So I've been slowly working on improving my social skills but I find I have one major gap in my skill, and one minor gap. I do not know what to look for to address either of these.
So the major gap is in holding conversations. I can pretty much greet anyone these days, and frequently I'm able to start a thirty second to one minute conversation. But then there's always a pause in the conversation and right after it ends. It doesn't only happen with strangers, I have a similar problem with people I know relatively well. I don't carry conversations well and will very quickly have absolutely nothing to say. Any advice on how can I solve this problem? And where can I look for books or other resources that covers this issue?
The second problem is very closely related to the first. Me, or another person starts a conversation and it goes something like this: "Hi", "Hi, how are you", "I'm good". At this point I have absolutely no idea what to do. In the rare couple of instances where I managed to come up with two or three attempts at keeping things going unless somehow the other person takes over carrying the conversation I just run out.
I've heard suggestions like "just focus on universal human experiences" before. But to be honest if I could tell universal human experiences from my own arse I probably wouldn't have this issue. Strangely I also cannot find a list of universal human experiences either... But I may just be bad at digging up information.

When I open Chrome Canvas in my browser, I am taken straight to the new drawing canvas. I can only access the home screen if I've been drawing for a while (it just buffers forever when I try to click the home button otherwise). And even when I'm on the home screen, when I try to click on a pre-existing drawing, it buffers forever and will not let me view or edit the drawing. I have tried using Chrome Canvas on my Google account on both my Chromebook and a family member's MacBook (with the Chrome browser) and the problems occur in exactly the same way on both devices. Does anyone have an idea of how to fix this?

My billing cycle ended on the 8th. I am on the unlimited data plan. My last cycle data usage was 49.15 GB. Two days into my new cycle, my current data is 13GB, and upon checking, almost 95% of that is from "unbilled data from previous cycle".
This random data spike out of nowhere is unexplained and I've checked my previous few bills and data usage have all stayed under 50GB.
The "support" rep keeps passing things off...
"Let me check the details." "I would request you to please wait for 24- 48 hours and get back to us so that we could the details from our end." "I would request you to wait until your next bill and check if you've charged for this data usage." "Once you receive your next bill please get back to us so that we can check the details and help you accordingly."
I explained to her that my concern wasn't about any charge, but that the erroneous and mysterious data spike of 13GB is being counted against my current cycle's data usage (up to 50GB), after which speed will be throttled.
She responds by asking me to come back after 24 to 48 hours so they can "get the details".
I respond by telling her that it seems like she's just trying to pass me and my problem off to another rep to deal with (this was after she "apologized for the inconvenience" several times.
Anyway, frustrated. Was probably one of the first GoogleFi users. This is what happens when they source reps from third world countries.
Going to wait til she disconnects the chat (rather than close the tab myself) so I can bomb her customer satisfaction survey scores.

After tossing and turning in his bed all night, the male would switch on the light on his lamp. He wasn't sure of what or who took away his beauty sleep the other night. He tried to remember what did, but he couldn't. The red head would swift his legs over the bed and would sit himself up. Checking the time on his alarm clock, he almost choked on his cough when he saw it was midnight-- the witching hour. Knowing that he wouldn't be able to sleep anymore, he left his bedroom to the kitchen where he made himself a glass of sunflower tea. As he looked at his back door, a chill would brutally spread like molten flames down his back. It's only winter, he told himself, focusing on making the tea. Measuring out the scoop, putting the water in, but as he made the liquid. He couldn't help but feel kind of ill and uneasy. As he looked over at his back door, the lock was in place there was nothing out of the ordinary he thought. Turning back to the tea, he quickly scooped it up and tried his best to forget what the fuck just happened. He started past the back door to his room on the other side of the house but then he stopped. He thought just one peek couldn't hurt anyone. The chill came back up his spine, as he stepped towards the backdoor. When he reached the door, he put his palm onto the frosty-feeling wooden door, taking a deep breathe, he peeked through the peephole. At first, the boy saw nothing, there was only cold frost and only a black wave-ish sort of thing circling. When he blinked out of shock, it all melted away. He wished it hadn't. In replace of the frost in the darkness, was what he thought was possibly once a man. The limbs were inhuman-like and unbelievably long. The figure kind of looked like a tree possibly you would see in a normal park. The creature was somehow wearing a suit, making it much more horrific to the boy. The icing on the cake, however, was the fact that when he looked at the creatures' face, if you could even call it that, shocked him up so much. It started to burn into his mind, it was like he couldn't escape it. He slid himself back from the door, as he accidentally dropped his hot tea, it started to burn his feet and upper legs. As he fell and began to crawl away from the door. He was trying to make it back to his room. Somehow, he knew that his brain was not playing tricks on him at all. As he crab-crawled away from the door, he watched as these snake-like tendrils dark as the night sky started to snake through the door cracks. The male was trapped between his fly-or-flight mode and the gut feeling to not turn his attention from the door. When the door started to shake and jolt, the urge to flight kicked on as he slipped on the hot liquid trying to escape to his room. He knew deep down that he was trapping himself in a corner, but he had to get out of there, he knew it. The boy was half-way down the hallway when he heard the previously locked door start to creak open. He hollered in fright, slipping on the liquid, he ran into the wall smacking his chin open. After that, there was only darkness. ***** "Michael?" a calmly spoken, male voice snapped him out of his trance. As he woke up, he was met by one of his sister's doctor's. He nodded, not sure if he should say anything, or even if he did find his voice again did, he have to say anything to them. That morning, she had gotten an urgent phone call from the hospital, saying that her brother, Michael, was there. Before they had even let her see him, the doctors pulled her aside and insisted that they had to talk to her about what happened. Phrases like, 'Self-inflected' and 'Assault' had been thrown around and Nora felt her mind reel. She still couldn't fully process what they had fully been saying until she saw Michael with her own eyes. Her little brother had a tough bandage wrapped around his head, covering of his ears as well as his eyes. They said it was to keep his now deadened out eyes from drying out and trying to keep out infections from the wounds that Michael made to his ears. The doctors guessed that either he or someone else had jammed a pencil into his ears to keep him off balance, or to deafen himself against something. There was a mix of first and second degree burns on his hands, legs, and feet, from what was assumed to be tea, his friend found him in all over the bottom floor of the house. As Nora, made her way into her brothers' hospital room for the first time, she thought she spied the silhouette of a man in the window. That, she knew, was impossible, there was no way. Her brother's room was on the third story of the hospital.

my girl is 14 weeks. she surpassed her birth weight quickly but we never had to wake her for feeds as she always asks to eat at least every 3 hours. she’s slept 5 hours one time since birth
our current routine is: bath and last bottle at 7pm, down by 8. i do a dream feed before i sleep, usually 10 or 11. she wakes me 1-2 times on a good night, usually 1 am and 4 am
my concern is i’m heading back to work in a few weeks and i have trouble falling back to sleep. right now it’s 4:17 and i’ve been up since her earlier feed
trying to see… when did night feedings stop for you? is there something i can do to encourage them to stop? i know she’s eating enough during the day and i’ve even tried offering food more frequently to see if eating more during the day means less overnight (it doesn’t). i tried giving her another dream feed now just to tide her over til morning so i can hopefully sleep a bit but she refused and wouldn’t swallow - so she’ll probably wake in an hour to eat
husband taking overnight feedings isn’t an option - he sleeps so deeply he doesn’t hear her cry right next to him whereas from the other side of our condo i hear her whimper even with a sound machine on. also if he does wake up, he can fall asleep standing up/ in an instant. just too dangerous imo to do overnight feeds, i’d rather be exhausted

Christianity, as a religion, is flawed. Though sects exist within other mainstream beliefs, only is Christianity experiencing as much division as it is. This is for three reasons in particular. The argument of tradition or scripture, what scripture even is and how it should be understood. I hope to answer these questions and many more in a series of blogs to make Christianity whole. (Note: I am open to critics and guidance. I acknowledge my fallibility as a human and that a project like this cannot be embarked on alone. I only as that those who share in faith with me aid me.)
So for scripture versus tradition, we must acknowledge, that even if one claimed scripture came from tradition given to us by Christ, that contemporary Christian tradition is not reflective of the tradition that gave birth to scripture. In fact, by this logic, scripture can be stated to be reflective of the original tradition that it originated from but then come the question, what is scripture?
If scripture is going to be the basis of our renewed faith, its meaning must be something that conveys its authority. With this in mind, I will define scripture as pieces of writing that the accurately conveyed to us Truth of HaShem. How may we come to confirm that the writings convey the Truth of HaShem? By looking at the authorship of various pieces of writing and seeing if the author may have heard the Truth of HaShem from HaShem which, as Christians, we confirm to Jesus the Christ.
Now, we must ask ourselves if there is any writing by Jesus we may infer our beliefs from and to that the answer is no. So next we must ask ourselves, is there anyone who could have heard what Jesus had to say directly? Yes, the twelve apostles and the brothers of Jesus, James and Jude. Of course, many historians and biblical scholars may argue their existence so I will argue otherwise.
According to Josephus, in his work Antiquities of the Jews, James, the brother of Jesus was stoned to death by order of Ananus ben Ananus, a Herodian-era High Priest in the 60–70 AD. It is generally agreed that the Antiquities of the Jews is historically accurate. It was also written by Flavius Josephus, who was a historian alive around the time of which he wrote, further legitimizing that James, brother of Jesus, was a real person. As for the twelve apostles, they are made reference to in the Ecclesiastical History by Eusebius of Caesarea whose reliability varies somewhat, but he was a careful scholar and he quoted his sources.
Besides that, there is also Irenaeus, in his writing Against Heresies, who tells us that he learned under Polycarp who knew the apostle John personally. Then lastly, if one doubts these sources due to the time between them and when the apostle was said to be alive, turn to the Didache and the Letter of Clement to the Romans. Both, though generally considered Apocrypha, are estimated to have been written about the late end of the first century. Both refer to the twelve apostles.
So if the twelve apostles and James were real people, have they written anything we can use to learn what scripture is according to Jesus? Let us examine writing traditionally given authorship to them. With the epistle of James the author simply says himself to be James without specifying which one, the brother of Jesus or the son of Zebedee or James, son of Alphaeus or a lesser James. Either way, there is no evidence that it was written by any of the biblical James as it was written in Greek and there is no evidence to support that any of the biblical James attained a Greek education. Also, the epistle in question seems to be borrowing from the first epistle of Peter (which I will talk about later) and arguing against Paulinism. If that were to be true then this imposes the belief that this book was written after the death of both biblical James.
The main argument against the first Epistle of Peter is based on the following:

• Peter, by many sources including the Ecclesiastical History by Eusebius of Caesarea, has been stated to be crucified around 65 AD. Should this be true the identification of Rome with Babylon used in the epistle would not make sense as it only came after the destruction of the temple in AD 70.
• There is also the fact that the epistle was written in Greek which there is no evidence for Peter having learnt.

The Epistle of Jude has a similar issue to the Epistle of James. The author states themselves to be Jude, brother of James but there are two biblical Judes, one the brother of Jesus and the apostle. For the brother of Jesus of the name Jude, there is no historical evidence known to me of him besides that which is written in the gospels. Jude the apostle, was believed to have been martyred around 65 AD which is a problem as the epistle of Jude seems to have been inspired by the first epistle of Peter which is dating I spoke of earlier.
The second epistle of Peter falls under similar criticism as its predecessor along with none of the supporting points instead two more critics. Firstly is that the writing in this epistle differs from the first epistle to the point that some scholars suggest they have two different authors. Secondly, the second epistle seems to have been influenced by the epistle of Jude (which I will talk about later). Next are the Johannine writings. The epistles of John are similar to the gospel of John so they are said to share the same author or at least the same school of teachings. Arguments against Johannine authorship come from these facts, the gospel of John seems to be more theological than historical and the epistles seem to tackle problems of late 1st century Christianity.
These two points lend a later authorship to the writings but John having lived rather long could have still lived long enough to have written these pieces of writing. Another critique is that the writings were written in Greek but this is again can be argued by the fact that John is agreed upon to have died in Ephesus which warrants him to have learnt Greek in his long life or gotten an assistant to write on his behalf. Thus I declare that John might have been the author of the works credited to him or at the very least they were written by his followers in light of his teachings.
As for the Revelation to John, I quote (Wikipedia as the best way to describe what I have to say), Mainstream scholars conclude that the author did not also write the Gospel of John because of wide differences in eschatology, language, and tone. The Book of Revelation contains grammatical errors and stylistic abnormalities whereas the Gospel and Epistles are all stylistically consistent which indicates the author may not have been as familiar with the Greek language as the Gospel/Epistles's author. Contemporary scholars note that when Revelation and the Gospel refer to Jesus as "lamb" they use different Greek words, and they spell "Jerusalem" differently. There are differing motifs between the book and the Gospel: use of allegory, symbolism, and similar metaphors, such as "living water", "shepherd", "lamb", and "manna".
As for any other writings attributed to the twelve apostles, I say that as they were already denounced (as they do not appear in the traditional new testament) I need not denounce them. With there only being writings from John, one may ask if we can use the methodology we used on Jesus on the apostles to find more writings that may contain the word of HaShem. Yes, but we will have to be more sceptical and with such an approach there are five authors one could safely infer from. First Paul, once Saul of Tarsus, second is Ignatius of Antioch and third is Polycarp of Smyrna. With Paul, his existence is unquestionable but one could question if he had met the apostle in the first place.
It would take time to state the history of all these particular people and why they were chosen and not others but I will summarize their connections to the twelve apostles:

• Paul was appointed an apostle by the apostles.
• Ignatius of Antioch and Polycarp of Smyrna were both disciples of John the Apostle.

What Paul wrote exactly is confirmed to be the first epistle to Thessalonians, the epistle to Galatians, the first and second epistles to Corinthians, the epistle to the Romans, the epistle to Philemon and the epistle to Philippians. The epistle to the Colossians, though having the trademark signs of the confirmed epistle, is believed to have been edited to go against gnostic beliefs which only reached its ascendancy by the early 2nd century. The Epistle to Ephesians is argued against due to its difference in style and language usage.
The Second Epistle to the Thessalonians is far more complicated and subtle in the arguments for or against it so I will leave it questionable. The pastoral epistles of Paul are generally the most disputed among the canonical epistles. They are held to the same criticism as the epistles to the Colossians and Ephesians and for those reasons alone, I will be excluding it. For other epistles attributed to Paul, I say that as they were already denounced (as they do not appear in the traditional new testament) I need not denounce them.
As for what exactly Ignatius of Antioch wrote, seven epistles are credited to his name, the epistle to the Ephesians, the Epistle to the Magnesians, the Epistle to the Trallians, the Epistle to the Romans, the Epistle to the Philadelphians, the epistle to the Smyrnaeans and the epistle to Polycarp. Arguments have been launched against them by protestants but they are not substantial enough to deny Ignatian authorship. Polycarp of Smyrna wrote one epistle to the Philippians.
One comment I would like to make for my exclusion of the writings of other church fathers. One is that their writing was not wholly, persevered through time, as it is with Papias of Hierapolis and Quadratus of Athens. Two is the questionable believability of their interaction with any of the apostles, an example of which is Clement of Rome. And three, the authorship of work accredited to their name is questionable, John Mark. So here we have writings we can claim to be scripture but many of them, are quotes and refers to other pieces of writing. If what we claim to be scripture is scripture then anything writings it quotes should also be scripture.
With this train of thought, we can validate some more writings as scripture: Isaiah, Jeremiah, Deuteronomy, Psalms, Genesis, Exodus, Leviticus, Samuel, Numbers, Habakkuk, Proverbs, Jonah, Judges, Chronicles, Kings, Joshua, Gospel of Matthew, Hosea, Ephesians, Gospel of Luke, Acts, 1 Peter, 2 Thessalonians, 1 & 2 Timothy, Hebrew, Job, Daniel, The Seven Minor Prophets(Joel, Amos, Micah, Nahum, Zechariah, Haggai, Malachi) and Tobit
There are some writings that we previously denounced appear in this list again (1 & 2 Timothy, 2 Thessalonians, Ephesians and 1 Peter) but I think the fact they were quoted allows us to put our doubts about them aside. There are also books referred to which we do no longer exist, Acts of Solomon, Acts of Uziah, Acts of the Kings of Israel, Annals of King David, Book of Gad the Seer, Book of Jashar, Book of Jehu, Book of Nathan the Prophet, Book of Shemaiah the Prophet, Book of the Kings of Judah and Israel, Book of the Wars of the Lord, Chronicles of the Kings of Israel, Chronicles of the Kings of Judah, Laments for Josiah, Prophecy of Ahijah, Sayings of the Seers, Story of the Book of Kings and Story of the Prophet Iddo. For this, nothing can be done but we will do what we must with what we have.
Now with all confirmable scripture, all that is left is to order the books. First I believe as Christians the book of our faith must start with a proclamation of our faith, the Gospel writings. These can be ordered as followed:

1. The Jewish Gospel (This is what I will call the Gospel of Matthew since scholars generally deny its authorship by the apostle of Matthew)
2. The Gospel of John the Beloved Apostle
3. The Gospel according to Luke
4. The Acts of the Apostles
5. The First Epistle of John the Beloved Apostle
6. The Second Epistle of John the Beloved Apostle
7. The Third Epistle of John the Beloved Apostle

Next, with the insight of the gospel writings can we introduce the Tanakh in the next form of category called the Legendary writings. The reasoning behind this name is that history often does not align with these writings. Nonetheless, the character of importance within them we can affirm to have existed and they convey truths about HaShem.

1. Genesis
2. Exodus
3. Leviticus
4. Numbers
5. Deuteronomy
6. Joshua
7. Judges

After reading the Torah, we of course have to read the Pauline writings (I will be excluding the possible pseudepigraphical Pauline writings for now).

1. The First Epistle of Paul to Thessalonians
2. The Epistle of Paul to Galatians
3. The First Epistle of Paul to Corinthians
4. The Second Epistle of Paul to Corinthians
5. The Epistle of Paul to the Romans
6. The Epistle of Paul to Philemon
7. The Epistle of Paul to Philippians

From this, we can make a return to the Tanakh, following up with the Historical writings. They get their name for being for the most part historical.

1. Samuel
2. Chronicles
3. Isaiah
4. Kings
5. Jeremiah
6. Daniel
7. The Seven Minor Prophets

Knowledge of Jewish history us to properly assess the next category, Christian writings.

1. First Epistle of Peter
2. The Second Epistle to Thessalonians
3. The Epistle of Paul to Ephesians
4. First Epistle of Paul to Timothy
5. The Second Epistle of Paul to Timothy
6. The Epistle of Prisca to the Hebrews (Priscian authorship is questioned)
7. Epistle of Polycarp to the Philippians

Then follows Jewish writings.

1. Job
2. Psalms
3. Proverbs
4. Tobit
5. Jonah
6. Hosea
7. Habakkuk

Lastly, Ignatian writings.

1. The Epistle of Ignatius to the Ephesians
2. The Epistle of Ignatius to the Magnesians
3. The Epistle of Ignatius to the Trallians
4. The Epistle of Ignatius to the Romans
5. The Epistle of Ignatius to the Philadelphians
6. The Epistle of Ignatius to the Smyrnaeans
7. The Epistle of Ignatius to Polycarp.

Now it is done. Just note that I am not denying the possible spiritual inspiration of any of the books not mentioned but and simply proposing a change in how we base our faith. I plan to release a follow-up to this, more specifically talking about a New Christian Theology, but the time that may take is unbeknownst to me. I thank you for reading this in its entirety, Baruch HaShem.

I am loving this game, I've put a massive amount of hours in so far. The fuse and building mechanics add an awesome new dimension, the depths blew my mind when I first flew down into a chasm, and exploring from the sky is exhilarating.
I do have a have a few nitpicks though about things I wanted from the game. Would also love to know other peoples' thoughts. Minor spoilers ahead.
Like other people have mentioned, the sky islands after the big tutorial island disappointed me a little. They were fun to explore, and I love jumping off them to explore the surface, but once you realize it's essentially 3-4 variations of shrine puzzles, it feels a little underwhelming.
And that goes on to my next point. The lack of new settlements/towns in this game was a bummer for me. I was really hoping for at least a town in the sky or depths. That really would have helped to differentiate this game a lot more from BotW - imagine if we saw a new species of people we'd never seen in Zelda before hidden down below Hyrule or in the sky, for example.
Lookout Landing is cool, but it was the only real new settlement. Kakariko and Hateno did have some interesting changes, but I was craving a new town to explore. I also expected a little more from Tarrey Town.
Basically this is one of the best games I've ever player, but like some others have mentioned here, I felt like the biggest surprises (great sky island, depths) were frontloaded. It's an incredible game, but recently, I've felt like I'm repeating a lot of what I did in BotW – namely, looking for shrines on the surface. Thing is, in BotW, it was a completely new world to explore, whereas here it's not.
Depths are awesome, but, like the sky islands, they do get a little repetitive and feel a little empty after a while IMO.
So it's a strange one to me. This is an undeniable improvement over BotW and might, therefore, be the best game I've ever played. At the same time, it doesn't reach the same thrill of discovery that BotW gave me. I know I'm being greedy and nitpicky, just wanted to share my thoughts on this, as I almost don't know how to feel lol
Oh and one last thing. Why oh I why can't you just press L when you're on outfits to go straight to manual save? Changing outfits and manual save are the two things I do the most. Anyway, rant over.

I have a spare ticket for the Foundry show on Tuesday. I asked at the store if I could sell the ticket online but you can only gain access with the paper ticket they give away with the album. Let me know if you want it, and we can try and sort a way to get it to you!

I've never posted anything on reddit before so i am not really sure what i am doing but i just want to write my thoughts down, maybe someone reading this can relate.
I am struggling in my life right now. About 3 weeks ago my whole life came crashing down in front my eyes when the girl i love decided she didn't want to be with me anymore...i am not dealing with it very well at all. It was so sudden.
We had been having arguments for the past month but always managed to see past them, and when we went on holiday together literally a month ago I thought we were back to normal. We laughed, we held each other, we had a great time there...one of the best weeks of my life and she said the same. We then went for a meal and again everything was fine, i was happy that we were back to how we were. We walked around the town, she had her arm wrapped around mine, we went for a drive, we parked up, made out in the back and i was so happy. She then began to get upset...i asked her what was wrong but she wouldn't tell me...she eventually turned looked me in the eye and said 'im not sure i want this anymore'. My heart sank, i was in shock i didn't know what to do or say. I burst into tears in front of her, i was angry, sad, shocked. I dropped her home and i went to our 'spot' which is where i asked her to be my girlfriend ironically also where she told me she didnt want to be with me. I sat there in silence, i began to drive home. i sped up to 90 mph on back roads thinking to myself i don't care if i wrap myself around a tree, my life is now over.
I got home, laid in bed still believing this to be a dream, i called my mum and broke down completely, i had a massive panic attack. My brother came into my room to comfort me and my mum drove from her house to be with me. The next few days i sat and cried and cried and cried. i was exhausted, i didn't eat anything, i didnt want to leave the house. I had to go to an event the evening after, i sat there in silence not talking to anyone, i wore sunglasses to hide that i had been crying. i didn't tell anyone there, i left early and cried myself to sleep.
3 weeks on i have okay days and really bad days, mostly bad days. I cannot see the light at the end of the tunnel that everyone is talking about...She told me she wanted to be friends but i cannot do it, i love her way too much. I try to pass it off like yeah maybe we can both go away and we'll miss each other and get back together. But she doesn't feel that way...So i am now stuck, i wake up and cry and try to go about my day with her not in it. I hate it - no good morning text, no have a good day at work text, no lets do something tonight text, no i love you text. i wake up to nothing and go to sleep with nothing. When i am on my own at work i go to quiet corner and cry my eyes out. Its pathetic i am feeling like this while she is out with her friends enjoying her life without me.
Everything that has happened brought me back to 2 years ago when my dad walked out on me and my brother, the feeling of being unlovable, feeling like a stupid loser. Feeling unworthy. I guess the point of this post is...well their really isn't one, i normally write all my thoughts on a notepad. But the things i write are dark, the amount of self loathing i have done to myself. I sometimes look in the mirror and think - 'i fucking hate you, you're a weak loser' I just want to be happy again. The memories i have from 3/4/5/6 months ago plague my mind everyday, sometimes i do feel like going to sleep and not waking up. I was so happy, being with her, she was my best friend...i miss her so much.
If anyone has read this far, seen past my grammatical errors and poor choice of words then thank you. We are all fellow human beings we should listen and help each other, i am always here for someone who wants to talk. i am lonely. I have people round me who listen to me but they don't understand what i am going through. I hope my life does get better or we get back together, who knows.

He was real to me. Never beloved in that before him. Complete dud… in the afterlife, if he doesn’t say anything to me in this life… then he can find another twin flame… yeah…. Stay on your side of heaven and I’ll stay on mine if it’s a simulation, you better hope I don’t wake up first and hit the eject button, and if I will seriously seriously gonna slap you with my angel wing 🪽… it’s okay, more fish in the sea, telepathic fish I get on another level and can feel their energy and remote view them at times, nope… but okay, it’s fine… I’m cool, I don’t deserve to be toyed with. I thought we found each other at the wrong time, but it was during Covid, he made me smile, he was my light that cheered me up… now he’s darkness and I won’t let it hurt me…. He should have just been real to me… I’d been so good to him. We’d have figured it out, i’m crazy fun sexy cool smart locgial and interesting and Intuitive spontaneous and adventurous my secret weapon is my personality and my soul and the way even if people keep hurting me I get back up eventually and I’m kinda a badass but, and he didn’t see that side of me… sad:/… really sad… why can I feel you? Why…. It’s not just logic…

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Can someone explain these results to me please? I was told I have adenomyosis along with endometriosis but can’t would appreciate if someone can break down these findings of my MRI Much appreciated
Uterus is anterverted and anteflexed measuring 8 (CC) x 3.5 (AP) x 5 (TR) cm. Normal thickness of the endometrial cavity and junctional zone. Heterogeneous 1.3 cm subserosal lesion at the uterine fundus demonstrates subtle, high T1 signal intensity, likely reflecting a focal adenomyoma. Preserved low T2 signal of the cervical stroma containing multiple small Nabothian cysts. Unremarkable vaginal fornices. There are large bilateral endometriomata containing fluid-fluid levels, measuring 5 (CC) x 7 (AP) x 6(TR) cm on the right and 4(CC) x 4.5 (AP) x 4.3 (TR) cm on the left. Although the ovaries in configuration, this is due to the large size of the endometriomata rather then due to tethering by DIE. No abnormal post contrast enhancement on subtraction imaging. T1 hyperintense material noted in a tubular configuration at the superior aspect of the left ovary, may reflect blood product within the left fallopian tube. No deep infiltrating endometriosis and no rectosigmoid involvement. Visualised bowel is unremarkable. Unremarkable urinary bladder. No distal ureteric dilatation. Trace free pelvic fluid. No enlarged pelvic lymph nodes. No sinister signal return from the bones. Opinon: Large bilateral ovarian endometriomata, with probable small volume left-sided haematosalpinx. Focal adenomyoma at the uterine fundus. No definite evidence of DIE, anterior or posterior compartment involvement.

They overestimate how fast they can heal, let go and move on and underestimate the effort and work it really takes to bounce back from and thrive after the end of a long term relationship
As a breakup coach, I occassionally see men and women who regret their decision to leave some time afterwards because they made the decision to leave on emotional impulse, lacked foresight and thought they will get over their long term relationship within a month or even less.
Only to find out many months or years later that they still love their ex. That they don’t like the changes the breakup has initiated.
And that deep down, they didn’t really want this breakup but needed a big change in the relationship.
However, the problem with this is that getting back together is not so easy if you’ve been the one to leave unless the ex lacks self-respect.
Mainly because the other person will stop taking you seriously and lose respect if you come back around as if nothing happened.
Because how can you trust someone who doesn’t know what they want, who throws many years of growth and hard work away for short-term pleasure?
So rather than making such decisions on emotional impulse, it’s better and wiser to think this through clearly.
To plan ahead so that you know how exactly you’re going to live without them without having to rely on tinder or rebound relationships.
Unhealthy emotional attachment
Both dumpers and dumpees tend to go back to their ex and chase after them not because there is a real potential for a reconciliation to last long or any real love and mutual respect but because they allowed the emotional attachment and emotional addiction to the ex to override their self-respect, their integrity and their self-discipline.
In other words, they became so desperate for validation, love and attention that they began thinking their ex is going to make them whole or happy again.
They didn’t do the proper letting go work it takes to let go of this attachment or to heal the abandonment wounds that drive this behavior and they continue to seek love, validation and self-confidence in their ex rather than generating that on their own.
They are too stubborn to let go
People who are too stubborn to let go of an ex tend to be hopeless romantics who idealize their ex and live in a bubble of fantasies.
They believe in the concept of undying love and also take a lot of pride in never giving up loving an ex, even if the relationship is long over, if that relationship was very dysfunctional, if that ex doesn’t reciprocate and wasn’t someone who respected them.
They are typically afraid of being single and rely only on a partner for self-worth.
They aren’t aware of how this behavior is pushing and keeping their ex away.
Because when a romantic fantasizer wants to hold onto the bliss of what was at any price, the other partner often feels unseen and unknown, and eventually will seek a more realistic encounter (source:10 reasons why some people can't let go of their ex)
They use the ex as a backup option
This is also a very common pattern post-breakup.
It’s when exes string each other along for years.
When they are in a new relationship or even marriage but still occassionally text or meet up with the ex as a way to fill the hole that their current relationship fails to meet.
Because they are so thirsty for validation that they just don’t want to completely let go of their ex and cut the ties.
Don’t be one of those people.
Because it’s not fair nor healthy to be in a new relationship or marriage while still emotionally committed to the ex.
That’s pretty much the same as cheating.

After tossing and turning in his bed all night, the male would switch on the light on his lamp. He wasn't sure of what or who took away his beauty sleep the other night. He tried to remember what did, but he couldn't. The red head would swift his legs over the bed and would sit himself up. Checking the time on his alarm clock, he almost choked on his cough when he saw it was midnight-- the witching hour. Knowing that he wouldn't be able to sleep anymore, he left his bedroom to the kitchen where he made himself a glass of sunflower tea. As he looked at his back door, a chill would brutally spread like molten flames down his back. It's only winter, he told himself, focusing on making the tea. Measuring out the scoop, putting the water in, but as he made the liquid. He couldn't help but feel kind of ill and uneasy. As he looked over at his back door, the lock was in place there was nothing out of the ordinary he thought. Turning back to the tea, he quickly scooped it up and tried his best to forget what the fuck just happened. He started past the back door to his room on the other side of the house but then he stopped. He thought just one peek couldn't hurt anyone. The chill came back up his spine, as he stepped towards the backdoor. When he reached the door, he put his palm onto the frosty-feeling wooden door, taking a deep breathe, he peeked through the peephole. At first, the boy saw nothing, there was only cold frost and only a black wave-ish sort of thing circling. When he blinked out of shock, it all melted away. He wished it hadn't. In replace of the frost in the darkness, was what he thought was possibly once a man. The limbs were inhuman-like and unbelievably long. The figure kind of looked like a tree possibly you would see in a normal park. The creature was somehow wearing a suit, making it much more horrific to the boy. The icing on the cake, however, was the fact that when he looked at the creatures' face, if you could even call it that, shocked him up so much. It started to burn into his mind, it was like he couldn't escape it. He slid himself back from the door, as he accidentally dropped his hot tea, it started to burn his feet and upper legs. As he fell and began to crawl away from the door. He was trying to make it back to his room. Somehow, he knew that his brain was not playing tricks on him at all. As he crab-crawled away from the door, he watched as these snake-like tendrils dark as the night sky started to snake through the door cracks. The male was trapped between his fly-or-flight mode and the gut feeling to not turn his attention from the door. When the door started to shake and jolt, the urge to flight kicked on as he slipped on the hot liquid trying to escape to his room. He knew deep down that he was trapping himself in a corner, but he had to get out of there, he knew it. The boy was half-way down the hallway when he heard the previously locked door start to creak open. He hollered in fright, slipping on the liquid, he ran into the wall smacking his chin open. After that, there was only darkness. ***** "Michael?" a calmly spoken, male voice snapped him out of his trance. As he woke up, he was met by one of his sister's doctor's. He nodded, not sure if he should say anything, or even if he did find his voice again did, he have to say anything to them. That morning, she had gotten an urgent phone call from the hospital, saying that her brother, Michael, was there. Before they had even let her see him, the doctors pulled her aside and insisted that they had to talk to her about what happened. Phrases like, 'Self-inflected' and 'Assault' had been thrown around and Nora felt her mind reel. She still couldn't fully process what they had fully been saying until she saw Michael with her own eyes. Her little brother had a tough bandage wrapped around his head, covering of his ears as well as his eyes. They said it was to keep his now deadened out eyes from drying out and trying to keep out infections from the wounds that Michael made to his ears. The doctors guessed that either he or someone else had jammed a pencil into his ears to keep him off balance, or to deafen himself against something. There was a mix of first and second degree burns on his hands, legs, and feet, from what was assumed to be tea, his friend found him in all over the bottom floor of the house. As Nora, made her way into her brothers' hospital room for the first time, she thought she spied the silhouette of a man in the window. That, she knew, was impossible, there was no way. Her brother's room was on the third story of the hospital.

First of all, moderators of celestegame , please do not take this down, I know it is off-topic and meta but this is an extremely important matter that needs to be spoken about.
Hello. This is u/somepianoplayer , and I'm speaking for all the moderators (including myself on another account) and people of ModCoord in regards to celestegame
I'm just a normal redditor and moderator (in my other account), living about in my life, however something terrible has been disturbing me.
And it should be disturbing all of you.
The Management team of the reddit API has decided to drastically increase it's API's pricing 10 to 20 times, making it impossible for third-party reddit client's developers to maintain those clients.
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• Why this is a problem:

1. Moderators: Many moderators use third-party programs and bots that interact with reddit's API and make moderating an infinite amount of times easier. I am an active moderator on another account on various subreddits and make use of those tools regularly. The destruction of those programs and bots, which provide superior customization, streamlined interfaces, spam, link-dumping, karma-farming content etc. blocking and other features that the official reddit interface does not provide, will significantly affect us moderator's abilities to provide and efficient form of of moderation, thus impacting the quality of content and the experience of not just us moderators, but also general reddit users.
2. Mature content: Mature content (also known as NSFW or 18+ content) is openly permitted on reddit. This includes s*xual , s*xually arousing content and gore content. I am not personally a part of communities with that premise, however there are people who depend on this kinds of content as a financial aid and would be severely impacted financially in their lives, as the new changes would completely render unable the access through the API to NSFW content. More importantly though, it is important to note that medical posts with inquiries about medical topics often get marked as NSFW, manly because similarity to gore on some aspects, and oftentimes this content does not even have to have an image attached to it for it to be considered gore. This would have severe backslash in healthcare, as many people (and sometimes people's pets) who are currently unable to receive medical attention would not even be able to get recommendations on medical topics, as comments would likely be flooded with SPAM, karma-farming content, link-dumping and other kinds of detrimental behavior that ruin the accessibility of content on subreddits.
3. Accessibility issues for people with disabilities: As of this date, the official reddit interface does not provide any kind of accessibility options, for example for people with hearing difficulty. The official reddit interface does not even attempt to implement any kinds of aid for these conditions, which is a feature that is already present in various third-party interfaces. This is practically a complete mockery of people with accessibility-related disabilities, and does not improve at all the image of Reddit Inc. , a corporation which is estimated to earn a revenue of over US$522.4 million per year.

• Furthermore, I would like to remind of a very important issue regarding the lack of transparent and consistent communication from reddit's management with one of the most important part of reddit's existence: the Moderators. It is estimated that we moderators collectively work for 466 hours a day, which is estimated to total about $3.4 million of unpaid work each year. In the past, there have been lots of sudden and immediate changes, as new features were launched and changes were made most times with very little notice, if any. This has created and will continue to create major disturbances and unexpected changes that lead to important repercussions us moderators have trouble keeping up. Entire subreddits have been created in order to address these issues, and promises to notice changes in advance have already been made and not been kept. Improvements have mostly been close to null, and us moderators usually are struggling to adapt to these changes. Also, on several occasions there have been inconsistencies between what and how reddit's management team claimed things would be changing and what and how things actually changed, which, again, gives us reason to place mistrust on reddit's official Administrators.

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The objective of this protest
With this protest, we aim to come to a compromise with reddit's management team for the pricing of the API to be left unchanged or negotiated to a reasonable value. We aim to achieve this by creating a blackout in many subreddits, as we hope that if a sufficient amount of subreddits go private reddit will be forced to disengage or alleviate those changes. The blackout will start 2023-06-12 (ISO 8601 date format (YYYY-MM-DD)), that is, Monday, June 12th of 2023. Some subreddits will halt the blackout for 48 hours, some for 24, some indefinitely. We have already accumulated 4039 subreddits who will be taking part in this blackout, with a number of 18306 moderators being part of the movement, with a collective userbase across all subreddits of 1,666,413,302 users (not unique, duplicate between subreddits) .
Celeste is a beautiful game and I love it a lot, in fact I would say it is one of my favorites, if not my favorite game. It will be sad that this subreddit has to go private but I assure you it will be worth it. I know this will be a difficult decision but I beg you to consider it, as this will be a very important moment in reddit's history.
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• For an incomplete and still growing list of subreddits that have joined the blackout and have over 50000 joined users, check here . For an incomplete and still growing list of subreddits that have joined the blackout and have under 50000 joined users (it had to be separated due to text limitations) check here .
• For more information on the subject, check here .
• Other sources of data: English Wikipedia site on Reddit

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As much as indefinitely would definitely be the most effective, we know that this may not be possible, so we urge you to join the blackout for as much time as you possibly can. Your efforts will be greatly appreciated.
Thank you in advance, written for the celestegame community by u/somepianoplayer .

I'm not normally the type to put too much stock into abstract things having meaning, so to speak. I work in STEM, and tend to be the type of person that believes in cold, hard fact and evidence that can be proven or demonstrated. However, a dream I had last night has stuck with me.
TLDBLUF: Married for eight (almost nine) years. Contemplating divorcing my husband. In addition to having serious anger problems, having a history of excessive drinking issues, and being emotionally, verbally, and psychologically abusive, he's also been chronically unemployed/underemployed for just about five years now. Over the past four years or so, he's also made some extremely irresponsible financial decisions, and I've basically been forced to financially 'clean up the mess', so to speak. He also refuses to get any type of help, and refuses to leverage (FREE!) resources that are available to him (he's a veteran). So, in a nutshell, not only have I been keeping us afloat for almost five years, but I've also simultaneously been treated like crap. I often feel like I'm essentially paying to be treated like crap, and it sucks donkey kong.
After years of putting up with it, I finally started taking a stand against it when 2023 began. I've been making efforts to eat healthier, exercise daily, save a small $ money each week (something is better than nothing), and most importantly, start pushing back on his abusive behavior. I also recently started therapy for myself.
Last night, I had a weird dream. In the dream, I had been informed that he was dead/had died. I have vivid images of what this dream included: being led to a coffin with his body in it, and me breaking down and crying over it. Another vivid image are a bunch of people/letters showing up at the front entrance of my house, with messages of support and care. The dream also included me randomly breaking down in tears at different times.
I can't help but wonder if this is some sort of 'sign', or something of the sort. Like, a proverbial 'nail in the coffin' signifying that this marriage really does need to or should end. Again, I'm not the type of person to put much stock into things like dreams, but this dream felt oddly cryptic, and so vivid it almost felt real.
Has anyone else had strange dreams as they navigate this process?

What's going on?

A recent Reddit policy change threatens to kill many beloved third-party mobile apps, making a great many quality-of-life features not seen in the official mobile app permanently inaccessible to users.
On May 31, 2023, Reddit announced they were raising the price to make calls to their API from being free to a level that will kill every third party app on Reddit. This is so catastrophic that at the time of this post some high profile third party apps have already announced their shut down dates.
The moderation team of ArtistLounge and ArtBusiness are reliant on these apps and should they become unavailable our team will be unable to care for these subreddits with consistency and speed. This is likely to also result in members of our team being unable to support our community at all. Every member of this moderation team is a volunteer who is passionate about art and the community that has been built here. We want to make this a place we all feel safe, informed and help it grow to support artists world-wide in finding their community and success in art. Should the proposed policy changes take place our team will be severely impacted and, as a user, you will see a decrease in quality and safety in our subreddits.
For many users, the shut down of these third-party apps will result in the inability to use Reddit on mobile, and in turn make Reddit completely inaccessible. The inability to use third party tools may also greatly impact users who require additional functionality and accessibility tools to access Reddit such as screen readers.
Although not immediately directly impacted, this is also a potential step toward killing other ways of customizing Reddit, such as Reddit Enhancement Suite, toolkit or the use of the old.reddit.com desktop interface and it’s CSS. ArtistLounge and ArtBusiness would cease to function without the use of such tools as the majority of our subreddit customisation relies on them to function.
Don’t let them take away what makes Reddit special

What's the plan?

On June 12th, many subreddits will be going dark to protest this policy. Some will return after 48 hours: others will go away permanently unless the issue is adequately addressed, since many moderators will be unable to safely support their subreddits.
At this time, there are currently no plans for ArtistLounge and ArtBusiness to extend the time beyond the planned 48 hour blackout. This may be subject to change. However, we will continue to keep information about the blackout, why it is happening, and how to support those protesting, clearly visible for as long as it is needed.
Additionally, we ask our community to support us in researching or generating ideas on how to create a safer home “hub” of sorts to archive our information and create a community that is not reliant on one singular platform. Our subreddits are special. I do not know of a place like this anywhere else on the internet. We cannot lose what we have built.
There has been an AMA/announcements from reddit since our original poll. However our concerns have not been alleviated by this and the poor treatment of third-party app developers, the reddit community, and this situation as a whole means we will continue with the planned blackout.
This decision was voted on by our community here: https://www.reddit.com/ArtistLounge/comments/14475z1/should_rartistlounge_and_rartbusiness_go_dark_in/

What can you do as a user?

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• Complain.
  • Message the mods of reddit, who are the admins of the site: message reddit: submit a support request: comment in relevant threads on reddit, such as this one. For more information about supporting third party apps please view this post.
• Spread the word.
  • Suggest anyone you know who moderates a subreddit join the coordinated mod effort at ModCoord. Speak to people IRL who may have no idea about this and share informational posts that explain the situation.
• Boycott and spread the word...to Reddit's competition!
  • Stay off Reddit entirely on June 12th through the 14th - instead, take to your favorite non-Reddit platform of choice and make some noise in support!
• Don't be a jerk.
  • Please make every effort to be as polite, reasonable and law-abiding as possible and remember the core value of our subreddit: to be kind to one another.
• Make art.
  • Use the voice you have, your creative spirit, to make change. Help this fuel your artistic passions.

What can you do as a moderator?

• Join the coordinated effort over at ModCoord
• Make a sticky post showing your support, A template has been created here you can use or modify to your liking, and be sure to crosspost it to ModCoord.

Thank you,
-The ArtistLounge and ArtBusiness Mod Team