as for age just somewhat close to me. I find everyone who has a good personality attractive.I can give pictures of myself if you want but you don't have to at all. It doesn't matter to me where you are in life or your situation. All I care about is what's inside and the type of person you are and how you act towards me.
Looking forward to a long voice call and sometimes falling asleep on a call is just what you need for a good night sleep. Here is me if that matters but I don't care about appearance one bit. Me
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I'm not huge into games really I only casually play things, I'd much rather watch movies, shows and videos together! One of my favorite things to do is watching things with someone and I like to watch basically anything.
I enjoy true crime, supernatural, cryptids and folklore. I'm somewhat into the spiritual but it's okay if you're not. I like a ton of different music and would definitely like to share it if you're one who likes stuff that's a little off the mainstream!
I'm trying to keep this short but I could go on and on but I'd much prefer talking over a call! I might be a tiny bit shy at first though! I have no preferences at all for looks or weight and as for age just somewhat close to me. I find everyone who has a good personality attractive.I can give pictures of myself if you want but you don't have to at all. It doesn't matter to me where you are in life or your situation. All I care about is what's inside and the type of person you are and how you act towards me.
Looking forward to a long voice call and sometimes falling asleep on a call is just what you need for a good night sleep. Here is me if that matters but I don't care about appearance one bit. Me
2023.03.26 10:51 billygunnns 28 [M4F] USA. Let's fall asleep In a voice call together.
One of my favorite things to do is have long voice calls, talking about anything and everything. I'm very open minded and love to listen. I've dealt with a lot in my life so If you have also dealt with a lot or are dealing with a lot I'd love to someone to talk to, maybe make it a daily thing eventually.
I'm not huge into games really I only casually play things, I'd much rather watch movies, shows and videos together! One of my favorite things to do is watching things with someone and I like to watch basically anything.
I enjoy true crime, supernatural, cryptids and folklore. I'm somewhat into the spiritual but it's okay if you're not. I like a ton of different music and would definitely like to share it if you're one who likes stuff that's a little off the mainstream!
I'm trying to keep this short but I could go on and on but I'd much prefer talking over a call! I might be a tiny bit shy at first though! I have no preferences at all for looks or weight and as for age just somewhat close to me. I find everyone who has a good personality attractive.I can give pictures of myself if you want but you don't have to at all. It doesn't matter to me where you are in life or your situation. All I care about is what's inside and the type of person you are and how you act towards me.
Looking forward to a long voice call and sometimes falling asleep on a call is just what you need for a good night sleep. Here is me if that matters but I don't care about appearance one bit. Me
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I'm not huge into games really I only casually play things, I'd much rather watch movies, shows and videos together! One of my favorite things to do is watching things with someone and I like to watch basically anything.
I enjoy true crime, supernatural, cryptids and folklore. I'm somewhat into the spiritual but it's okay if you're not. I like a ton of different music and would definitely like to share it if you're one who likes stuff that's a little off the mainstream!
I'm trying to keep this short but I could go on and on but I'd much prefer talking over a call! I might be a tiny bit shy at first though! I have no preferences at all for looks or weight and as for age just somewhat close to me. I find everyone who has a good personality attractive.I can give pictures of myself if you want but you don't have to at all. It doesn't matter to me where you are in life or your situation. All I care about is what's inside and the type of person you are and how you act towards me.
Looking forward to a long voice call and sometimes falling asleep on a call is just what you need for a good night sleep. Here is me if that matters but I don't care about appearance one bit. Me
2023.03.26 10:50 MelancholyCh I (23 M) have been trying to to stay friends with my ex, and I think its been hurting me severely.
So basically I had started dating this cool girl back around the beginning of the pandemic and it was going really well at first, I had never been in a relationship before, and tbh I didn't ever feel alone when I went on trips or did social gatherings, but when I met her, I understood how nice it can be to be in sync with someone, to have so much in common and to be with what feels like a best friend, someone thats on the same wavelength. I was super nervous always but always tried to be polite and as courteous, to the point of overthinking even the most basic messages.
The thing was that she was a cool person but over the course of the relationship, there were things that would happen that would make me sad or depressed, no matter what it seemed like she only ever wanted to see each other every 2 weeks on average(I honestly wanted to see her at least once a week or if possible like twice a week despite that she lived an hour away, i'd put the effort back then), and even tho I put in so much effort, I never felt like I got that back, I always tried to check up on her with how was work or life, and I almost always get the same 1-3 word response. I don't think I ever really got checked up on.... I honestly never felt like a priority... even when it came to games(and boy do I love games myself), it felt I always came last, never 2nd,3rd, or 4th. She's a cool person but.... she wasn't a good partner, I would get forgotten about for holidays we had planned for like 4th of July or new years. It honestly still hurts alot, and I wish I could let that stuff go, but when you feel more alone than ever when you're in a relationship is a type of pain I never knew you could experience. It leaves you empty, hollow, like a piece of driftwood. but I always thought in my heart, with communication and effort I could make it work.... I did talk about it, much more lightly than how I actually felt so she wouldn't feel bad or I'd feel like I was trying to be emotionally manipulative.... I had hope that she'd change(I know change is a big thing, and not always right to ask of but I was wanting to improve the relationship sorry) and put more effort..... hope just gets you hurt sadly. The relationship lasted about 1.5 years, until one day we split because of a specific circumstance, its not related to anything prior, its just a crappy circumstance that happened to pop up I guess.
I was really really sad and depressed to say the least, I was sad that it felt like I lost someone that finally understood me, I thought it was the end and that i'd never see them again and that in a sense they'd be dead to me perceptually cause the odds of running into them ever again if we cut ties is next to 0. So I decided to ask if she wanted to stay friends and she said yes, idk if it was the right choice then but I was scared of losing someone I felt so close with, and that was on the same wavelength in terms of how to view life and others, how they were kind to people and never judged. I tried getting some space and it kind of didn't work out since we ran into each other at an event a few weeks after.
I then got asked if I wanted to go to a trip to a con a month later with her and her friends and I being of the mindset " Sure why not, lets see what happens if I say yes and go against every logical thought", The day of the trip arrives and I of course still feel weird being around her, I just get a feeling of un-ease considering we had been dating up until a few months prior but I just shove it deep down my gut and put on a face of everything is fine cause I don't want to make things awkward. It honestly wasn't too hard putting on a face considering I did that constantly during the relationship for the same reason, I am a dumb people pleaser and hate myself for it.
I honestly felt nervous around everyone cause they weren't my friends, they were hers, I didn't know them, I knew of them... I honestly felt alone even with my ex there, I was worried... and it then got Worse. To say the least most people on the trip were wanting to do some gummies for fun, and I personally had never done anything like gummies or smoking before and didn't really care for it and just wanted to live in the moment, but I then got offered/given by my ex one, and I just wasn't sure, but I was put on the spot everyone waiting on me, I kept thinking "yes or no, yes or no" over and over. I looked at her and thought, I mean I dated her for 1.5 years and we knew each other for almost 2, she knows me, she's looking out for me right??? I can trust her right?!?!... I eat the gummy, not knowing what the recommended dosage for a newby is. it was over 12 times the max amount recommended...... I. I was high for 2 full days, and it was fine at first for a few hours I thought, maybe, but when you wake up and the feeling just wouldn't shut off, and it would still linger no matter what I did or ate, I felt so scared, and even more alone, I wanted to cry so badly, but how do you cry when you're surrounded by strangers and worse, her friends, how do you not make things weird...... I bottled up everything until I went outside and just cried alone while calling a friend, I was just tired of the feeling of not feeling myself, of everything feeling delayed, and not to mention that I was honestly thinking of seeking out a prescribed set of gummies in the future to mellow out my anxiety in the future, to calm me down, but I felt that was robbed from me cause I feel like this terrible first experience gave me some type of ptsd, I get nervous whenever anyone talks about weed, and my heart races nowadays when I smell it. The trip was ruined from nearly the beginning and it just sucked having that happened. We came back from the trip, I didn't really contact her unless she contacted me for quite a few months, I felt my trust betrayed, I felt more anxious than ever, I felt like my feelings didn't matter. I know she's not a bad person but she did some stupid decisions, and one being overdosing me for some reason.
I had decided to give myself some space, and it worked for a bit but knowing I still had contact with her still made me think of the lonely relationship, and the betrayal from the trip. about 7 months had passed and while we saw each other a few times, it was very sparse, up until one day we happened to go to a concert with some friends. Inside of venue before the opener even began the topic of the trip got brought up, she reminisced on how the trip was fun for her, and then and there she decided to casually say she was sorry to me about overdosing me, in front of our friends, in a very crowded public place.... I honestly had no words, and didn't give a reply, just stood there, hurt from the fact that it took 7+ months for an apology and it was done then and there.
From then on we hung out on occasion doing a events with friends and it was fun I won't deny but always at the back of my brain, I know I have feelings still, both from how happy I felt in the relationship and also the hurt and loneliness I felt from it, and then the trip incident.
It was then a few months after the "apology" she would then hype me up in front of friends about how much I took.... I had no response again, just staying quiet and keeping my thoughts to myself, feeling like I just got backhanded and made to feel like the apology meant even less. I swear she's a good kind person but. these actions, they just keep hurting me, and I keep wanting to bring this stuff up and talk about it, but there is never a good time, its been bottling up for so long now, its been over a year and I still have ptsd from the incident, I feel uneasy around her, and I just wish I could move one wihtout losing a friend, I just feel like no matter what I do I'm gonna end up sad and even more depressed. I have some amazing online friends who are a good support system, but in my town, I have only 1 good friend for support but we don't seem to always see eye to eye on quite a few things, and I did with my ex, and I just wish I had a better support system, had been in a healthy relationship, could be treated right, and not feel so scared and alone even after all this time. Idk if I should talk somehow or if I should just cut ties bluntly. It doesn't help that I already made plans with her for the next few months and its stuff thats already been paid for. I'm really sorry that this is so long, and am grateful if anyone bothered reading all this. I have these same thoughts going over and over in my head on an almost daily basis and I just can't stop them
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The thing was that she was a cool person but over the course of the relationship, there were things that would happen that would make me sad or depressed, no matter what it seemed like she only ever wanted to see each other every 2 weeks on average(I honestly wanted to see her at least once a week or if possible like twice a week despite that she lived an hour away, i'd put the effort back then), and even tho I put in so much effort, I never felt like I got that back, I always tried to check up on her with how was work or life, and I almost always get the same 1-3 word response. I don't think I ever really got checked up on.... I honestly never felt like a priority... even when it came to games(and boy do I love games myself), it felt I always came last, never 2nd,3rd, or 4th. She's a cool person but.... she wasn't a good partner, I would get forgotten about for holidays we had planned for like 4th of July or new years. It honestly still hurts alot, and I wish I could let that stuff go, but when you feel more alone than ever when you're in a relationship is a type of pain I never knew you could experience. It leaves you empty, hollow, like a piece of driftwood. but I always thought in my heart, with communication and effort I could make it work.... I did talk about it, much more lightly than how I actually felt so she wouldn't feel bad or I'd feel like I was trying to be emotionally manipulative.... I had hope that she'd change(I know change is a big thing, and not always right to ask of but I was wanting to improve the relationship sorry) and put more effort..... hope just gets you hurt sadly. The relationship lasted about 1.5 years, until one day we split because of a specific circumstance, its not related to anything prior, its just a crappy circumstance that happened to pop up I guess.
I was really really sad and depressed to say the least, I was sad that it felt like I lost someone that finally understood me, I thought it was the end and that i'd never see them again and that in a sense they'd be dead to me perceptually cause the odds of running into them ever again if we cut ties is next to 0. So I decided to ask if she wanted to stay friends and she said yes, idk if it was the right choice then but I was scared of losing someone I felt so close with, and that was on the same wavelength in terms of how to view life and others, how they were kind to people and never judged. I tried getting some space and it kind of didn't work out since we ran into each other at an event a few weeks after.
I then got asked if I wanted to go to a trip to a con a month later with her and her friends and I being of the mindset " Sure why not, lets see what happens if I say yes and go against every logical thought", The day of the trip arrives and I of course still feel weird being around her, I just get a feeling of un-ease considering we had been dating up until a few months prior but I just shove it deep down my gut and put on a face of everything is fine cause I don't want to make things awkward. It honestly wasn't too hard putting on a face considering I did that constantly during the relationship for the same reason, I am a dumb people pleaser and hate myself for it.
I honestly felt nervous around everyone cause they weren't my friends, they were hers, I didn't know them, I knew of them... I honestly felt alone even with my ex there, I was worried... and it then got Worse. To say the least most people on the trip were wanting to do some gummies for fun, and I personally had never done anything like gummies or smoking before and didn't really care for it and just wanted to live in the moment, but I then got offered/given by my ex one, and I just wasn't sure, but I was put on the spot everyone waiting on me, I kept thinking "yes or no, yes or no" over and over. I looked at her and thought, I mean I dated her for 1.5 years and we knew each other for almost 2, she knows me, she's looking out for me right??? I can trust her right?!?!... I eat the gummy, not knowing what the recommended dosage for a newby is. it was over 12 times the max amount recommended...... I. I was high for 2 full days, and it was fine at first for a few hours I thought, maybe, but when you wake up and the feeling just wouldn't shut off, and it would still linger no matter what I did or ate, I felt so scared, and even more alone, I wanted to cry so badly, but how do you cry when you're surrounded by strangers and worse, her friends, how do you not make things weird...... I bottled up everything until I went outside and just cried alone while calling a friend, I was just tired of the feeling of not feeling myself, of everything feeling delayed, and not to mention that I was honestly thinking of seeking out a prescribed set of gummies in the future to mellow out my anxiety in the future, to calm me down, but I felt that was robbed from me cause I feel like this terrible first experience gave me some type of ptsd, I get nervous whenever anyone talks about weed, and my heart races nowadays when I smell it. The trip was ruined from nearly the beginning and it just sucked having that happened. We came back from the trip, I didn't really contact her unless she contacted me for quite a few months, I felt my trust betrayed, I felt more anxious than ever, I felt like my feelings didn't matter. I know she's not a bad person but she did some stupid decisions, and one being overdosing me for some reason.
I had decided to give myself some space, and it worked for a bit but knowing I still had contact with her still made me think of the lonely relationship, and the betrayal from the trip. about 7 months had passed and while we saw each other a few times, it was very sparse, up until one day we happened to go to a concert with some friends. Inside of venue before the opener even began the topic of the trip got brought up, she reminisced on how the trip was fun for her, and then and there she decided to casually say she was sorry to me about overdosing me, in front of our friends, in a very crowded public place.... I honestly had no words, and didn't give a reply, just stood there, hurt from the fact that it took 7+ months for an apology and it was done then and there.
From then on we hung out on occasion doing a events with friends and it was fun I won't deny but always at the back of my brain, I know I have feelings still, both from how happy I felt in the relationship and also the hurt and loneliness I felt from it, and then the trip incident.
It was then a few months after the "apology" she would then hype me up in front of friends about how much I took.... I had no response again, just staying quiet and keeping my thoughts to myself, feeling like I just got backhanded and made to feel like the apology meant even less. I swear she's a good kind person but. these actions, they just keep hurting me, and I keep wanting to bring this stuff up and talk about it, but there is never a good time, its been bottling up for so long now, its been over a year and I still have ptsd from the incident, I feel uneasy around her, and I just wish I could move one wihtout losing a friend, I just feel like no matter what I do I'm gonna end up sad and even more depressed. I have some amazing online friends who are a good support system, but in my town, I have only 1 good friend for support but we don't seem to always see eye to eye on quite a few things, and I did with my ex, and I just wish I had a better support system, had been in a healthy relationship, could be treated right, and not feel so scared and alone even after all this time. Idk if I should talk somehow or if I should just cut ties bluntly. It doesn't help that I already made plans with her for the next few months and its stuff thats already been paid for. I'm really sorry that this is so long, and am grateful if anyone bothered reading all this. I have these same thoughts going over and over in my head on an almost daily basis and I just can't stop them
2023.03.26 10:46 theskankybarbie My husband is against formula and it's driving me mad.
Hello looking to see if anyone else has had a similar situation. My baby boy is 4 months old and exclusively breastfed. just to be clear I absolutely love breastfeeding and ideally would like to continue doing it. But his weight has recently dropped to the 0.5 centile. I have an aunt who is a doctor so I asked what her medical advice would be. She suggested we add in a couple of bottles of formula and see if that helps. She would ideally like to see a bit more meat on his arms and legs.
Now my husband is very anti formula. (He will deny this but I've even had other people pick up on this so I know I'm not wrong). His mum is a doula and a big breastfeeding advocate so will her advice is very breastfeeding heavy which I think is why my husband has become so against the use of formula.
When I bought up my aunt's advice he got very defensive saying that she didn't have all the facts ( she definitely did) and that my mum had been in her ear pushing formula. This is ridiculous my mum does care how we feed our baby as long as he's healthy.
I'm just feeling frustrated that he would dismiss advice from someone that is medically trained all because it involves formula.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any mums of small breastfed babies have any advice?
Thanks in advance and sorry if I rambled on a bit.
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Now my husband is very anti formula. (He will deny this but I've even had other people pick up on this so I know I'm not wrong). His mum is a doula and a big breastfeeding advocate so will her advice is very breastfeeding heavy which I think is why my husband has become so against the use of formula.
When I bought up my aunt's advice he got very defensive saying that she didn't have all the facts ( she definitely did) and that my mum had been in her ear pushing formula. This is ridiculous my mum does care how we feed our baby as long as he's healthy.
I'm just feeling frustrated that he would dismiss advice from someone that is medically trained all because it involves formula.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any mums of small breastfed babies have any advice?
Thanks in advance and sorry if I rambled on a bit.
2023.03.26 10:45 _____dragon Too much empathy can be a bad thing
This might be an unpopular opinion but it seems public forums like Reddit demand empathy for almost every aspect of life and I believe this can be damaging to ones spiritual journey.
For example, I don't want to be thinking too much about the cow that had to die as I am eating my burger. Sometimes I crave meat, that's all there is to it. Humans are animals and no level of social sophistication can deny us of some of our more primitive underpinnings.
Perhaps there are more healthy ways to deal with empathy that also align with ones spiritual journey. Native Americans would oft pray before killing an animal before a hunt. Similarly one can acknowledge how the animal had to be sacrificed in order to provide sustenance instead of doing a whole conversion to vegetarian food.
I just believe that some forms of empathy can be damaging and tend to be subtractive rather than additive. Thoughts?
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For example, I don't want to be thinking too much about the cow that had to die as I am eating my burger. Sometimes I crave meat, that's all there is to it. Humans are animals and no level of social sophistication can deny us of some of our more primitive underpinnings.
Perhaps there are more healthy ways to deal with empathy that also align with ones spiritual journey. Native Americans would oft pray before killing an animal before a hunt. Similarly one can acknowledge how the animal had to be sacrificed in order to provide sustenance instead of doing a whole conversion to vegetarian food.
I just believe that some forms of empathy can be damaging and tend to be subtractive rather than additive. Thoughts?
2023.03.26 10:42 140kgOfRegrets March 2023 Update
I am currently drinking coffee in the morning, I suddenly thought about this reddit account. I figure I would put in an update. I weigh somewhere around 109-110kg. When I was back from lifestyle rehab I weighed 106.8 kg. It doesn't bother me that I gone slightly up in weight, I have some hard stuff going on, and weight is not always the focus. What is important though is that if this was 3 years ago, I wouldn't have gone up a modest 3 kg, it would be more like 10 kg.
I eat many fruits throughout the day, mostly though its clementines, apples and bananas. I tend to make a lunch salad consisting of iceberg, tomato, red onion slices, salt, pepper, balsameco (vinegar) and olive oil. I eat two slices of bread with low-calorie plant-oil butter, ham and cheese for breakfast. And the same for lunch but with three pieces of bread. Between every 'major' meal I eat fruit. I eat a low-calorie yoghurt every day along with one of my 'fruit mid-meals'. Dinner varies, luckily my house-hold fixes dinner.
I do daily evening walks. To make the evening walks work I will sometimes smoke (not tobacco) on the walks, so that it doesn't become too mundane. After my evening walks that I do after dinner, I try to either relax playing computer games, or clean my room or take a shower.
That is what works for me. Or at least, it works better than what came before.
I will soon go back to life-style rehab. Which is good because then I can focus on more physical exercise, my work is so much that I can't afford to exercise otherwise. But come summer, I hope that my work will significantly drop.
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I eat many fruits throughout the day, mostly though its clementines, apples and bananas. I tend to make a lunch salad consisting of iceberg, tomato, red onion slices, salt, pepper, balsameco (vinegar) and olive oil. I eat two slices of bread with low-calorie plant-oil butter, ham and cheese for breakfast. And the same for lunch but with three pieces of bread. Between every 'major' meal I eat fruit. I eat a low-calorie yoghurt every day along with one of my 'fruit mid-meals'. Dinner varies, luckily my house-hold fixes dinner.
I do daily evening walks. To make the evening walks work I will sometimes smoke (not tobacco) on the walks, so that it doesn't become too mundane. After my evening walks that I do after dinner, I try to either relax playing computer games, or clean my room or take a shower.
That is what works for me. Or at least, it works better than what came before.
I will soon go back to life-style rehab. Which is good because then I can focus on more physical exercise, my work is so much that I can't afford to exercise otherwise. But come summer, I hope that my work will significantly drop.
2023.03.26 10:41 AchtsamerMolch People tellin me that I’m a ,,nice‘‘ person and nobody believes me that I want to di*.
Hey im 17 female, people sayin that I’m really respectful to other people. Should be normal right? Yes, I’m kind and don‘t want to hurt other species so I’m a vegan and I try to live a consistent lifestyle.I workout, eating healthy, draw, read, I’m a volunteer in a kindergarten,I share food with homeless people. If I make a sleepover I’m the one who take the couch and all that stuff. Please don’t get me wrong I’m doin this cause I want and love to be like this. At the end im just a human who’s trying his best and also doin mistakes. And I always try to grow mentally. (Also the people in my life appreciate me and always givin me somethin back! )
But I feel empty, like nothin really matters to me. I would not care if I do not wake up tomorrow. Often when I tell others about my feelings they don’t really understand. ,,you are so kind and pretty!‘‘ ,,how can u feel that way?‘‘ ,,U Kiddin me right?‘‘ (Ik they are not mean just bewildered ). I don’t understand why I feel that way and I don’t want to be a waste of space anymore. I’m freezin inside and I want to end this all. I’m tiered.
(Not a native english speaker)
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But I feel empty, like nothin really matters to me. I would not care if I do not wake up tomorrow. Often when I tell others about my feelings they don’t really understand. ,,you are so kind and pretty!‘‘ ,,how can u feel that way?‘‘ ,,U Kiddin me right?‘‘ (Ik they are not mean just bewildered ). I don’t understand why I feel that way and I don’t want to be a waste of space anymore. I’m freezin inside and I want to end this all. I’m tiered.
(Not a native english speaker)
2023.03.26 10:41 uvuvwevwedossas Cried like a little girl
It is sad, I don’t want to talk about it with my friends so I’ll tell it to you random stranger from the internet. We broke up yesterday and I (33M) cried like a little girl yesterday night, I still have tear in my eyes as I type this. But I know it’s for the better, I still believe she is my twin flame but the 7 months apart have made a mess in our love life. When we met I had already decided I’ll move out from my country so we started a relationship that we knew will make us suffer. We were making each other sad all the time. It doesn’t help that I moved to a country where I see other beautiful women in every corner and I just don’t want to cheat, I prefer to break up with what I thought was the love of my life than having the regret of cheating.
The last two months of our relationship I felt even lonelier knowing that I have a lovely gf but I can’t hold her hand while I walk, I can’t smell her hair when she’s sleeping. If I had been completely single I wouldn’t have felt so lonely.
The long distance relationship has been tougher than I thought. And to make things worse, she was in a low point in her life and job. I broke her by suggesting a break.
I just wanted to take it out of my chest, I know there is not much background story and the text is disorganized but I just can’t continue typing. I just need to go lift some weights.
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The last two months of our relationship I felt even lonelier knowing that I have a lovely gf but I can’t hold her hand while I walk, I can’t smell her hair when she’s sleeping. If I had been completely single I wouldn’t have felt so lonely.
The long distance relationship has been tougher than I thought. And to make things worse, she was in a low point in her life and job. I broke her by suggesting a break.
I just wanted to take it out of my chest, I know there is not much background story and the text is disorganized but I just can’t continue typing. I just need to go lift some weights.
2023.03.26 10:40 thatsdoable1 Need to talk to my doctor about pain relief but fear being seen as drugseeking
34F, 5ft 10, 350lbs Undiagnosed chronic pain and fatigue since childhood, disabled from 2012
Hi! I've never really had supportive doctors and the one I had for most of my life left me with a huge fear of being seen as drugseeking. Ironically, this led to me starting to illegally use cannabis heavily since I turned 31, after being teetotal for life. This saved my life. I have transitioned to medical cannabis since then.
I am now at a point where I can't afford my cannabis. In my country, we are entitled to most Medications free. I need to figure out how to talk to my GP about actual pain relief without triggering my fears and without being abandoned to my own devices again. I have tried repeatedly to state that I want to avoid addictive medicines or ones that are likely to cause withdrawals because I frequently forget.
My pain issues are related to very tight muscles that make it difficult for me to move around. I can get stuck bending forward and be unable to stand straight. I also have widespread pain throughout all of my body at various times to varying degrees and sensations. I'm hypermobile and frequently have issues with my neck, lower back, pelvis on my left side and my knee and foot on the right. I get sudden injuries just from sitting on hard surfaces or standing up (put back out, muscle rupture in left thigh). I'm also constantly in facial pain from very late wisdom teeth coming through and have had ear (infections), nose (permanently stuffy) and throat (swollen tonsils, uvula) problems all my life.
Obviously my weight is a major issue to deal with but is not the cause of my condition. I am in a medical program for this and am currently working to avoid bariatric surgery.
I want to get my pain managed so I can be properly mobile. Cannabis does wonders for me but I just can't keep affording it. What would you recommend in my situation that won't make my doctor uncomfortable to prescribe?
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Hi! I've never really had supportive doctors and the one I had for most of my life left me with a huge fear of being seen as drugseeking. Ironically, this led to me starting to illegally use cannabis heavily since I turned 31, after being teetotal for life. This saved my life. I have transitioned to medical cannabis since then.
I am now at a point where I can't afford my cannabis. In my country, we are entitled to most Medications free. I need to figure out how to talk to my GP about actual pain relief without triggering my fears and without being abandoned to my own devices again. I have tried repeatedly to state that I want to avoid addictive medicines or ones that are likely to cause withdrawals because I frequently forget.
My pain issues are related to very tight muscles that make it difficult for me to move around. I can get stuck bending forward and be unable to stand straight. I also have widespread pain throughout all of my body at various times to varying degrees and sensations. I'm hypermobile and frequently have issues with my neck, lower back, pelvis on my left side and my knee and foot on the right. I get sudden injuries just from sitting on hard surfaces or standing up (put back out, muscle rupture in left thigh). I'm also constantly in facial pain from very late wisdom teeth coming through and have had ear (infections), nose (permanently stuffy) and throat (swollen tonsils, uvula) problems all my life.
Obviously my weight is a major issue to deal with but is not the cause of my condition. I am in a medical program for this and am currently working to avoid bariatric surgery.
I want to get my pain managed so I can be properly mobile. Cannabis does wonders for me but I just can't keep affording it. What would you recommend in my situation that won't make my doctor uncomfortable to prescribe?
2023.03.26 10:33 SublimeTina Homework help~Case study for female with ED
This is my case that I have to diagnose. Person mentioned is imaginary. I am thinking bullimia and MDD or an anxiety disorder. I don't think I can give a C-PTSD diagnosis
Meet Sarah, a 38-year-old indigenous woman who has struggled with various mental health issues for much of her life. Sarah’s childhood was marked by unstable home life and frequent family arguments, which left her feeling unsafe and unable to trust others. As a result, Sarh struggled with low self-esteem and a constant sense of worry and unease.
As she entered adulthood, Sarah found it difficult to form and maintain healthy relationships. She often isolated herself, and even when she was with others, she struggled to relax and enjoy social situations. Sarah found herself consumed by negative thoughts and feelings of inadequacy, and she often woke up in the morning feeling exhausted and overwhelmed.
Sarah’s mental health struggles began to take a toll on her daily life. She had difficulty concentrating, and she found it hard to make decisions or even complete simple tasks. She often felt exhausted even after a full night’s sleep. Sarah’s appetite and sleep patterns were also disrupted, and she often struggled to find the energy or motivation to participate in activities that used to bring her joy.
Sarah’s mental health issues also affected her physical health. She developed frequent headaches and stomach pains, and she struggled with weight fluctuations. Despite her efforts to take care of herself, Sarah found it hard to manage her symptoms.
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Meet Sarah, a 38-year-old indigenous woman who has struggled with various mental health issues for much of her life. Sarah’s childhood was marked by unstable home life and frequent family arguments, which left her feeling unsafe and unable to trust others. As a result, Sarh struggled with low self-esteem and a constant sense of worry and unease.
As she entered adulthood, Sarah found it difficult to form and maintain healthy relationships. She often isolated herself, and even when she was with others, she struggled to relax and enjoy social situations. Sarah found herself consumed by negative thoughts and feelings of inadequacy, and she often woke up in the morning feeling exhausted and overwhelmed.
Sarah’s mental health struggles began to take a toll on her daily life. She had difficulty concentrating, and she found it hard to make decisions or even complete simple tasks. She often felt exhausted even after a full night’s sleep. Sarah’s appetite and sleep patterns were also disrupted, and she often struggled to find the energy or motivation to participate in activities that used to bring her joy.
Sarah’s mental health issues also affected her physical health. She developed frequent headaches and stomach pains, and she struggled with weight fluctuations. Despite her efforts to take care of herself, Sarah found it hard to manage her symptoms.
2023.03.26 10:33 theskankybarbie Babies weight
Hello looking to see if anyone else has had a similar situation. My baby boy is 4 months old and exclusively breastfed. His weight has recently dropped to the 0.5 centile. I have an aunt who is a doctor so I asked what her medical advice would be. She suggested we add in a couple of bottles of formula and see if that helps. She would ideally like to see a bit more meat on his arms and legs.
Now my husband is very anti formula. (He will deny this but I've even had other people pick up on this so I know I'm not wrong). His mum is a doula and a big breastfeeding advocate so will her advice is very breastfeeding heavy which I think is why my husband has become so against the use of formula.
When I bought up my aunt's advice he got very defensive saying that she didn't have all the facts ( she definitely did) and that my mum had been in her ear pushing formula. This is ridiculous my mum does care how we feed our baby as long as he's healthy.
I'm just feeling frustrated that he would dismiss advice from someone that is medically trained all because it involves formula.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any mums of small breastfed babies have any advice?
Thanks in advance and sorry if I rambled on a bit.
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Now my husband is very anti formula. (He will deny this but I've even had other people pick up on this so I know I'm not wrong). His mum is a doula and a big breastfeeding advocate so will her advice is very breastfeeding heavy which I think is why my husband has become so against the use of formula.
When I bought up my aunt's advice he got very defensive saying that she didn't have all the facts ( she definitely did) and that my mum had been in her ear pushing formula. This is ridiculous my mum does care how we feed our baby as long as he's healthy.
I'm just feeling frustrated that he would dismiss advice from someone that is medically trained all because it involves formula.
Has anyone been in a similar situation? Any mums of small breastfed babies have any advice?
Thanks in advance and sorry if I rambled on a bit.
2023.03.26 10:33 ClimbingLad Starting out with pull ups but I don't want to go to the gym
Just like a lot of people I hate being watched as I train and I wanted some advices on what to buy to start training my upper body. I am unable to even do one pull up right now because my arm strength is miserable even if I am quite light. I want to train because I want to get better at rock climbing (and I definitely need a bit of arm strength even if I know it's not necessary to succeed in the sport) and also because my back has been hurting for a couple of months and my mother (doctor) who has suffered with it most of her life has stated that training those muscles is definitely a good idea to ease the pain as I'll probably have to live with it til I die. So my question is: what is the equipment I can get to start? As I am still unable to do a pull up, I have used what looked like rubber bands, which ones should I get? Is there a good workout you would recommend for a beginner? Should I start with weights instead? Also, will it help a bit with getting a flatter stomach? Budget and space aren't an issue
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